Status: Animals are beasts.. but Humans are monsters
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Everything chould have been so perfect, but life ain�t a fairytale
I feel the wellknown feeling of my blood dripping down my arms. cooling it down with its bittersweet smell, I close my eyes and drift away in the well known pain, flying away from my troubled life into a bittersweet dream of my unshowen pain.
I feelt the pain, anger and hate growing steady up inside of me for years, filling up getting ready to burst out. oh how I fear that day that I will snap and all my feeling break free and control me.
There is something inside of me that doen�st mix. Something I can not fix, something thats not right. messing up my mind, cutting open my scars makeing me bleed.
Why am I so good at hidding my feelings, Why did no one see my despreat cry of help until it was to late and I was far gone. into the world of darkness where all you meet is your own pain following you as a shadow, that torments you with your lonelyness and despair
why am I doomed to sit here in my dark sorrow, planning my revenge while you are out there living free of worries and pain, while I sit here torn into pices dreaming and seeking of salavation and happynes, all I wish to be is saved from this living nightmare.
If god is true and just. how come he torments me and brings me pain instead of light and salavation. how come I am the one to desvere to get trambled on bullied and hated. what have I done to be the one he hates and bullys? please lord give me an answer !
Ever feelt the everlasting burning pain of lonelyness creeping up your body burning your mind heart and soul as it goes while all you can do is sit and wait for it to go away and hope for that helping hand of a friend that never comes so all you do is buring up inside.
I Scream for help but no one hears it I reach out for help but no one catchs me. I lie in a pool of my blood bleeding in my room where the door is gone the windows shut and the walls comeing closer. I cant breath I cant think I lay to slowly sufficate.
Love is a slow killer. reaching in thoucing your heart and mind closing it down to mistakes torturing you until you are on the edge of insanity for then to leave you for a while to come back and scar you even deeper down until you are only one big wound waiting to heal.
I wanna see you drenced from happines and joy. I wanna see you lie down in the corner bleeding and bleeding until you are so drie that you cant breath. I wanna enjoy every moment of pain you get for every single time you hurted me I will get you back a million times worse ! you did this to me you made me sick you made me dark you made me !I will never forget and I will never forgive !
You sicken me. how chould you do it ! how could you stab the knife in my back so deep when I trusted you the most of all. how can you life with the fact that I got tortured right in front of you and all you did was watch me crying inside for help ! how chould you say we where friends and the betray me with out even blinking with your eye. all for you own benifit not thinking on the pain you may make and the hatred you may wake.
Does Love exist or is it a myth a dream ? a fairytale from the old happy days of flowers and beauty? or is love really a pain so deep in your soul you cant heal it or control it. a pain so hard its unbeareable.
In the deep dark deepst of my mind I seeking the comforting solitude. wich helps me life and breath. the one place where no pain can reach me the one place where I can keep all my secrest hidden
I despise you I hate you you sickness me ! all I wannna do is feed you my year long restend anger and unleash it upon you with so a fearsonme strenght that you will tremble to you kness and beg for mercy for all the things you did. but I will never show you mercy I will suck up every bit of joy and happnies in you life until you are just and empty shell a slave to my mind and command until you are so emptyheaded that you are like dead then I will be satisfed then I will have my revenge !
The pain is unberable its so intense I cant stand it. please sweet healing time come heal my wounds why do they bleed so much make it stop. make my wounds go away make them scares that no one can rip one and that I can hide under my skin away from sight away from seeking looks.
Seeking my home. where do i belong ? Seeking my hope where has it gone ? Seeking my faith, in what do I belive ? seeking my soul is it still there ? Seeking my destiny, what do I become?
I have feelt the hate rising in up in me I have feelt the anger grow along with it. and its an anger and hate that will keep burning and growing under my skin as long as I rember you. so long I havnt feelt your blood dripping down my skin knowing your dead then my hate and anger dies along with you
This world is going to be a scary place for you now you have woken the demon in me. a demon that will give no mercy no plea can calm it down before your blood is spilled over its face and you bones broken and your heart have stopped beating, you bones ripped free from flesh and boiled an feeded to the crows of death follwing.
Dear friend reach out your hand a catch me I�m falling. help me up and hold me tight dont let me fall into the blackness save me from this hell and lead me to the light. help me get out from my solitude in my shell and heal my wounds with your laughter.
Heaven wont have me hell wont take me i wonder alone in the dark abyss waiting for company. walking a.round in darkness seeking listing to the sounds sournding me hopeing it to be a friendly face.
I sit here in the cold dark, only with the company of my inner demons trying to break free. I try to hold them back, but they wont stay inside they wanna be free and control me in a stream of emotions I bleed inside Wanting to die hopeing to life. seeking a way out of the pain in my head all the memories all the scars keeping ripping open. take me away from this hell, take me to heaven let me see the light at the end of the tunnel as long as I get away from theise demons thats buring my soul from the inside.
My love for you is like a flame that wont die. it keeps burning me. when I see you my heart breaks at the sight at what I long so much to hold but cant have. to see your smile is like being in heaven and being tortured at the same time. the memories of you still haunts me. your hug your smell your smile your laugh ohh I miss it. come back to me dont leave me in fury dont hate me dont close your heart. I love you until my last breath until my eyes close and my heart stops.
I cant stand the pain. its in my head. its in my bones. its in my veins. its in my very soul. I cant fight it, cant cure it, I need help, it burns. help me. bring me a cure. make it go away, stop it. it bleeds inside it rips me open. I fell sick cant escape the pain!
