Disclaimer(s): [1] Yes I lack tact. No need to point it out to me.
[2] I give fantastic empathy when/where it's due, not to living breathing pity-parties. Sympathy free of charge as long as said person isn't a self-destructive/absorbed lowlife.
[3] I'm not anaemic or a vampire. Put away your garlic. I'm sometimes just incredibly pale. [Saying someone's "too pale" is a bit like calling someone "too black", no?] Also my pictures aren't shopped, my eyes vary from green to blue often. Chameleon-y. 8D
[4] I say "faggot" a lot. It's not meant offensively or any reference to homosexuality, it's meaningless, so politically correct killjoys sit your crap down. Go stand up about things that actually matter. Like... saving whales or something.
[5] I value respect and the like, the "whys" behind the "whats". I'm easy to talk to, believe it or not. Smalltalk bores me, though.
The username "Paroxysm" fits me well. I laugh at anything. I have occasional violent [verbal] spazzouts. The term "blender" has also been used to describe me. :3 I'm opinionated to the point of borderline insanity, buuut there's a whole lot more to me. Sometimes I'm frustrating. Ohes and my typos and craziness are proved contagions.
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Slow dance at the end of the night And everyone's looking, who cares if it's right Your head on my chest I held you so tight I don't care what they have to say.
I LIKE...
Being crazyBeing "double-jointed"BiologyBreathtaking picturesCandyfloss and SlushpuppiesCantoneseChewing strawsCream soda mmm Creative peopleDeus Ex 1Diamonds in the roughDrawingEducating the spineless/retarded massesExplosm.netGamingGarfield the cat [comic] Half Life λ [+ ZP, DM, L4D]Heroes [fictional and real]Image editing stuffsInspirational quotesLOLcatsMy friends who enjoy my madnessOverusing parenthesisPeople-watching Personal spacePoetry: [One][Two][Three][Four]<3Self controlSpeaking in metaphorsStabilityWeird creaturesWords like "Oxymoron", "Skullduggery" or "Misnomer"WritingZOMBIES
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I HAAATE...
Abuse of the innocentAngst whoresAnimal crueltyBad role modelsBigotsCrappy/meaningless tattoosDrugs/usersEvil/nasty people How I neglect my intellectIdiocy in its many formsIndirect tactics.Math [I have Dyscalculia] Needlessly poor grammar/spellingOverly introspective peoplePeople with weak convictions who are all talk.Piercing-obsessed brats with no sense or personality beyond "lol septum"PretentiousnessRacistsSick twats who think a short skirt means "She's asking for it". Die screaming, die slow.SleepingUnderage slutsSpiders :(Statements like "music is life". Ugh. Elitists. *cough*rent-a-personality*coughcough*Sub-culture bigotsWatching people I respect slowly turn stupid/drift away
[Pet hates]
When people spout rhetoric they do not understand. And no, life is not like a box of chocolates. Those come with bloody menus, k?
People who lie about being raped/whatever to get attention/sympathy. Dear said losers: Go get murdered. You're sick.
Missing people. I don't handle that feeling well at all.
When people manufacture problems for themselves. Like "oh noes I'm bi everyone's against mehhh *cutcutcut*". Come on. Life has enough problems and people who'll hurt you. So grow up and stop doing their work for them. You're an insult to those who overcome real problems like illnesses, poverty or adversity.
I hate when people cry for help, either through lying or in an ambiguous way. If you will not state your problem(s) to random strangers who don't give a crap about you therefore can't be biased then you don't want help at all. You just want an excuse to say "HEY I TRIED! "
When people kill bugs. Come on. Unless it's gonna eat your face off, put the poor bastard outside. Go stomp on a pimp or something.
Love: Epic music that makes you feel alive/dance like a nympho on deathrow.<3 Hate: Misery-inducing music with emotional lyrics about how "omg lyf sux". [No it doesn't, you're just a mindless prick who unfortunately got himself a record deal. What prick bought you a guitar?]
