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My name is Zainah (Zay-na) which is arabic for beautiful. Who cares. I live in Canada with a population of 1 million bears. I'm a Muslim. Deal with it. I have no problem talking to someone who is not. I won't add you if you don't say anything because you come off as a creep. Don't hit on me first time speaking to me because you'll seem like a retard who fails at life. In my free time I like to work out or do activities because I get tired of sitting around developing for games. I enjoy cooking and talking to people who are too cool for school. For most of the day, I'm a grump. Also I listen to metal. If you want my msn or imvu ask.

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IndustrialAngel [Reply]	May 25, 2012, 08:45pm kshflkjdhs Poor Coco! that does suck. But at least you get to keep her. For me and Bebo it was tolerance. So I'm lucky that way. and with Barik too (the german shepard) But yeah growing out of a nut allergy is intense. but lucky her that's great maybe her allergy wasn't as bad in the first place either? but that's cool. Hope you're get better! O_O And lucky about KITTY CUDDLES. I'm jealous. ha Bebo will cuddle when she wants... but usually she's a vicious little freak, and she has all her claws, and they're scary. O_o So she'll come cuddle in the middle of the night! haha and she'll sleep right by my head, and I'll be scared to move because I don't know what her mood is. LOL Yeah I'm aware, she did mention she was Muslim and Yeah I think you did write it in your profile. I do not see a therapist. I'm sorry lady. I'm glad things are better for you and I'm glad you had those hard ships, it makes you the girl I adore talking to so much. But I am sorry that you had to go through all that. were you and Sarah close back then too? But I understand, no need to talk about it. regardless. I appreciate you and adore you. OHLALA that's super exciting!! sounds like fun! I do hope the weather is good and you ladies have a good time. that's so cute!♥ Tell me about it!!! I want to know!! hehe. But eek that sucks about the hives and rashes O_o I hope they ease up as you get older. Maybe you're body will build up the tolerance to such things. SAME HERE. I hardly ever cried, but once I got into this relationship with the boy.. well when he broke my heart it was yeah/./ but nah i'm the same way hardly ever cried. never cried in front of people. always when I was alone, the silent cry. I totally understand. I say don't give up on Diego. There is still time and things may seem rough right now but don't give up. If it's pure and it holds true, something will happen. LOL You're so cute♥ I'm glad you have that connection with someone. that distance really makes people appreciate one another though that's forsure. so I mean accept what you're mother says but in the end it's you're choice. and yeah. Cute, well I do hope you get to chat maybe once this weekend since it's his birthday. but hmm present.. well I don't know what kinda stuff he's into... maybe a drawing?" Write him a letter? Agreed and same here. A lot of the departments know me there too so I tend to try and avoid going... but Meh, well last couple years haven't been too bad. but before... my dad would get all these allergic reactions and what not, and yeah I'd be the mature responsible one that can FUNCTION.. so I'd go with my dad or drive or whatever. yeah meh the hospital here SUCKS. I hate it. and refuse to go for myself... and will always listen carefully when they diagnose someone especially when it's a family member. yeah family relations are a little.. too much for me... O_o Arranged marriages kinda bug me too... my parents were in one... weren't forced but it was set as an option... I'm sorry about the stupid jerk. he's an asshole. But ouch about the punishment with your parents. I've never really been in a dating relationship till this one so it's weird... my parents know, but it's never been officially talked about openly.. meh just how our family is. the first guy i did consider dating.. I asked permission from my parents and they said no.. in which i just went behind their backs and hung out with him always. ha.. meh people are fuckignskjghfdlkjgh relationships sigh stupid guys from my past. ha Wee I'm super excited for you and Sarah too! that's awsome and I hope it ALL goes well!!! ENJOY and have lots of fun!! for me. nothing special just working. kinda lame but it's gotta happen. ha Gotta make the money. sigh I do get 3 days off next week but meh i dont know waht the weather is suppose to be like and I don't know... I need to work I need the money... I need another job. Rian said we'd do something but if it's nice out, he's gotta go help his uncle and aunt with stuff so it's like well then wtf. but yeah we'll see what happens. Yumm I'm totally craving bad foods too. I really want fries. ha
miss_devil_wish [Reply]	May 25, 2012, 12:18pm yeah well you should try and do something different this time, it's gonna be fun i think yes i do hate it but i check it out once in a while just to keep in touch with my friends and sisters cause i never open my msn ... anything different i get the chance to do mostly crazy stuff including the bungee jumping [My.Obsession]
DemonBehemoth [Reply]	May 25, 2012, 10:05am Darn I worded that terribly. Sorry, I mean it sounds like your sister has moved out if your house.
