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Hi, I am Miss Fortune (which is my real name), I am from England, U.K. I use my (lesser known) middle name Claire here - as Fortune is my genuine surname, I am reluctant to give out much personal information. Call me paranoid, but in this case 'rather safe than sorry' is a good code to stick to .
I have a hard time trying to describe myself, because no two people will see me in exactly the same way. I am a very proud person - I daresay a little vain at times – though I never lose sight of the things that really matter. I spend a lot of my time just observing the world and the people around me and making my own quiet speculations.
I like to indulge in what I call "creative promiscuity" - although I am a seamstress professionally, I spend a lot of my free time dabbling in different creative outlets including drawing, painting, sewing, dance, amateur modelling, acting, poetry, songwriting, music and filming. Of course in some I am better than in others! I have this habit of attempting to run before I can walk. Sometimes however it is the best way to learn. I am involved in a music project with my partner, and am somewhat addicted to experimenting with creative outlets, and trying to build quirky and often dark experiences. I am both my biggest fan and my toughest critic, but somehow it works well enough for me, though i'm rarely satisfied with what I produce. Sometimes I may come across as a little isolated, but I’m never far from my friends and I’m always there for them when they need me.
The nature of my work means that occasionally I toe the line between critical and offensive, though only ever intending on the former. I also understand the importance of context, and I don't aim to cause real offence. I do however aim to provoke on occasion, but only in a manner which calls for debate as opposed to plain arseholery. Despite my occasionally questionable pieces however, I am actually rather sensitive and shy, but with a thick enough skin to cope with the criticism that comes my way.
On a more self-analysis note, I consider myself a bit of a contradiction sometimes – a little bit stuck 'in the middle of between'. Although I like to think that I come across as a fairly mature and reasonable person, I am still proud to say that I never lost that childish sense of curiosity - even when it is matched by the adult ability to reason and think logically. I'm always thinking "what would happen if..?", "where would that lead me?" or "what's the worst that could happen?". I also know that I am still developing my knowledge and ideas every day, though that is exactly what keeps me creative and I‘m very proud to have that skill at my disposal. Sometimes you could catch me at a gig, festival or one of the local goth clubs - drinking a little too much, enjoying the atmosphere and the music, making a fool of myself with all my friends but having a wonderful time doing it; other times I’ll be found in some dark, paint and fabric strewn corner of the flat, having to be coaxed out by my other half with a trail of biscuits and promises of tasty tasty whiskey. I love intelligent music and art which is inspiring - I know I have my flaws, but I am a perfectionist and I’m always striving to make myself a little bit smarter, a little bit better than I was the day before.
| I’m opinionated, but not aggressive. | I’m proud, but not arrogant. |
I’ll quite happily have a debate over some controversial topic, or recent news story, but I’m always the one trying to defuse a real argument rather than fuel one. I suppose that makes me a fairly level headed person – I certainly like to think that I’ve found a balance between being very real and down to earth, but still able to create without being restricted by my imagination.
There are a few pieces of my art in my gallery - it's not my best work but you're welcome to have a look.
As I consider myself a creative person, it makes perfect sense to say that I love all forms of creative expression. I enjoy spending time writing songs, painting, acting, dancing and drawing. My paintings and sketches are what consume most of my spare time, though I could also be seen drifting around the theatre or cinema. I've had my art signiture/ logo tattooed on the back of my neck, because I love the idea of being able to imagine and then record ideas and images that noone else has ever thought of or seen before. Particularly with art and music, creativity and intelligence are important to me, as I believe that it is impossible to teach someone how to be truly creative. I also value intelligence, and the ability to think for yourself. I have a fondness of history also - particularly Second World War and Victorian related (though many other history periods hold a lot of interest for me too)
The significant people in my life - My friends, boyfriend and family are also important to me, and always make sure I spend time with the people who I care about. I enjoy going to clubs and bars with my friends, and will often go out for a coffee and lunch with my family too. These are the people who support me after all.
Things that irritate me are normally routed in stupidity and/or ignorance, two frustrating vices which can crop up in any aspect of my life. It's those scenarios where I just have to roll my eyes and move on, or result in a hopeless heated debate which i'd always rather avoid. I dont ever consider myself a moral high ground of any kind, and I will always consider/recognize both sides of an argument (though I will always hold my opinions).
I'm no animal activist, but I also strongly oppose cruelty to animals.
People who lie pointlessly can hardly be expected to be honest to me - and therefore I consider a waste of my time.
I think that across all genres subgenres of music there are examples of intelligent, unique and meaningful bands with intelligent, unique and meaningful songs, just as across all genres there are the bands who copy the "successful" and write (maybe catchy) songs but lack any of the creative skill and intelligence that I like in music. I am really into NDH and Industrial, and enjoy listening to bands like Rammstin, Eisbrecher, Oomph!, Mundtot, [x]-Rx, Unheilig, Hanzel und Gretyl, Liquid Divine, Blutengel, Megahertz and Panzer AG. I also like music from bands like Dead Can Dance, Theatre of Hate, Grenedal, The Cure, Bauhaus, The Deathstars, Sisters of Mercy, Xmal Deutschland, Emilie Autumn, Cinema Strange as well as a few sins such as Slipknot (great for those crappy days!) Theatre of Tragedy and many, many others. Despite becoming a well worn clich� (and now much tabbooed in many self-respecting goth communities) I confess to liking Marilyn Manson, because I think he has a good intelligent message behind his music despite now becoming some sort of banner for alternative wannabees. I'm mostly drawn to 'darker' music (whether that be metal or punk all the way through to classical), because it holds more personal relevence to me and my lifestyle. I also like music with a good beat/ rhythm, as I was raised doing a lot of dance and music classes and the fondness of a good bass beat has stubbornly stuck. I also appreciate Eminem for his intelligence (even if I don't necessarily like the rap style - it's quite stressful to listen to), Lady Gaga for her creativity (or at least her marketer anyway), and many other pieces from various soundtracks including Moulin Rouge, Sweeny Todd, The Corpse Bride, Nightmare before Chrismas etc. I also enjoy a bit of classical music on occasion, because it has a different quality to it, and can hold some sort of darkness or sadness to it without having to say any words (something which appears to have been sorely lost in modern plastic 'pop' music).