ALSO. My music doesn't suck just because it's not YOUR music.
Ugh. What's the point in a long list of bands when you mostly only like a few songs from random bands...
... some of which I feel like whoring out:
And when your fears subside And shadows still remain I know that you can love me When there's no one left to blame So never mind the darkness We still can find a way 'Cause nothin' lasts forever Even cold November rain
AND! I am a crazy Dr Who fan. Who also loves the music... Murray Gold<3
I kinda like this cliché/rhetorical stuff...
"A diamond with a flaw is better than a common stone that is perfect." - Chinese proverb
"远水救不了近火" ["Far water not douse close fire"] - Chinese proverb.
"One may tolerate a world of demons for the sake of an angel." - Unknown
"How did I ever drown in someone so shallow?" - ???
"The reason the grass is always greener on the other side, is that you’re so busy looking at their grass, you forget to water your own." - Unknown
"If you can't handle me at my worst, you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." - Marilyn Monroe
"L'absence est à l'amour ce qu'est au feu le vent. Il éteint le petit, et allume le grand." [Absence is to love what wind is to fire; it extinguishes the small, it enkindles the great] - Comte de Bussy-Rabutin.
"He fought them all, in their homeland under their rules... and he beat them." - Ramon Dekkers
"Never make someone a priority when they only make you an option." - Unknown.
"Human passions have mysterious ways, in children as well as grown-ups. Those affected by them can't explain them, and those who haven't known them have no understanding of them at all. Some people risk their lives to conquer a mountain peak. No one, not even they themselves, can really explain why. Others ruin themselves trying to win the heart of a certain person who wants nothing to do with them... Some think their only hope of happiness lies in being somewhere else, and spend their whole lives traveling from place to place... In short, there are as many different passions as there are people." - The Neverending Story
"An act of love that fails is just as much a part of the divine life as an act of love that succeeds, for love is measured by fullness, not by reception." - Harold Loukes
"Well that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing. So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out. Would you stop thinking about what everyone wants? Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do YOU want? What do you WANT?" - The Notebook [film]
"Right now, there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world. Some are running scared. Some are coming home. Some are telling lies to make it through the day. Others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men, at war with good. Other men are good, struggling with evil. There are 6 billion people in this world. 6 billion souls... and sometimes, all you need is one." - Peyton Sawyer [One Tree Hill]
"The art of war teaches us to rely not on the likelihood of the enemy's not coming, but on our own readiness to receive him; not on the chance of his not attacking, but rather on the fact that we have made our position unassailable." - Sun Tzu, "The Art of War" [孫子兵法]
"Do not pursue an enemy who simulates flight; do not attack soldiers whose anger is keen." - Sun Tzu, "The Art of War" [孫子兵法]
"Be what you would seem to be -- or, if you'd like it put more simply -- Never imagine yourself not to be otherwise than what it might appear to others that what you were or might have been was not otherwise than what you had been would have appeared to them to be otherwise." - Alice in Wonderland.
"If you can fake sincerity, you can fake pretty much anything." - House M.D.
"Success is not measured by what you accomplish, but by the opposition you have encountered, and the courage with which you have maintained the struggle against overwhelming odds." - Orison Swett Marden
"Regret is an appalling waste of energy, you can't build on it it's only good for wallowing in." - Katherine Mansfield
"It is unwise to be too sure of one's own wisdom. It is healthy to be reminded that the strongest might weaken and the wisest might err." - Mahatma Gandhi
"Nearly all men can stand adversity, but if you want to test a man's character, give him power." - Abraham Lincoln
"You must not lose faith in humanity. Humanity is an ocean; if a few drops of the ocean are dirty, the ocean does not become dirty." - Mahatma Gandhi
"If your enemy is secure at all points, be prepared for him. If he is in superior strength, evade him. If your opponent is temperamental, seek to irritate him. Pretend to be weak, that he may grow arrogant. If he is taking his ease, give him no rest. If his forces are united, separate them. If sovereign and subject are in accord, put division between them. Attack him where he is unprepared, appear where you are not expected." - Sun Tzu - "The Art of War"
"Have the courage to say no. Have the courage to face the truth. Do the right thing because it is right. These are the magic keys to living your life with integrity." - W Clement Stone
"Friendship is inexplicable, it should not be explained if one doesn't want to kill it." - Max Jacob
"Don't gain the world and lose your soul, wisdom is better than silver or gold..." - Bob Marley
"The biggest disease today is not leprosy or tuberculosis but rather the feeling of being unwanted, uncared for and deserted by everybody." - Mother Teresa
"It may be a cold, clammy thing to say, but those that treat friendship the same as any other selfishness seem to get the most out of it." - Edgar Watson Howe
"Honesty is as rare as a man without self-pity." - Stephen Vincent Benet
"In the End, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends." - Martin Luther King Jr.
