First off, I'm 23 year's old (I really should change that, everytime I have a birthday, lol)

The name's Melissa.

I have long black hair, it's dyed, my natual colour is actually dark brown, but I didn't like it. Blue eyes, I love blue eyes.

I love music. I can't go a day without listening to any. I'm into metal and all it's sub-genres, Oldies (As I like to call it) And hmm... Basically whatever sounds good to me, I'll listen to it.

I am happily in a relationship with the most gorgeous guy ever, called Steven, I cannot tell him how much I love him, and I cannot wait to be in his arms again. The most amazing weekend I've ever had, and listening to our song <3 Oh how I cannot stop running through in my head, those many hours we spent cuddling up, just kissing and staring into eachothers eyes, for 3 days <3

Type O Negative - Love You To Death

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xD5No_JRrZw&ob=av2n&noredirect=1

So... I sort of go by the names of Morticia, Neeners, Nurse, NiNo, Melly, Mel, Liss, Lissa, Lissy, Madge, and probably other thing's, just little pet name's people give me really.

Oh, and a note to people who don't actually know me in person. The piercings in the pictures... They are fake. I'm actually a pussy when it come's to needles and all that shit, so I guess I'd never have anything done. Although I would love that, but I'd possibly have to be VERY drunk to even do that.

I'm a very shy person. On the internet, I may, or may not come across like that, but believe me, I am... I'm not AS bad as I was, but I'm slowly getting there.

Another few things I should clear up...

I'm most definetly not a skinny girl. So don't assume so, especially from the photo's. Yes, they are edited, but only edited, as in, I open up photoshop, load up my photo, then I duplicate the image, overlay, filter, blur, gaussian blur, turn the opacacity down, and there you have it. That is all, it just give's it like, a glowy effect? Nothing, is ever changed in such a dramatic way, to make me look different.

I don't really eat, once or twice a day? And I don't eat crap during, I seriously don't. If anything, I under-eat. And well, it certainly doesn't look like that, but unfortunately, I'm unlucky with what they call, a slow metabolism. And I guess you can say, mine is VERY slow. Ofcourse, losing my house in 08 didn't really help much, as me and my family had no choice but to live on junk food. It was all take-away's and microwavable meal's. It made me pretty ill, but I'm back to eating normally. I'm also on the pill, it increases your appetite, which obviosly makes you gain weight, where as I'm actually not eating enough, but hell, it still makes me gain. Anyway, all I can say is that I'm working on it, and I'm slowly starting to feel good about myself. It will take time, I'm not expecting miracles.

Job's...

Well, it's a job, but unpaid at the moment...

Yes, working with horses is actually a job.

I own 10, me and my mum are still trying to work out what the hell we're going to do. This is sort of a stud farm. Tralissa Andalusians, we just need to work to get our horses out there, in show's and so on, and finally have buisness up and running. It's a slow, horrible process, but you have to start somewhere.

My horses are like children to me, I love them to bit's and can't see myself without them.

I love animals.

I don't have much luck in life with anything. But I guess I get through whatever life throws at me. Some thing's I keep to myself, other thing's, well, I don't know.

I have a journal that I regulary update. I'd rather not post it out, it's somewhere for me to vent, and only one or 2 people have the link. Their choice to read it or not, I should really make a new one and make it anonymous -_- Although people would probably guess it's me because of the way I type thing's in detail, and then there's if I mention the horses and friend's and so on.

I have a FormSpring, but again, I'd rather not post that out. Not just yet, anyway.

I also have Facebook, Twitter, Myspace, Bebo, and I've lost count of how many other thing's I'm on.

In order to change, I have to really start getting my ass out of bed earlier, start doing more. But these day's I feel like I've got nothing to work for. I guess I'm silly for letting something get to me, but I know I have to change. Otherwise soon, I know I'll be worse.

I'm self concious, shy, insecure. I don't let this get in the way of a relationship. I hope I don't... I mean, I may have some day's. But I'm seriously not the type of person to accuse the other half of cheating or looking at other women or anything of the sort. I deal with it in my own way, this just mean's, I have a few day's, maybe even week's, where I do not want to see or speak to anyone. I'd rather just sit up in my room, alone, online, but watching thing's or talking to certain people, whom I trust and know I can talk to about how I'm feeling.

Sound's gay? Lol. No other way I can put it really.

Really, if I get to know someone a bit more, I'll come out of my shell. Preferably over internet is best. I tend to get a little tongue tied, or say the wrong thing's, and just completely make a tit out of myself, in person. I do not appreciate meeting someone online, who I find is alright to talk to at first, then suddenly them turning out to be a total dick, like a recent person I thought was ok to speak to. He ended up being a big headed twat, talking dirty, you catch my drift... So he pretty much went on the block list, and believe me, it will happen. You might think it's harmless fun, but I don't. It take's a certain person to be like that with... :/ I just don't want to see your penis, thanks.

I'm very ticklish. I shouldn't tell people this, because they find it funny, trying to tickle me to death. I hate it. If you attempted to tickle me, you're gauranteed to be kicked somewhere. Depend's what position I'm in. That sound's completely wrong. But yeah, I end up squirming, not being able to breathe, and sometimes to the point where I nearly throw up everywhere. Not nice, so don't do it...

I love going for walk's through creepy/eery looking woodlands/other places. I don't know what it is about them, I just really love places like that and would spend as much time as I could in them.

I love to drink. Yeah, not going to help if I'm trying to lose weight, lol. But hey, cutting down's the only thing I can do. I love pub's, I love the atmosphere in them. Nice to sit and have a drink with friend's, playing your favourite song's on the Jukebox.

I pretty much only go to Meze. Bogiez was my usual place, but as it's in Cardiff, it's always hard, transport-wise. Which sucks, because it's pretty awesome. But will never be the same as it was, The Point was an amazing place.

If you want to catch me out, a Friday and Saturday are the only night's you'll see me out. I'm a late arriver, I find it doesn't really get busy until 11PM. So that's when you'll probably catch me. Don't be afraid to say hi though, even if I do seem unapproachable O.O I apologise in advance...

When I'm drunk, I'm giggly, silly, interesting and talkative. I think I'm a really fun, crazy person when out really, and I have been told so. So that's a good thing I suppose? Ok, so I'm one of the lad's. I enjoy male company, their fun, easy to talk to, complete nutcases. I cannot stand squealy females, who are stuck up, and pretend to be someone their not. Where as I can be completely myself around guy's. And I don't make thing's awkward between anyone.

If I'm completely pissed when you see me out, I apologise, I'm obviously having a good night. Either that, or I'm trying to completely block out thing's. But that's rare... You'll probably see me falling through firedoors and shit. Yeah, very ladylike... I don't mean to, I have crap balance sober, possibly even worse drunk.

Apart from that, I love corsets and gothic clothing. I do wear corsets, when I feel comfortable to wear them. Other than that, I'm usually a t-shirt and jean's girl.

I love photography. It's a main hobby of mine, I'd love to make a buisness out of it.

Alot, or MOST of my photography can be found in my picture album's on Facebook.

And here - www.tralissaandalusiansphotography.co.nr

And other things.

I'm not a stuck up bitch like alot of people have assumed. I'm seriously not, I'm probably one of the nicest girl's you'll ever meet. Really down to earth and all that. So yeah ^_^

Oh, I also enjoy playing Team Fortress 2, Battlefield Heroes, Battlefield 2, Garry's Mod.

If you want to play, add me on Steam - Neeners