Height: 5'6" Weight: 140 Hair Color: Brown Eye Color: Brown Birthday: September 3rd. Zodiac: Virgo/Three. Biggest Fear: Aliens Occupation: Computer Technician Smoke: Nope. Drink: No, I have absolutely no tolerance to that stuff. One bloody wine cooler and I'm dizzy. =/ Weaknesses: Kaya, Vitas, Any soft textures, the candy Warheads, color-coordination, and green eyes. Favorite VF Friends: Akuna [Aku <3] and Mr-Fxxer [Kiri]
My name is Kendra, and I like to think that I'm a nice person, I'm always kind to everyone until given a reason not to be. I'll do whatever it takes to get a smile out of someone. Albeit I'm not perfect, I have my moments of ignorance and stupidity, which I'm sure are much more common than the times I show some intelligence. When it comes to my personality, I've found that I'm different according to who I'm with. That doesn't mean I'm fake or putting on a show, but I just think certain types of people bring out certain sides of oneself. I tend to always think in a negative manner, and if I don't know, I'll assume the worst-possible-event has happened, and this goes for a lot of aspects of my life. I just try to imagine the absolute worst so that if it's not that bad, I'll feel fine. Anyway, don't be afraid to contact me on AIM/MSN/or Yahoo.
Username Explanation: I do not, nor do I ever want to have schizophrenia. I've never considered it a 'cool' thing to have it, or pretend you do. This was just a role-play alias, nothing more. So, no, I don't hear voices in my head.
My Views On:
My Life: This isn't going to be about me complaining about my 'messed up life,' because I don't have one. I believe that if I imagine anything happening, it won't happen, and this has been true all through my life. I have this negative thinking, and for whatever reason, the opposite of what I think is always what happens. This is obviously my oddest view, and can't be proven unless you live my life. But, this profile is about me, so I felt I should add it.
Religion: Religion doesn't bother me, and I'm not going to insult it. Religion has it's pros and cons. Without religion, there would surely be a lot more murders and whatnot going on, because the fear of punishment in the afterlife does stop quite a lot of people, so at least it helps with that. [Now, to those who nitpick the previous statement. I am referring to cold-blooded killers. I am quite aware of the Crusades, and the religion wars that have taken the lives of so many people. That is the double-edged sword of religion. But, did religion really cause those wars? Or did man hide behind it to make their intentions seem noble and justified?] For my religion though, I do believe there is a God, because I'm a human that can not fathom the idea of dying without having all of my questions asked. If God is real, I'd like to sit down and have one nice, long chat with him. I've taken on the beliefs of many religious theories otherwise. I believe in the dream theory and reincarnation. Deism is also an interesting religion theory, and there's plenty of other interesting ones that I think could be possible.
Sex: I am very old-fashioned, or at least that's what I have been told. I believe in sex after marriage, or maybe sex in a long-term relationship, maybe. Call me a prude or a goody-goody if you'd like, but it's not going to change anything. I've never once committed one sexual or even intimate act, ever. Which renders me immaculate, in the physical sense at least. I don't have much respect for those who are horribly promiscuous, but they can do whatever they want to. I just hate how sex has become an obsession in this country, and people with morals have become as rare as the Ebola virus in America.
Drugs And Alcohol: I'm really not a fan of either. Drinking once in a while isn't a bad thing, but I can't really drink...because I'm the only girl I know who has gotten drunk off of a wine-cooler. My tollerance is nonexistent. I really don't like people who just get drunk constantly, but if that's their idea of fun, then they can do whatever they want. As for drugs, I'm just not up for addictions, or not being able to control my own body or actions, so I prefer not to try any of them. I don't approve of them, but some of my friends use them, and it's their choice to make, not mine.
Attention: One of my biggest pet-peeves is being ignored. I absolutely and utterly hate it. Now, this doesn't mean that when I'm not the center of attention that I go raging mad, but when I'm talking to someone and they're not paying attention at all, it gets on my last nerve. I also get annoyed when I say something, are not recognized for it, and then someone mentions the exact same thing afterwards, and is praised.
Straight Edge: A small amount of people I know are straight-edge, and I support it. Though, the 'X' that people put on their hands, I really think it's quite silly. Usually druggies don't go around with a symbol on them saying 'I'm a druggie, give me drugs," and the X just seems like you're saying "I'm drug-free, yay for not doing drugs!" The idea just kind of bothers me. I've also noticed that some kids who flaunt being straight-edge, are incredibly rude and heavily involved with their social clique.
Being True To Yourself: I have extremely high respect for people who can be themselves, and do whatever they like to, because that's who they are. So even if you are cruel and mean, but honest and opinionated, I probably have a lot of respect for you.