"Only enemies speak the truth. Friends and lovers lie endlessly." -Stephen King
"Keeping an open mind is a virtue - but as the space engineer James Oberg once said, not so open that your brains fall out" - Carl Sagan, "The Demon-Haunted World"
"Love is as much of an object as an obsession, everybody wants it, everybody seeks it, but few ever achieve it, those who do will cherish it, be lost in it, and among all, never... never forget it." - Curtis Judalet.
"Loretta, I love you. Not like they told you love is, and I didn't know this either, but love don't make things nice - it ruins everything. It breaks your heart. It makes things a mess. We aren't here to make things perfect. The snowflakes are perfect. The stars are perfect. Not us. Not us! We are here to ruin ourselves and to break our hearts and love the wrong people and *die*. The storybooks are *bullshit*. Now I want you to come upstairs with me and *get* in my bed!" - Ronny Cammareri
"Life is truly known only to those who suffer, lose, endure adversity and stumble from defeat to defeat." - Anais Nin
"You tell God the Father it was a kindness you done. I know you hurtin' and worryin', I can feel it on you, but you oughta quit on it now. Because I want it over and done. I do. I'm tired, boss. Tired of bein' on the road, lonely as a sparrow in the rain. Tired of not ever having me a buddy to be with, or tell me where we's coming from or going to, or why. Mostly I'm tired of people being ugly to each other. I'm tired of all the pain I feel and hear in the world everyday. There's too much of it. It's like pieces of glass in my head all the time. Can you understand?" - John Coffey [The Green Mile]
"You can measure a man by the opposition it takes to discourage him." - Robert C. Savage
"Opposition is true friendship." - William Blake.
"I am an excitable person who only understands life lyrically, musically, in whom feelings are much stronger as reason. I am so thirsty for the marvellous that only the marvellous has power over me. Anything I can not transform into something marvellous, I let go. Reality doesn't impress me. I only believe in intoxication, in ecstasy, and when ordinary life shackles me, I escape, one way or another. No more walls." - Anais Nin
"A wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but doesn't believe, and leaves before she is left." - Marilyn Monroe
"The truth is I've never fooled anyone. I've let people fool themselves. They didn't bother to find out who and what I was. Instead they would invent a character for me. I wouldn't argue with them. They were obviously loving somebody I wasn't. When they found this out, they would blame me for disillusioning them and fooling them." - Marilyn Monroe
"If there were a rise of good in the hearts of men, so would there be a rise in evil." - Unknown
"The real problem is in the hearts and minds of men. It is not a problem of physics but of ethics. It is easier to denature plutonium than to denature the evil from the spirit of man." - Albert Einstein
"Nonconformity; right... I can't remember the last time saw a twenty something kid with a tattoo of an Asian letter on his wrist. You are one wicked free thinker! You want to be a rebel; stop being cool. Wear a pocket protector like he does, and get a hair cut. Like the Asian kids that don't leave the library for a twenty hours stretch. They're the ones that don't care what you think." - Dr. House MD
"Reason is always a kind of brute force; those who appeal to the head rather than the heart, however pallid and polite, are necessarily men of violence. We speak of 'touching' a man's heart, but we can do nothing to his head but hit it." - G.K. Chesterton
"The human being created civilization not because of willingness but of a need to be assimilated into higher orders of structure and meaning." - Deus Ex 1
"Being a soldier isn't just following orders, it's following those orders in the service of a higher cause. When that cause is betrayed, we're not soldiers anymore, just pieces on a chess board dying for the wrong reason." - Deus Ex 1
"Know what? Only that the long night is over. The crown of government is tarnished, but that will fade in time. The riots, a fever dream; the plague, a horrible nightmare; and like everything else that's happened such things will only be dimly remembered upon waking to their normal lives. In the end, all sins are forgiven. Even yours." - Deus Ex 1
"I’m gonna based this moment on whom I’m stuck in a room with… That’s what life is. It’s a series of rooms, and whom we get stuck in those rooms with adds up to what our lives are." - House: season 3, episode 12.