I have created a sheild around myself. a sheild to keep everyone out. no one gets inside it to se the real me. no one gets inside to see the blood dripping from my wounds. no one ever gets to thouch me again like you did. you scared me. you made me bleed like a flood. I cant make it stop. I need you to heal me. but you left please come and take down the sheild and heal my wounds so I can get outside my shell and breath.
Dont lay your past behind you, seek it out. seek the answers you allways have wondered about. cuz if you dont get your answers your past will come back op and rip open your wounds of old and make them into ever bleeding scars because of the questions you never got answered. all you old horros and feelling will turn back as ghost to haunt you. to torment you. into insanaty. until you are on the edge of breakdown. so seek out your past. get those questions answered.
Have you ever get your heart ripped out. and seen it beat in the hand of the one you love. to just see your heart thrown away into the corner were it still beats slower and slower until it finally stops and every second it beats fells like a thousand knifes made of ice pierceing through your body until you are just one big empty shell of pain seeking salvation and answers of why the person you love have tossed you away like you where disgusting vermin.
I dont cut my self because I�m sad. cutting my self is a pleasure to me. I cut my self to fell the pain of the wound. to fell the blood dripping down my arms until I�m allmost unconsius. to smell the sweet smell of my fresh blood as it runs over my arms. to hear the silent drops fall to the floor into a big pool until my cloth is all covered and bloodspilled.
I have digged my fellings away buried them 6 feet deep. cant fell a thing so just say what you want about hate me ditch me try to break me. you will never get succes I have turned into an empty shell. but beware if you try to break me. I will take you down with me. down into the darkness where I�m used to be but where you will be scared and alone listing for noices unknown. voices of pain wich I have brought with me on my part of emptyness.
Why worry about life when it all leads to the same end ?. no matter what you do no matter where you are its allways sure you will die in one way or another so why even worry ? just sit back relax enjoy the ride before it stops cuz you only get one trip and the line is long.
Why do I keep listing to your lies. why do I belive you when I know you are not telling me the truth?. why do I so want you when I know I cant have you for my own ? why wont my love for you die when I know you are cheating me.
Have you ever been so far out that you dont care anymore ?. you just close your eyes lean back and fall into the dark abyss and fell as the dark is a sorting bath that heals your wounds and closes your scar while you just keep falling and falling. and while you are falling you fell the pain of a thousand years on your skin like ice piecering trough your heart. until you hit the bottom and think you cant fall anymore until the floor starts crumbling and you fall even deeper and continue to fall until you have lost concsen and dont know where you are. you are just and empty shell breathing and thinking with no fellings.
I close my eyes and drift away on this sky of happynies you gave me. while I fly I can fell the thouch of your lips against mine. the felling of you in my arms. the smell of you hair. I can see the beatifull colour of your eyes. I�m lost in my own joy of you. you are my everything with out you I chouldnt exist. where ever you are I belong so please dont let go of me. let me fly with you. until the gates of heaven opens for us and lets us in the share our love until the end of time.
The sun goes down the moon goes up. the leaves fall of the winter comes. the winter rain pours down. the circle of life goes on even tho you are not here anymore. you have become a part of nature. a part of me. your the spring flowers popping up every where. I miss you. I miss you like the birds miss the sun. like the tress miss the spring rain. like a caged bird misses freedom I miss you.
you grave is cold. your ashes is gone. your soul has gone to a better place and left me behind. alone in the dark. with no one to guide me with no one to help me. and I didnt even got to say goodbye.
I fell the wind in my hair. the cold air in my lounges. my body fells light. I�m allmost flying. the shackels around my hands has been released I�m free. I�m going. drifting away in a dream. or wait is this real ? am I flying ? is it a dream or the sweet releasing thouch of death that finally come to take me away.?
Fell the sun on your skin. fell the wind in your hair. smell the fresh smell of wet leaves in the morning. fell how it refrehses your body and soul. fell how it makes you free. fell how it makes you think you can fly. even tho you cant fly because you are locked down in the heavey chains of reality.
Staring at myself through the mirror. I can barely regonise this beast I have become. I cant fell my self under this prison of flesh and bones. I got something inside my brain. I can regonise myself I�m fading I cant find myself where am I. is this beast of a refelction really me. ?
Why do I fail all the time. why cant I do everything good enough like I used to. why am this thing with no life not breath no life nothing to life for. where is the light the strenght to pull me back up. the spirit to guide me. the angel to save me from this hell why can I only see darkness no matter where I turn. why do I only hear the ghosts of my haunted past that plays on my fears until I go insane from the fire of the inner pain breed by my demon. stars layout powered by HOTFreeLayouts.com / MyHotComments
Likes:pissing of people I don�t like, snakes, music,the norse mythology, Dragons, Real Madrid, the french revolution cuz the realised that some peoples heads doesnt have to be connceted with their body. Thunder, Darkness, Rain. Vampires, Wolfs, sharks, werewolfs, All kinds of mythic monsters and creatures.
Dislikes:people that has to use � words all the time instead of just useing the normal word. Racists.
Favorite Music:Slipknot, Eminem,Proof, Stone sour, Disturbed, Mudvayne, In flames, Gretchen, Korn,Dimmu borgir, Godsmack, Bloodbath, Hatebreed, Murderdolls, Heaven shall burn, Soulfly, Slayer.Suicide Silence.Cradle of Filth, Exhume yourself, illdisposed, Made of Hate,ECHOES OF ETERNITY,Devils Gift, Deathmarch, Serpent Underground,Devildriver,Lamb of God,Dethklok,Immortal Technique,All That Remains,Cannibal Corpse,Blind Guardian, Hammerfall, August Burns Red,ELUVEITIE, Sonata Arctica, Archeon, Chimaira, Soilwork, Soil, Sepultura, AMORPHIS, Tyr.SIC, Thousand Foot Krutch.