Labels And Stereotypes: Nobody really likes labels or stereotypes, but they're bound to be made one time or another. Although, if I see one more person on this site say that they are goth, punk, emo, skater, etcetera...I'll be forced to abort every single pacifistic value I have. If people are going to stereotype, they'll be able to do it just by appearance alone, so for the love of being 'unique,' don't label yourself. Everyone is their own individual, unless you happen to be the type of person who lacks a personality and bases their life off of what celebretities tell you to do. And, the people who say 'I hate preps, I hate ghetto people, I hate emo kids,' some of you claim you say that because they're mean to you, but with an attitude like that, what do you hypocrites expect?
Grammar: To the people who would type something such as: "Hi wut iz ^?! i am $o $m@rt!!" I will most-likely not talk to you, unless you're just mocking others who use that kind of spelling, or if you're just having some fun in 1337-speak. It's not because I'm mean, it's because I'm just a grammar-freak most of the time, and talking to someone who types like a first grader is quite irritating. Learn how to spell, will you?
Font-Faces And Lingo: This is a bad habit that refuses to die. I use font-faces, and 'lol' a lot. Many find it annoying, but I don't at all. Font-faces just make me feel like I'm talking to an actual person, because they're showing me what they're feeling and such, it also makes it much easier to not misinterpret what people say online. If my use of font-faces bothers you, you just have to tell me and I'll stop.
Public Displays Of Affection: All right people, keep your tongues to yourself. PDAs are really starting to get bothersome when I walk around and see all these young hormonal couples sucking face for an hour.
Politics and Anarchy: This is such a dirty subject. I really dislike politics, all it's about is who can lie the best, but I still find it to be a somewhat interesting subject. As for my political views, I'm a democrat, but I have also liked a few republican presidents. As for anarchy, it is a silly idea to begin with. Sure, I may very much dislike our government, but the idea of not having it at all frightens me. Let's face it, people are generally too stupid to be able to govern themselves, and I really don't like the idea of a country being thrown into complete and utter chaos. Angsty-teenage-anarchists typically bother me as well, but really only the ones who go into a Hot Topic, buy their anarchy gear, and then pay government taxes on them, hypocrites. Anarchy is just a bad idea.
Marriage: Marriage IS about love, at least I believe it should be. Unless you're in Japan, but here I believe gay marriages should be legal if a homosexual couple wants to get married. I do plan to be married one day, and I loathe the idea of divorce. Only me and my best friend have parents who haven't divorced, and I just think it's a horrible thing, especially when there's children envolved. If only people would work more at their marriages and not fly off to divorce court after the first conflict.
Relationships: Relationships are something I think people abuse now. There's so many 'relationships' that last a week now...and I find that to be rather sad. I've never been in a relationship, because no one seems to like me where I live. If I was in one though, I'd give my all for it, because I'm not fickle and all I really want is a relationship. But don't get me wrong, I am picky...I'm not going to waste my time with someone that I know will just rid of me once he or she has had their fun. And, to make myself sound like a hypocrite, I do feel like a stake of loneliness has hit me whenever I see so many happy couples or people bragging about their girlfriend or boyfriend. Don't get me wrong, I'm very happy for them, to know that people do still believe in love, but it just hurts to see it, and be taunted by it. Not to mention, I always have a hard time fightng off the jealousy and envy, two emotions I try hardest to fight off. These are just opinions and thoughts of a little naive girl, I don't expect anything to change from them, just to let my words be heard.
In General: Role Playing, Vitas, nice people, honesty, aviation, smiles, laughter, philosophy, intellectuals, art, Japan, video games, photography, digital-imaging, photomanipulation, The Spice Girls, people who don't use drugs, movies with good plots, Quistis Trepe, rainbows, energy drinks, Angel Sanctuary, astrology, dream-studies, fruit smoothies, Kaya, someone who actually likes me, guys who wax their eyebrows, gay-pride celebrations, sour candy, warheads, anyone who can make me smile and laugh, and a large amount of other things.
Movies: Oldboy, V For Vendetta, Death Trance, Battle Royale, The Crow, The Prophecy, The Place Promised in Our Early Days, FFVII: Advent Children, Fight Club, Wanted, Stardust, Suspect Zero, Virtuosity, Titanic, War of the Worlds, Gattaca, Ichi the Killer, Suicide Club, Curse of the Golden Flower, Velvet Goldmine, Flyboys, The Prestige, The Professional, American History X, Moonchild, Secret Window, Se7en, Girl Interrupted, Party Monster, Interview With The Vampire, Finding Neverland, Spice World, Ghostship, Carrie, Collateral, The Thirteenth Floor, Sleepy Hollow, The Punisher, and plenty of others that I can't remember.