"You can't know you're on top of the world if you've never hit rock bottom." [something like that] - Dog the Bounty Hunter.
"Faint heart never won fair lady." - No idea.
"I know. It's all wrong. By rights we shouldn't even be here. But we are. It's like in the great stories, Mr. Frodo. The ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger, they were. And sometimes you didn't want to know the end. Because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad had happened? But in the end, it's only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will come. And when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer. Those were the stories that stayed with you. That meant something, even if you were too small to understand why. But I think, Mr. Frodo, I do understand. I know now. Folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back, only they didn't. They kept going. Because they were holding on to something." - Lord of the Rings [Sam]
"This is about you not being able to commit, because committing means saying goodbye to whatever unfulfilled fantasy of love you've concocted after seeing too many Meg Ryan movies. But men don't come and make everything all better - they're only human. And you shouldn't punish him because you were forced to grow up so fast you never learned how to let someone else take care of you. He's not your father, okay, he's not necessarily gonna disappear at the first sign of trouble. And, as scary as it is to consider letting yourself be truly vulnerable with another human being, what's even scarier is that deep down inside you know you picked this man...and if you run away from him now, you'll be running away from being the kind of person you always wanted to be." - Scrubs [Carla]
"Whenever you're in conflict with someone, there is one factor that can make the difference between damaging your relationship and deepening it. That factor is attitude." - William James
"To love means to open ourselves to the negative as well as the positive - to grief, sorrow, and disappointment as well as to joy, fulfillment, and an intensity of consciousness we did not know was possible before." - Rollo May
"The eagle cannot see the food of the dog." - Proverb.
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Piddy ♥ ["BooBoo"] Age: 5 This is my kitty. Or rather, I am her human. :3 She's like a little playful bear. I love her more than anything in the world. ^___^ I plan to make a website dedicated to her. @_@
She is as perfect as she looks. Bit dense, bit dopey, bit slow, but amazing and lovinggg.
Tinka Age: 16 She's kind of an evil, daft bag of nerves with a tuna obsession. She has her sappy moments though She kind of chatters. I think she's part Siamese. :3 Isn't she preeeetay? ^____^
Ruby [r.i.p] Age: Aaancient The first cat to adopt me when I was just 7. Lazy yet loyal. Followed me everywhere. ^_^ You know how some cats makes an annoying whiny yeowl? Or when dog's won't shut up? Yeah, this cat woke me up with the most irritating yeowl you can imagine. I always knew I'd miss it when he was gone, but never realised how much. ^ Take what you will from that.
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Left4Dead ♥ [If you're good or plain fun] Steam ID: dosumthincrazy.
Where'd you go? I miss you so, Seems like it's been forever, That you've been gone.
[WARNING!]
Random dudes who think I'll be interested in them need to go to a damned dating site and not waste their time. I recently learned that there's not one man on Earth who can handle me. You have ZERO chance. I.E... P.S. I don't like smalltalk or casual randoms saying "hi how r u". Make conversation or expect to be CONFUSED.
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