Imoen Levanah Staari
13'th July 1980
Dutch / Portuguese
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I believe in many things but mostly the trust and believe I have in myself.
I cannot hide my expressions.
The world is my playground. I sculpt my own life depending on what tools are handed to me.
Im a random profile viewer and tend to click on the same profile more than once, it doesn't make me a stalker (or maybe it does), if it bothers you then just block me.
Try to make a decent conversation and I will happily speak to you.
If I have in any way insulted you, rated you or your cheesy bathroom photos a 1 (or lower) then don't bother trying to rate or message me back because chances are that I find you disgusting, lower than shark shit and I have probably blocked you.
Just be decent and we won't have any problems!
DO I ... ?
Nope! Not anymore - Been there, done that! Boring. I have better things to do with my time. I may occasionally ... say perhaps once a year.
Yes, Stuyvesant Menthol Boost and no, I don't have any intention of quitting anytime soon, and yes, I know it's bad for me.
I'm anti drugs. Weed doesn't really phase me as drug unless it's abused. I always say, try everything once. There is no bad in experiencing (as for harm, there is plenty so choose well) but know where to draw the line.
None. Do I want any? Nope. If I ever do change my mind about this then I will adopt. To be honest, at this point I don't want to raise kids (as capable as I am) in this world. This place is a bloody mess.
Yes. I have many (27+), 4 Dogs, 2 Cats, 9+ Guinea Pigs, 4 Rabbits, 2 Bearded Dragons, 2 Rats and 4 Birds. I love my pets to bits. I have in the past and will in future put them before anyone else. They are my children.
IN THE NEGATIVE:
Twinkle twinkle little bat,
how I wonder what you're at ...
I can have a really shit attitude but yet again so can every single person alive.
I sometimes suffer from depression due to external influences - working through this.
I get really pissed off if you "kick a dog when it's down". It will result in me being really nasty towards you.
I like to sleep for hours regardless of what the time is. I will go to sleep when I want and get up when I want.
My self esteem isn't at all that great but I try not to make it other people's problem sometimes failing.
I can be impulsive - hence the word, I don't think before I act, I try not to be.
I can be lazy too and will often use people who want things from me to do my biding. I scratch your back and you scratch mine. Apparently this is a crime.
I don't trust and have insecurity issues. I will show trust but it makes me very uncomfortable. I try not to crucify someone who doesn't deserve it - again ... sometimes I fail.
I have abandonment issues when it comes to people close to me but yet again death doesn't bother me, either for a love one or myself.
Apparently I'm an uncut diamond. I hate this term and if you refer to me as a bloody rock you can expect a negative comment and attitude regardless of it's meaning and your intentions. I HATE
being called an uncut diamond.
Being romantic isn't really my thing either. I actually have no idea how to be.
I dislike many people whether or not they like me I don't care. If I don't get along with someone when I meet them then I don't want anything to do with them in future.
I will spend more time doing things I like than spending time with someone who bores me.
I love and am addicted to VampireFreaks. There is nothing anyone can do for me.
I also believe that blood is thicker than water and no matter how much I can bitch about my family and no matter what they have done to me, family will still remain family.
I give up on certain things easily. Then two months down the line attempt it again. They say you shouldn't give up but I go on a little holiday from trying for a while.
I can be self destructive at times - trying to work through this.
Most people find it very difficult to live with me or bear with me, if you not strong enough, tough.
I won't lick anyone's ass to like me. Either you do or you don't. I will not make an effort unless it's made by you FIRST
Obviously there is so much more but I can't remember all my flaws and these are just some things that I find majority of people to complain about.
Sugar, Pasta & Sushi
Coffee & Play
Red, Silver & Black
Autumn & Winter
England & Greece
Loyalty - American Head Charge (This changes)
Da Vinci & Van Gogh
Edgar Allan Poe
Reiko & Cthulhu
Warehouse 13, House, Supernatural, Dexter, Lie To Me, The Middle and The Big Bang Theory.
