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"You had that look in your eyes that simply said 'It hurts'..." ¿Entiendes dolor en todas lenguas, bebe? What happened to rebellion!? Do something crazy Sex: female Age: 22 Location: , , United Kingdom Member since: January 27, 2008 Account: Premium Member Occupation: [Student][Dreamer] ADD FRIEND ADD FAVORITE ADD TO SHITLIST ADD TO CULT BLOCK USER REPORT USER

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Formerly _Atreyu_ [March 2006 - June 2007] and GetAwayFromMe [June 2007 - Feb 2008]! It was walking by the streets soaked in forgetfulness. It went by the parks with ghosts and fallen angels. It went without light, it went without sun. It went without a sense, it was dying to me. It was flying on the sea with the broken wings. .:: [ Moi - summarized while bored, for the bored! ^_^ ] ::. This is me. Srsly. I'm a college student studying Psychology and Criminal behaviour right now, worst luck. I'm planning to go to University this year to top up my HND in Computing [5th year]. This is probably for all the wrong reasons but I'm fresh out of dreams since my last dream went tits-up and I lost more than a friend. D: Err. I can be emotional or downright tactless. Sometimes I'm fun, sometimes I'm gloomy, sometimes I'm awesome, other times I'm weird, always I'm headstrong. I do not suffer fools gladly. Despite any of my less endearing qualities, I'm a good person down to the bone. I'm incredibly empathic, which is part blessing - part curse. Some think I'm psychic, but I can explain that: People are predictable and outright hypocrites 90% of the time. What else. Oh. I don't think, act or dress differently as some weak attempt to stand out from the fuckers, or fit in with whoever, I'm far too cocksure of myself. I'm just weird [the good kind!] all 'round. All in all I'm kinda crazy. I'm fairly open about things. I like helping people and deflecting the fact by regularly insulting people's intelligence. I'm a human sponge, knowledgeable, blah blah refer to previous profile. Oh, and I have a lyric fetish. I used to be vicious and "high maintenance", until I decided that wasteful distractions are more fruitful than hoping on a living, breathing dream that falls short of doing what it takes to come true. ^ Long/true story right there. One piece of advice I'd give everyone: Listen to happy music. ----------------------------------------------------------------- You walked away so easily. :( I lied. I am high-maintenance. Bitch, I miss you. Talk to me. D: ----------------------------------------------------------------- "My Tangled Brain and Heart Vomit" [Had someone special, but he went away] Love can hurt like nothing else in this world. If I haven't truly experienced the real thing, then I never want to... I think I've tasted enough of it already. Think that you've found your "one in a billion" sweetheart? Good for you. Yeah. I've been there, long, deep and hard. [no that wasn't remotely sexual, I have a halo ] I watched the perhaps foolishly but nonetheless much loved "light of my life" dull under doubt, destructive introspection, casual American teenage attitude, social drive, hypocrisy, male hormones, and the taste for "real"... as if I was a lost cause intent on hurt. I wasn't real enough fast enough. I got the blame for most of the above. Like a diamond turning to sand, he slipped through my fingers little by little. ^ Maybe that says something ugly about my character. I used to wonder what it'd be like for him to bare his heart and say "Amy. Fuck... I'm crazy about you, I wanna be with you *brief mush*". It's best to never let your mind go there; take it from the biggest once-clingy/lovesick fool who ever lived. Hope and caring are good; expectations and trying too hard is bad. Never give a man your heart unless he's already handing you his. It almost seems like nothing good or true is built to last. Just when you think you have everything you could want, something or someone fucks it up. You learn not to trust your own feelings. My friends and family often say they'll openly apologize to the guy who ends up with me. Gotta laugh at that, but frankly I doubt there is a guy on Earth who could handle me, and I do well at filtering out those time-wasters. It's a shame that the one boy I truly believed in gave up. =/ Anyway. I'm far from "easy", so there's more chance of laying Jesus than touching me. I'm hard work, but unlike some, I know I'm worth every sigh, groan and tear. Only the unworthy give up, hurt me or forget my virtues. Break my heart and I'll smash your stupid face. </bitch side> All or nothing kinda girl. Yep. [When you try to make it stay that's when it surely slips away] "If you can fake sincerity, you can fake pretty much anything." I believe in this kind of cliché/rhetorical stuff... "Human passions have mysterious ways, in children as well as grown-ups. Those affected by them can't explain them, and those who haven't known them have no understanding of them at all. Some people risk their lives to conquer a mountain peak. No one, not even they themselves, can really explain why. Others ruin themselves trying to win the heart of a certain person who wants nothing to do with them... Some think their only hope of happiness lies in being somewhere else, and spend their whole lives traveling from place to place... In short, there are as many different passions as there are people." - The Neverending Story "An act of love that fails is just as much a part of the divine life as an act of love that succeeds, for love is measured by fullness, not by reception." - Harold Loukes "Well that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing. So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out. Would you stop thinking about what everyone wants? Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do YOU want? What do you WANT?" - The Notebook [film] "Right now, there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world. Some are running scared. Some are coming home. Some are telling lies to make it through the day. Others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men, at war with good. Other men are good, struggling with evil. There are 6 billion people in this world. 6 billion souls... and sometimes, all you need is one." - Peyton Sawyer (from One Tree Hill) "The art of war teaches us to rely not on the likelihood of the enemy's not coming, but on our own readiness to receive him; not on the chance of his not attacking, but rather on the fact that we have made our position unassailable." - Sun Tzu, "The Art of War" "Be what you would seem to be -- or, if you'd like it put more simply -- Never imagine yourself not to be otherwise than what it might appear to others that what you were or might have been was not otherwise than what you had been would have appeared to them to be otherwise." - Alice in Wonderland. >_> "If you can fake sincerity, you can fake pretty much anything." - House M.D. "Success is not measured by what you accomplish, but by the opposition you have encountered, and the courage with which you have maintained the struggle against overwhelming odds." - Orison Swett Marden "Regret is an appalling waste of energy, you can't build on it it's only good for wallowing in." - Katherine Mansfield "It is unwise to be too sure of one's own wisdom. It is healthy to be reminded that the strongest might weaken and the wisest might err." - Mahatma Gandhi "Nearly all men can stand adversity, but if you want to test a man's character, give him power." - Abraham Lincoln "You must not lose faith in humanity. Humanity is an ocean; if a few drops of the ocean are dirty, the ocean does not become dirty." - Mahatma Gandhi "I believe honesty comes across in music because for [most] people music isn't just something to dance to." - Willa Ford "Have the courage to say no. Have the courage to face the truth. Do the right thing because it is right. These are the magic keys to living your life with integrity." - W Clement Stone "Friendship is inexplicable, it should not be explained if one doesn't want to kill it." - Max Jacob "Don't gain the world and lose your soul, wisdom is better than silver or gold..." - Bob Marley "The biggest disease today is not leprosy or tuberculosis but rather the feeling of being unwanted, uncared for and deserted by everybody." - Mother Teresa "It may be a cold, clammy thing to say, but those that treat friendship the same as any other selfishness seem to get the most out of it." - Edgar Watson Howe "Honesty is as rare as a man without self-pity." - Stephen Vincent Benet "In the End, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends." - Martin Luther King Jr. "Only enemies speak the truth. Friends and lovers lie endlessly." -Stephen King "Keeping an open mind is a virtue - but as the space engineer James Oberg once said, not so open that your brains fall out" - Carl Sagan, "The Demon-Haunted World" "Love is as much of an object as an obsession, everybody wants it, everybody seeks it, but few ever achieve it, those who do will cherish it, be lost in it, and among all, never... never forget it." - Curtis Judalet. "Loretta, I love you. Not like they told you love is, and I didn't know this either, but love don't make things nice - it ruins everything. It breaks your heart. It makes things a mess. We aren't here to make things perfect. The snowflakes are perfect. The stars are perfect. Not us. Not us! We are here to ruin ourselves and to break our hearts and love the wrong people and *die*. The storybooks are *bullshit*. Now I want you to come upstairs with me and *get* in my bed!" - Ronny Cammareri "L'absence est a l'amour ce qu'est au feu le vent; Il eteint le petit, il allume le grand." [Absence is to love what wind is to fire; it extinguishes the small, it enkindles the great] - Comte de Bussy-Rabutin. "You tell God the Father it was a kindness you done. I know you hurtin' and worryin', I can feel it on you, but you oughta quit on it now. Because I want it over and done. I do. I'm tired, boss. Tired of bein' on the road, lonely as a sparrow in the rain. Tired of not ever having me a buddy to be with, or tell me where we's coming from or going to, or why. Mostly I'm tired of people being ugly to each other. I'm tired of all the pain I feel and hear in the world everyday. There's too much of it. It's like pieces of glass in my head all the time. Can you understand?" - John Coffey [The Green Mile] "You can measure a man by the opposition it takes to discourage him." - Robert C. Savage "Opposition is true friendship." - William Blake. You had the look in your eye that simply said "It hurts" There are a million things I want to say to you, But I know that a million isn't enough... sj/cw © ----------------------------------------------------------------- When you're gone. The pieces of my heart are missing you. When you're gone. The face I came to know is missing too. Make what you will of these...

