Hey, I'm nicotine Hero. I'm eighteen, single, if that matters.. I don't have a lot of respect for people, and it's pretty obvious that the feeling is mutual. I spend my days doing really whatever I like, but it's not fun, I'm usually alone and doing nothing more than smoking and watching television. I practice many forms of meditation, none of them work as well as I'd like but hey, I try. I don't really like violence outside of entertainment, I'm a pacifist of sorts. I'm am all that is peace, I believe in nature's love, and I don't respond kindly to.. arrogance. I know and believe strongly in a lot of dark things, things that people tend to refuse to understand, I say this because it's obvious that I'm different, but to make clear that I am not taking any questions. If they concern you, I'll inform you, period. For the record, I recently turned eighteen, and I'm not going to see anyone under that age, there's too many people to fuck that one up. I'm not perfect, in fact I'm damn far from it, I don't expect your acceptance, all that I ask is that if you have anything to do with me, you keep it respectful, and I'll gladly return the same energy. If otherwise, I'll gladly return the same, if not worse, negative energy. It's a dog eat dog world, and I don't plan to be on the bottom. I stand against any abuse, whether it be violence, sexual battery, animal abuse, anything that deserves no other title than ''Fucked Up". Some people like to spread rumors, me being being better than them stops the fire by not adding fuel, leaving me with my only option, tell the truth and hope people believe me over compulsive liars. I'm one of the most misunderstood people I know, aside from being the egotistic bastard I'm made out to be. People never understand that everyone has decisions, and that usually any path they take might hurt at least one person, that's basically my case, my curse. I usually tend to take the path in which the person being hurt is more capable of handling it than the other, it makes me an evil asshole, I know. At least the suicide rates aren't up, I've been around some pretty unstable people, and letting them go was harder than deciding whether to hang myself or drown myself. I'm usually in some form of a bad mood, anger is the leader. I'm running on hate, and I have my reasons. When you catch me at a good time, I can be the most chilled out, well mannered fucker ever, but people don't want to see that because the believe others, rather than talking to me about it. I can't lie, I have done fucked up things in my life, not what people think, but enough to make me hate myself. I've dumped some girls for others, cheated twice,(yes only twice, which occured in Cobleskill only), I've lied(all of the time for the best intentions, which people also can't understand.) Regardless, I'm not a good person, but I don't think I'm a bad person, it took a lot of people telling me shit like this to get it through my thick head, and I thank them.

No lights on, blacklights, strobe lights, techno, raves, weapons (guns, swords, knives, pole arms, ect.) blood, cigarettes, art (music, visual, literature ect.ect.), fishnets, sex, music, friends, my parents (the coolest fucking people in the world, no lie) music, video games, death, nature, rain, kissing, drinking, hugs, emo boys (not sure why, they just turn me on), and much more..

Niggers (not black people, they're cool, just the ignorant, insolent, selfish, egotistic fucking bastards in this world.) I am not racist, it's just a word.>>> Not having money, which comes up a lot. Not being able to find a job. Being in pain. My teeth, 3 cavities. How I always manage hurting myself. My immune system, always getting sick. My throat, always being sore and infected with something. When piercings get fucked up. Not having anything to do. Laggy video games. My computer, slow, old, but it gets the job done, so I can't complain much.. I do need either an upgrade or a new one.. if you can help, that'd rock. Waking everywhere I need to go, not having a car/license. Burnt food. This city and all of the pathetic excuses for "gangs" we have. The Schenectady Police Department. Actually... the entire NYS justice system. Yeah, there is way more, don't expect me to write it all, maybe I'll add more if I'm bored.

Avenged Sevenfold, Brian Warner, Jack Off Jill, Red hot Chili Peppers, The Misfits, Leftover Crack, Operation Ivy, Rise Against, Richy Nix, Black Flag, Creedence Clearwater Revival, Willie Nelson, Johnny Cash, Tool.. Too much more to even consider writing more down..