I'm a pretty dark thinking guy, would I be called a Goth? I dunno. The music I listen to and write, the way I sometimes dress, and my general taste in things could be considered "Gothic" although, if you saw me walking down the street, you probably would not classify me under that label. In fact, I usually look like a joe-average kind of person. But I never thought "the clothes made the man" anyway. Although I do like to dress nice, and I suppose when I do dress up, I tend to look a bit "darker" than most of my friends. Of course Goth to me is not a fashion statement, but a state of mind. Being in touch with your darker side is not something I think is bad, in fact, being in the dark helps you to see even the smallest bit of light. That's how I look at life- You can dwell on the things that make you angry, sad, depressed, or whatever, but it won't get you very far. Finding the good is always a better way to deal, and no matter how bad things look, it's never as bad as it could be. So what do I think Goth is? I suppose it refers to people that embrace the darker side of life- accept that death, sadness, and anger is part of life. We express ourselves in a way that mainstream people turn away from and look at as beind strange, bizarre, or even evil. Goth is I think the modern label given to the ones on the outside looking in, and not really caring that they are there. I have always been there- never quite fitting in, always being looked at as weird, strange, different. Nowadays, I walk alone in this dark place I live in. I am often pulled from my world and made to walk in the light. While I enjoy it, it's always nice to return to my dark place- it is my home, and it's where I feel safe. But enough with the dramatic rambling, I'm probably boring you, and I'm not entirely convinced I am expressing myself how I wish to, or even if I am making any sence. So, a little about me.

Like I mentioned, I dress fairly plain, unless I am in the mood to "goth out" otherwise, I look like plain ordinary guy. I love dragons, and have a small collection of pewter ones. I love vampire movies, literature, and lore. I love sci-fi, and fantasy movies as well. I have no tattoos, no piercings except 2 holes in my left ear. I am not really much for tattoos for me at least, because I tend to change my mind about things a lot and those are pretty damn permanant- but since most tattoo ink has metal in it, I would be screwed anyway if i got one, because i have an allergy to metal. I suppose what draws me to the goth lifestyle, is how I have always pondered motality- I often think of what is to come, and I think it makes me appriciate life more, it's pretty short, and I am starting to realize, it goes by pretty fast! It's weird, I woke up one day, and suddenly I wasn't a teenager anymore! I guess the best thing I can say to the young people here (and there is a lot of you here) is to enjoy it while it lasts!

In my spare time, I enjoy making music. Most of the music I create has a dark feel to it, It's one way I deal with all the shit I mentioned above. I am now working on songs for my first independent CD release- I'll let you all know when it's up!

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Anyway, feel free to check out my music page, read my journal (as if anyone cares about my life) or just leave a comment to say "Hi" I try to write back as soon as I get a chance to, which usually isn't too long, I come here often ;)