Resident Evil, Red Dragon, Hannibal Rising, Silence of the Lambs, Hannibal, All the Bourne movies, An interview with a vampire, Queen of the Damned, Apocalypse Now, Indiana Jones, The butterfly effect, Groundhog Day, Dead End, Grindhouse, House of Wax, Se7en, Fight Club, I Am Legend, The Exorcist, Hell Raizer, Ghost, The Sixth Sense, 5'th Element, 13 Ghosts, American Pie, Beetlejuice, Black Sheep, Phantom of the Opera (old version), Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, Lady Hawk, The Fugitive, Natural Born Killers, Trainspotting, The Prestige, Tears of the Sun, The Devil's Advocate, 12 Monkeys, Joan of Arc, BraveHeart, Harry Potter, Tank Girl, Moulin Rouge, The Devil Wears Prada, Pretty Woman, Vampire Hunter D, Ice Age, Alice in Wonderland, Who framed Roger Rabbit, The Wizard of Oz and Narnia.
Twilight is retarded!
I use to think that fish don't really have personality ... but I was wrong. I find this a very peaceful, hobby. Because of certain situations, I can't have a tank right now.
I know Im a geek! I collect: antiques, coins, Tarot decks, MtG Cards, Crystals and Gems. Sadly Im a bit of a hoarder with these things.
Deicide Online Total War
Perfect World and Entropia is where you can find me. Otherwise I love Fallout and The Elder Scrolls. I also like Baldurs Gate, Never Winter, Ice Wind Dale, Plainscape Torment, Rise of Nations, Diablo, Vegas, Heroes of Might and Magic and Sims and Tycoon games are kick ass. There are many more.
Magic the Gathering.
DnD, Cthulhu and Cyber-Punk. But it has to be a group of relatively nice people otherwise I don't enjoy it.
Yes I like paintball. If I was closer to a paintball area and had the income to support this hobby I would be doing it more often.
I often wonder if other dogs
H.P LoveCraft, Da Vinci, Edgar Allan Poe, Crowley, Milla Jojovich, Raymond Buckland ...
Dita Von Teese
Cthulhu, comic book character Tank girl, Meryl Streep in The Devil Wears Prada, Reiko, Lenore - The cute little dead girl ...
Dr. Hannibal Lecter
and ... me!
FAVORITE QUOTES BY HANNIBAL LECTER:
You still wake up sometimes, don't you?
You wake up in the dark and hear the screaming of the lambs.
Closer, please. Clo-ser...
Would you ever say to me "Stop. If you love me, stop?
Now you're being rude, and I hate rude people.
Paul, I told you, if you're going to be rude to our guests you'll have to sit at the kiddie table.
Quid pro quo Clarice, I tell you things, you tell me things.
As your mother tells you, and my mother certainly told me, it is important, she always used to say, always to try new things.
Hey, Cordell! Why don't you push him in? You can always say it was me.
Remarkable boy. I do admire your courage. I think I'll eat your heart.
All good things come to those who wait.
You want the scent? Smell yourself!
Have you seen blood in the moonlight? It appears quite black.
If there is something you'd like to know which isn't in my profile then just ask me.
MUSIC & SOUND
I don't really classify myself as anything. Im not a goth, Im not an emo thingy, Im just me. So why mention this here? Because some people are under the impression that music makes you what/who you are. Which I don't really agree with. So for peace sakes I'll just mention it. However the music genre I prefer is Gothic, Metal (mostly old school), Progressive almost everything and a lot of Industrial.
Nine Inch Nails
Diary of Dreams
Girls Under Glass
London After Midnight
Miranda Sex Garden
Sisters of Mercy
The 69 Eyes
Black Sabath / Ozzy Osbourne
Guns n Roses
American Head Charge
South African Bands:
Saron Gas / Seether
Obviously there is a whole lot more.
I LOVE ...
Everything and anything nature related:
Trees and mountains - Every tree has a spirit and every mountain a voice.
Running streams, natural fountains and the ocean.