Anime: Gankutsuou: The Count Of Monte Cristo, Neon Genesis Evangelion, Yukikaze, Tenjho Tenge, Wolf's Rain, Appleseed, Tokyo Godfathers, Serial Experiments Lain [Until the End], RahXephon, Berserk, Trigun, Monster, Elfen Lied, Peacemaker, Hellsing, Basilisk, Angel Sanctuary, Trinity Blood, I, Me, Me! Strawberry Eggs, Samurai Gun, E's Otherwise, Kyo Kara Maoh! God(?) Save Our King!, Gantz, Area 88, Grave Of The Fireflies, Genshiken, Gungrave, Last Exile, Fafner, Visions of Escaflowne, Weiss Kreuz, 08th MS Team, Gundam Wing, Le Portrait de Petite Cossette, Cowboy Bebop, and others.
Video Games: Final Fantasy IV, V, VI, VII, IX, Tactics, and XII, Chaos Legion, Dance Dance Revolution, Pump, Dance Freaks, Megaman, Ninja Gaiden, True Crime, The Sims, Shin Megami Tensei, Xenogears, Project Gotham Racing, Chrono Trigger, Star Ocean: Till The End of Time, Devil May Cry, Halo, Mech Assault, Dead Or Alive, Street Fighter, Tekken, Doom, and a few others.
Authors: Jeffery Deaver, Chuck Palahniuk, George Orwell, Edgar Allan Poe, and Dean Koontz.
Being second rate, people who don't leave tips, premium members that get pissy if you don't leave a rating, The Olsen Twins, Paris Hilton [She's The Anti-Christ, I Swear! She's Determined To Take Over The World, One Bedroom At A Time.], the overly ignorant, whores, stalkers, my nose, extreme immaturity, brain freezes, people that are wishy-washy, when people don't respond on messengers, homophobes, my school faculty, smelly things, bugs, attention-whores, an itch you can't scratch, when people say "a/s/l?", fear, razorburn, when people take pictures of themselves flicking off the camera, photos in graveyards, people who brag, usernames that have '69' 'sexy' 'baby' 'hot' and things like that in it, when people claim to now know their one true love...but they've only known them a few days, when your mouth gets burned by hot food, when you try to think of something and not knowing it bothers you; but you randomly remember it the next day, when people are on away-messages, people who kill animals, mean people, liars, The Blair Witch Project, being ridiculed, stoic expressions, anti-semitics, the RIAA, computer-viruses, fragmented japanese, spyware, anorexics, Wal-Mart, crackers [meaning hackers who harm computers], being blamed for something I didn't do, high school drama, mint flavors, when someone asks for advice but doesn't take it, people who cheat on their significant other, shallow people, narcissists, when people force their beliefs on you, wen p33ple typ lyk th1$ [all the time, not just in a joking manner], users, people who come to you to complain about their problems...but don't do the same in return, any religious-caused conflicts, artwork and identity-rippers. Most recent? People who talk too much about themselves. Sorry for the long list.
Favorite J-Rock Artists: Alice Nine, Cali Gari, D'espairs Ray, Dir en Grey, Doremidan, Gazette, Hanamuke, Kagerou, Malice Mizer, Merry, MUCC, Nightmare, Panic Channel, Scissor, Schwarz Stein, Deathgaze, Lynch, Due le Quartz, Klaha, Gill'e Cadith, Gackt, Moi dix Mois, Zigzo, F.I.R., Bis, Iroha, Eve of Destiny, Camino, Hizaki, Soft Ballet, L'Arc en Ciel, Sid, Blast, Shulla, Luna Sea, Psycho le Cemu, Blood, Amadeus, X Japan, Hyde, 12012, Lab., EVE, Clavier, Luvie, The Black Mages, Metronome, Penecillin, Noir Fleurir, TM-Revolution, Baiser, Ryuutaru [Plastic Tree], Vidoll, Janne de Arc, Fairy Fore, Hide, The Seeker, D, Fatima, Yoko Kanno, Yuki Kajiura, Laputa, Pride of Mind, Schwardix Marvally, Cherry Filter, Deadman, Vogus Image, and Közi. Other Favorite Bands: Nightwish, Electric Six, Noir Noir, Stabbing Westward, Vitas, Avenged Sevenfold [Older Material], The Servant, The Protagonist, Mantus, Arch Enemy, The Cure, Orgy, The Beatles, VNV Nation, The Turtles, Three Dog Night, Shiny Toy Guns, Shocking Blue, The Faint, Diary of Dreams, Spice Girls, Sephiroth, Kraftwerk, Daemonia, Garbage, Gravity Kills, Killswitch Engage, Berlin, Duran Duran, Coal Chamber, Static-X, The Four Seasons, Live, Beethoven, HIM, Voltaire, Queen, Children Of Bodom, Tangerine Dream, Funker Vogt, Mushroomhead, System Of A Down, Depeche Mode, Thou Shalt Not, The Rolling Stones, INXS, Sex Pistols, Das Ich, A Fire Inside [Older Material], Nine Inch Nails, Otep, Stone Temple Pilots [Older Material], Black Heaven, Dead or Alive, Eurythmics, Alice In Chains, and plenty of other bands I can't remember at the moment.