Altruistic love Baileys Beautiful hearts Beautiful minds Being crazy Biology Borrowing lyrics to express Captioned cat images Caring Clichés Computer games Contemplating sweet nothings Cream soda mmm Debating Deus ex 1 Diamonds in the rough Dreamers Dreaming Educating the spineless/retarded masses Epic pictures Explosm.net Expression Fairytales <3 FlyFF Garfield the cat [comic] Great films Great friends Half Life λ Hating abstract sentences Having hypermobility ["double jointed"] Heroes Hiding from heartache Inner workings of the mind Inspirational quotes Languages such as Japanese Learning random facts Margherita pizza Mocking idiots My hasty girlish whims My music Overanalyzing things Overusing parenthesis People-watching People who love life Pints of Guinness! Sappy lyrics Selfish love Self-hugging for comfort Speaking in metaphors Stability with people Weird creatures Writing Writing horribly abstract sentences! OH HI THERE ----------------------------------------------------------------- Yeah, I thoroughly enjoy using appropriate lyrics to say the stuff that would otherwise make me feel like a tool! For instance: I would say I'm sorry If I thought that it would change your mind But I know that this time I have said too much, Been too unkind... I would break down at your feet And beg forgiveness, plead with you But I know that it's too late And now there's nothing I can do... I would tell you that I loved you If I thought that you would stay But I know that it's no use That you've already gone away... Misjudged your limits Pushed you too far Took you for granted I thought that you needed me more... Now I would do most anything To get you back by my side But I just keep on laughing Hiding the tears in my eyes... It's a blatant method, just not in the "Oh-God-you-just-wrote-me-a-fifty-page-essay-with-mush-and-accusations-that-make-me-want-to-jump-in-my-car-and-drive-off-of-a-cliff" kinda way! :3 I've been known to ramble/rant at those I proclaim to love. Told you I'm weird. D: ----------------------------------------------------------------- And just like James I'll be drinking irish tonight! And the memory of this last workweek will be gone forever Evelyn, I'm not coming home tonight... if we're never together, if I'm never back again well I swear to god that I'll love you forever...

Missing a certain person -_- When make or break ends in break Bad friends Being walked out on Liars People with weak convictions who are all talk Unoriginal morons People who give up Needlessly poor grammar/spelling How I neglect my intellect Spiders Failed democracies What drugs do to people Idiocy in it's many tedious forms Abuse of the innocent Animal abuse (repeated myself there?) Idiots obsessed with bad role models Headaches Sick pathetic guys who think a short skirt means "She's asking for it". Die. >=/ Evil/nasty people Jerks who are all excuses and no heart Piercing-obsessed brats with no sense Crappy tattoos Those who ruin humanity with retarded social paradigms Pretentious people. Ugh Maths [I have Dyscalculia] Watching people I love/respect slowly fade/drift away Being taken for granted

Anything uplifting that evokes thought and relieves stress. I'm picky, there are only a few bands who I "worship" but a lot of songs by random bands that I truly love. >_> All of which are spammed on these applets! ^_^ Listen, dig it, then go buy their albums. wtf. I can not change the fact ~ That you're not coming back :( If I could have my way you wouldn't leave There's nothing I can do about it Nothing I believe There's gotta be a million reasons to stay A million more to not walk away If I could have my way you wouldn't leave The Mighty Mighty Bosstones - "One Million Reasons" [WARNING!] Random dudes who think I'll be interested in them need to go to a damned dating site and not waste their time. You have 0 chance at me. P.s. NO I won't "cyber" with you or tell you where I live.

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