Magic, the occult and the use of energy and minipulation thereof.
The moon in all her phases.
Magic, the occult and the use of energy and minipulation thereof.
All flowers and flower petals, their colors, scents and shapes, my favorite is so common, deep red roses.
Herbal plants. This counts as majority of flora on earth.
Well kept and looked after lawns.
Crystals and Gems. I have an irresistible habit of putting them in my mouth or smelling them (knowing they don't have a scent nor taste).
Im fond of Autumn, Winter and Spring. Less loved by me is Summer (I can't stand the heat).
Gentle breeze or winds on hot Summer nights.
I love the look of snow and wish to one day experience it on a mass scale.
Night sounds ... crickets and gentle leaves rustling.
The smell of rain. Though I really dislike thunderstorms and blizzard winds.
Wind swept rock formations and soft beach and desert sand.
I prefer felines, rodents and reptiles as pets. I don't like dogs except Pekingese.
In people I like hands, eyes and bone structures.
Designing and creativity.
Mythology, theology, philosophy, different religions, traditions and cultures.
Books in general.
I love my family ... something I rarely see on VF profiles. I fight with them, I argue, I complain about them but love them just as much. I think my family is slightly touched in their own individual way.
The cold side of a pillow. Preferably feathers.
Play. Play. And more Play.
Intelligence and learning new things no matter how small or insignificant.
DSTV - Discovery and National Geographic.
I love architecture, landmarks and world wonders including the mystery and history behind them.
Examples: Stonehenge and the Pyramids and other ancient civilization's temples and holy places.
Aliens ... did I mention aliens? Ufology.
I love the supernatural, unknown and paranormal. Feel free to join our cult Paranormal
if you share this interest.
Some people on VF that I have grown fond of:
Including a few others and ALL of our Paranormal staff.
I LOATHE ...
This is a long list and majority of the time my dislikes and explanations are directed towards the culprits.
When something irritates me ... I get aggravated. Examples are things listed here.
Majority of Mankind:
- Mocking the disabled
These don't even need an explaination from me.
- Rudeness: I was raised with manners, if you don't have any, then don't talk to me.
- Vulgar Language: Guilty! *raises hand* Though I don't swear half as much as most. When I message you I will never or rarely use bad language in my messages unless you have done something to annoy me or upset me. Your profile also doesn't need to contain 700 lines of "fuck" on it. People who over use bad language comes across as unintelligent, trashy / common.
- Disrespect: I hate disrespectful people. Disrespect for the dead, other people, me, yourself and just disrespect in general.
- Pride: To such an extent that you cannot take your head out of your own ass. The shit (pardon the pun) will blind you! Get over yourself!
- Snobs: People who look down on others for the work they do, the color they are, the language they speak, the amount they get paid, the area in which they live and for what they own.
- Uncontrolled drunkards: You don't know what the hell you doing nor talking about so shut the fuck up and sit down before you hurt yourself.
- Dirty People: I hate dirty people and people who live in a dirty place. There are such things as soap, shampoo, toothpaste and deoderant - make use of it. Seriously, if you want to live like a pig then move into a sty.
- "Im a real vampire" syndrome: Any mythical vampire related creature does not exist, go ask your parents. You don't have to pretend to be a vampire to be cool or "speshul". Claiming to be is an open invitation for me to grind you.
- Wannabe Emos / Scene kids: They have a shit attitude about life, themselves, other people and generally just about everything else that exists. Some think they are superior to others and rebel "because mommy and daddy doesn't love them" enough. I hate their clothes, they don't know how to dress at all. Wrong sizes. Wrong accessories. Wrong everything. Then they wonder why there are stuffed up jokes going around about emos. Technically I don't associate scene kids with emos but the rest of the world does. Did I mention I hate their music too? Breaking Benjamin, Bullet for my Valentine and a few other "oh let me slit my wrists or die" bands. Sorry I just can't get use to it. In short some of them are attention-seeking, wrist slitters who love to dwell within the mobidity of their own self-distruction.