NoOneSuspectsMe [Reply]	May 25, 2012, 09:40am Thats great!! I'm glad to hear it. Last I heard you were having some troubles I believe. Battling illness and such. I've just been playing A LOT of shows. A lot out of town. Like our Chicago expirence..which honestly could have been A LOT better. And yes..I have many stories..where should I begin?? I've also been spending any free time I do get with Amber..my ladyfriend. The doppelgangers are just randoms from around here..that and the Dexter guy..and one guy said I look like a long haired Matt Damon once..and when I had my goatee: Ashton Kutcher... I've gotten that sentiment from her.. Quote "I AM NEVER WRONG"..She's told me that many times. I'm not "really" tall..I am working on building some more muscle. Though..I've only been to the gym once in the past 3 weeks..ugh. I'm losing it again!!
DemonBehemoth [Reply]	May 23, 2012, 09:48pm Does your sister still live work you and your family?
IndustrialAngel [Reply]	May 23, 2012, 09:11pm I'm only really scared of needles if they're pushing something in... AIR BUBBLES... O_o terrifying. But yeah you're right, needles harldy phase me these days... damn past ha. Oh my O_o you poor lady. But I'm glad your allergies are now tolerable and what not!~ O_O I don't have many allergies, I grew out of most of them I think... When I was a kid I was definitely allergic to freshly cut grass and pollen, But I out grew it. Sometimes it bugs me but definitely tolerable! Though, When me and Rian broke up, and then we got back together, and I was at his place, I started to get allergic to Bebo, the cat! I hadn't been around for a couple months, and it started to bug me. But not I'm good again! thankfully! ha Ahh yes, I am aware you are Muslim. You little good kids! Aww I hope your friend is okay and all that. I know what that's like. it's a toughy. But I agree! I'm a hypocrite I guess. I mean I... well the only thing i do these days is smoke a joint ever now and then.. but it's definitely not regularly! Mind you.. when I lived on the streets and what not, I did get into some really shitty stuff, it all sucked, but I've been clean now for about 3 years.. haven't even drank! haha. Just some weed ever now and then. Though I do refuse to take any pills from the therapists for depression. Oh really? so you're highly allergic?! what happens? That's a bummer! But no no, not an idiot. smart! considering everyone is all about save the world, yet they dont' even know what that means. ha you are REAL and have a purpose to look at what is it what. smart. seriously. ha I'm happy for Sarah too that's so great. I hope you find yourself a lovely man. Lucky guys! That or something works out between you and Diego in the future! Ohlala you're already a foxy lady! haha I need to work out more! I've been lazy sigh ha. TOMORROW. i will start tomorrow! but I'm glad you are feeling better! Ha yeah last summer when I was single, I'd grab my bag fill it with whatever I thought I might need for the day and just went and sat at the park a couple blocks away from my work, nap and read int eh grass, and just walk over when I had to work! LOL. was lovely though. felt great. cried, drew pictures. whatever ha. Yeah I dont' know how I made it through the 5 hour nose bleed. I was a nose bleeder when I was a kid, that's for sure! I had nose bleeds that would last like 2 hours and what not too. but that 5 hours FREAKED ME out. i was getting really scared, started getting really tired! GOt there, the guy asked how long it had been bleeding i said 5 hours, i think he thought i said 5 minutes... because he said it was normal.. FUCK HIM. lol I was pale white... it was brutal. But I've gone to the hospital for nose bleeds numerous time. at least 5 times, and each time they had to burn my nose...with sulphur! it was weirdd. ha I just had a really thin tissue in my nose.. kinda why i've been avoiding getting my nose pierced... ha but seems okay lately. I will definitely get some pictures to you soon! when I'm on my laptop and what not. Also ask Sarah! I sent her a couple in previous comments! I'm sure she'll show. nothing special yet. but i'll send both of you pictures of around my city and some of my favourite places!! hugs What is he going to school to study. sigh expectations. Must remember it's always with good intentions. But I understand. My parents are the same... They're older though so it's hard... But as for myself, I was suppose to be the boy of the family.. so yeah it SUCKS...I was expected to get good grades, top 5 or even 3 students in the class... I don't know ha. they kicked me out numerous times.. they've learnt to be more open with me though.. since I did get kicked out and since I did live on my own and what not... I had to learn on my own and i adapted. they realized I do what I want and what I need to do now... I still respect them and it's not like I'm disrespecting them in any way. Not that I mean to anyways. it's just how I need to be. My parents never really cared to talk to me about love or anything ha. too awkward. But whatever blah ha I'll explain next time.. it's a long story. ha My time with Rian was great.♥ it was really nice. like a couple days ago i had a mini break down and I just... it was great he reassured me a lot and it was perfect. bottom line. I am inlove with him. He made my heart flutter the other night. He was hugging me and like half asleep, i asked him to move over, and then he like woke up and just hugged me tighter and said I love you so much.and it was so cute. I couldn't believe it. ha. ♥