- Cheesy Nudity, Disrespect for thyself & Sluts: I keep reading statements like "NO I DON'T WANT TO CAM WITH YOU EVEN IF I DO SHOW A LITTLE SKIN ON HERE IT DOESN'T MAKE ME A SLUT" - Who are you kidding? Did you burst a few braincells trying to look like a Penthouse centerfold girl in front of your disorganized, filthy bathroom mirror? It does say something about you, and if you don't want comments from pigs regarding cams and cybersex then remove those pics, it's very simple: It attracts scum, you know it does and it isn't going to change, if you tempt it then you deserve it and cannot blame them nor be nasty to them. They say if you can't get them with intelligence, then open your legs! And pics taken in a dirty, untidy bathrooms are cheap and whorish and Im not affraid to comment on them. If you have no respect for yourself and pose in your underwear expect me to grind you. Judging by the rooms I can't really say their parents will be shocked because any parent that lets their little pig live in those condidtions can't be any better.
- "Show me your boobs" guys: What type of a moron must you be? Even if it is a joke (which we all know it really isn't), it's not funny, decent nor well mannered to ask a girl for images of her boobs (nor anything else). You "jokingly" ask because you really want.
- Drugs: They are not cool. Dependency, abuse or constant use makes you a weakling (by your own choice).
- Bad English and grammar: It annoys me. This is for all ages. I make mistakes in my spelling too but thank God (pick one) I don't make half as many as some people.
- Wrist-Slitting, Attention Seekers: When you cut your wrists remember to go down the street and not across (please see the image below which could be considered as dark humor, yes, I find it funny). Little kids who cut themselves to get attention are easy to spot. They show everyone their cuts or they don't care who sees it. The real cutters hide their marks and never talk about it. Those are kids with real problems. If you want attention there are better ways of getting it. If I see images in your gallery where you show everyone how you cut yourself or have cut yourself prepare to have me grind you. I have no mercy nor patience for anyone who does this. And please don't get the wrong idea and think Im encouraging people to commit suicide, I am not! In fact against it and cutting.
"Our scars have the power to remind us that the past was real"
So learn through your mistakes!
- God Syndromed: No one is better than the next person. Your job doesn't make you better. Your income doesn't make you better and niether does where you live and with whom you live. What you have doesn't even make you any better. A guy on the street is equal to you, me and everyone else in existance.
- Government idiocity: Earth destroying, war hungry twits. Mostly pointed at American, Israel/Iraq and Zimbabwean presidents. This goes for all who support their cruelty, war, selfishness and destruction. Also people who litter and throw shit out their car windows (suppose Im a bit of a hypocrite even if it is only cigarette butts).
- Hypocrites: Do as I say, don't do as I do. Im very quick to talk. I can be a hypocrite at times but try not to be. Im very good at giving advice but not always following it.
- Excessive aborting: I think abortion is ok (mistakes do happen), when and if you cannot support a child or if you are unstable I won't hold that against anyone (no I myself have never had an abortion but would follow my own advice). It costs very little to get the injection, to be put on the pill or to get your partner/s to wear condoms. Failing to take precautions and ending up with a nasty diseases will serve you right. I have no pity, you do know better and if not then you shouldn't even be thinking about sex!
- Dogs and perverts: (aka: leg-humpers). Dogs stink, shit in the house and are dirty ... perverts aren't any better.
- Roosters, Roaches, moths & Parktowns: Creepy and disturbing.
- Loosing a child: I hate loosing any of my babies (pets).
- Animal Abuse: Animal abusers must be given the same treatment as the animals they have mistreated! I stand very strong on this, I would actually literally attack someone if I see them abusing an animal. - This is my kill switch.
- Any other form of Abuse: Emotional, physical and mental abuse in any form towards people who are less fortunate in those areas or people who are beautiful in mind and spirit and cannot hurt a fly. I think this hurts me more than the actual person.
- Storms: Im terrified of blizard winds and lightning storms.
- Hot weather: I HATE summer and humidity.