NoOneSuspectsMe [Reply]	May 23, 2012, 04:59pm Are you okay though? I've been away but it has been some of the most fun I've ever had. I've got some awesome stories being on the road. I can't see it. But. Again people tell me all the time I look like people. Apparently I have about 5 or 6 doppelgangers. I don't think I look like anyone though. Well PVR is Personal Video Recorder..PVR is a merchandising term used for the DVR. Sarah has been arguing about that with me for a while now saying DVR doesn't exist. But. If you Google that shit DVR is the correct term. I had never heard of PVR before. That's terrible! I hope you get to spend more time together!! I was concerned because usually I hear from her every now and then..but...nothing for weeks now! I'm glad shes okay though. 135 is small! That must just be a general range covering all body types. I've got some broad shoulders and a giant back. I'd look sickly skinny if I got in the 130s or 140s
IndustrialAngel [Reply]	May 21, 2012, 10:10am Oh shush! akjsd But I enjoy creating a REAL conversation, and I appreciate that you put in the effort too!♥ HHuh... that is strange, but oh well. Bu8t eek! I've never had to do one of those allergy tests O_o But my dad has and my friend O_o sdkjghfdkjh ARGH! I can't handle the rows of needle holes, well marks left. I dont' know why but ever since I was a kid, a cluster of tiny dots like that, freak me out.. give me a weird itchy but like uncomfortable feeling O_o But wow you and Sarah are both allergic to weed?! that's crazy. well not really. but Blah. what happens? Are you able to drink alcohol then? I'm allergic to Sulphur too.. but the thing is direct contact hasn't really bugged me (found out in grade 10 chemistry, when my prof came up to me with a huge block of it) but I can't drink certain wines, the fermentation of the sulphur burns and irritates me. But I can still drink beer and hard liqueur! haha. Aww thanks lady. My hair gets annoying ha I'll need to trim it soon again. I wanna dye it all a bright red!! haha or blue. Bahah you're too cute. Heheh aww! so cute. Glad it all went well~ and so happy to hear things are all working out smoothly. I hope you are or get to be as happy as Sarah with a boy soon! that's soo cuteee! I hope you're feeling better though! that's a bummer! But glad you had someone to talk to through the day. I used to get really bad nose bleeds when I was a kid.. one lasted 5 hours... O_o I' know I'm so jealous that you're so close to one! damn you! haha But indeed, I'll have to send you some pictures! Thank you kindly. Yeah my book collection has definitely expanded, I've gotten rid of a bunch already too. sadly. But uh yeah Biographies are great! and you picked the right ones! ha Where does Diego live right now? hugs I'm sorry lady, that situation is a toughy. I really hope things clear up and ease up for that matter~ sigh i understand though. And I'm sorry your mother isn't as understanding. but It's all with good intentions. But remmeber the bottom line is, you. and you need to think about yourself and YOUR happiness, not approval from your mother. hugs Things are good. I guess. It was nice yesterday, thunder storm, got to hang out with Rian, no work~ haha my boss called and said we're gonna stay closed. which was nice!! I'd been working all week. and today is a holiday so that's nice too the weather is beautiful i wanna wear a dress haha but i dont know. family is bickering hard so it's been stressful and like I've noticed i guess i've been clenching my teeth lots.. so there's like the lin on the inside of my cheeks... sigh I had a mini break down lastnight, I went to Rian's and just cried for about an hour. sigh so today is kinda a bummer, because originally I wanted to go to Grand Marais with parents.. but I guess not happening. blah. I gotta work on my resume and what not today too.
DemonBehemoth [Reply]	May 21, 2012, 01:50am Ah darn. Sorry, how is your sis?
NoOneSuspectsMe [Reply]	May 20, 2012, 05:53pm God..I'm such a failure at being a friend.. I've really been outrageously busy though!! I'm sorry.. I watched some science shows, old cartoons and some comedians. Thats it. I hear so many good things about Dexter. I've seen a few episodes of it a few years ago. Even heard from some people that I look like Dexter! Really though I don't want to be "controlled" by TV. To where I constantly want to watch a show to know what happens. Does that make sense? PVR..Ha. Sarah and I were "arguing" about that..its not PVR. Its DVR!! Its Digital Video Recorder! OH..And is Sarah ok? She hasn't messaged me back in forever..and hasn't answered any texts I've sent in weeks. I'll have to look that up..I've never known what mine is. But apparently I'm supposed to weigh between 135 and 185 pounds. Which is nuts..I'm 160 now..If I lost 25 more pounds I could wear a sock as a sweater. Thats TOO SKINNY

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