MalkavianMime at Vampirefreaks.com [Premium Member]

About Me
malky Is what to call me, that’s not my real name obviously, If I wanted you to know that I would tell you. Frankly, people are disappointing me as of late. In addition to ever present disappointment of myself. I’m a depressive so I have a chemical imbalance that fucks with my head, making me needy, jealous, over protective, and passively dependent, etc. If you don’t like this, then I suggest you don’t talk to me. I add anyone that looks interesting, boy or girl or music, whatever. I’ll talk to anyone & will reply in 24 hrs unless I happen to be in a disparaging mood. I've found that people come and go easily from your online life, you can talk to someone intensely for hours on end then it will suddenly stop because of a single mis communicated word. So if you think that you are special having spoken to me, your not, I will always talk, even if not heard; by the way, I'm usually invisible here, but i check it twice a day for messages.

Don't Talk To Me:

If you think your hardcore, LOL's your a pussy, try living on the streets where you have hurt to survive on a daily basis. Trust me you a wimp.

You wear pants with wording on the ass, but get upset when someone reads it. blah stupid whores.

Think you the hottest thing ever. [ I know I don’t drop jaws, but that is just plain rude ]

If you use words like n----rn----r or c--t, totally unacceptable.

Talk about how much your life is more important then the rest of us, we have feelings you know & they fucking mean something to us.

& lastly if you yell at me for talking to your significant other, even flirting, if you don’t like it have them tell me not to. Stupid BF's.

Is that too difficult?, Fuck'N Wastes of Oxygen.

What I Am:

A huge flirt, I like talking but only online, in person I might as well be invisible, no one gives me the time of day..

I’m Vampiric [ As in I drink blood & absorb radiating energy that I can’t maintain on my own.]

Have many young friends, not really by choice, they just seem to be what I can speak to.

Homeless, yeah have been for a while, & will continue due to well missed opportunities.

I consider myself to be bi-sexual , though I lean straight.

My real age is 25 , but I can pass for 16 believe it or not.

Not a christian, pagan, muslim, jew or satanist. I just am a person.

I'm prone to outbursts of feelings given that I'm a Capricorn . Not "emo" per se. Just a moma's boy grown up.

No love for me right now, only a few possibilities.

Stats for me ~ Body: 127lbs | Eyes: Sky Blue | Hair: Auburn | GF/BF: not taken

Lyra Marquardt My adopted sister. ♥ I've known her about a year & a half; she isn't my real sister, but she might as well be. I lost my real sister a long time ago, so she really helps to fill that void, & pushes me just like a little sister should, making me a better person for her part. Shes the only one that never lets me down, never hurts me with anything, i just hope i dont hurt her to bad. I can honestly say meeting her online was unexpected, it was just a random occurances, totally out of my control. Neither of use like our own families so it works out for us to be there for each other. I tell her things i wouldn't tell god, which i don't believe exists. I don't know what i would do without her in my life; nothing would be the same at all.

[My Brother Chris wrote this for me.]
For Lyra

My not so little sister
How can I express what you've done for me?

I'm the one dead person you keep alive
I never thought I could feel healed
Of that wound where Katie used to be
But you have done so for me.

Much to my dismay as a matter of fact
The whole in my heart isn't so big anymore
Words aren't adequet thanks for what you've done.

I can only hope living on
Will be good enough for you
Not ending up as one of your tombstones or Maseleums
In that cemetary you so love.

I'd give you the shoes off my feet
So you wouldn't have to go barefoot
Even if i had to walk on broke glass, or coals set ablaze with fire.

Just name what you need
And it shall be
I love my sister with all the heart i have.

[This is how I feel about him]

For a year I've talked to him
Used him as a shrink
Complained to him
Trusted him
Treated him like a brother
He knows everything about me
Whether or not he knows it
I owe him everything
Even if it kills me

Destiny ♥Such a sweetheart to me, she made this layout for me. Is always there with a kind word or helping hand. She's really amazing even when she puts herself down for her "extra weight" which i don't see. But we all have our eccentricities. Her's make her special to me. Thanks Dezi!

Kiss me in the sunshine,
Kiss me in the grass.
Melt the pain away, baby.
Make my fucking day.
Let the light of tomorrows coming
wash over our lusting bodies.
Until forever's death I promise you,
I'll be waiting.

AllyMy muse ♥ She was my first VF friend, shes always there for me. She inspires me heart to be more then it is, to continue to write even when my pencil seems immovable. Touched with a heart of pure gold is she. Everytime I talk to her, she helps me with an envigoration of life that no one else really can.

Streetlamps Illuminate A Sad Setting

Here’s to the man who wanders alone
Nowhere safe to stay or a place to call home

Aimlessly walks the darkened path
Gloomily shuffling, it’s been so long since he laughed

All he wants is warmth and a friend
To liven up the life he so wishes to end

I call out into the dark, call out his name
Knowing that I’m here life won’t ever be the same

It breaks my heart that there’s nothing I can do
To help ease the suffering that he’s going through

He’s the lonely little Malky boy for whom I care
I’d do anything to be with him, to just be there

His sad eyes reflect so much pain inside
I feel for him strongly and I have cried

One day I’ll get to him and make things better
I know that if I never tried forever I would regret it

That solemn wanderer shall be alone no more
I’ll kiss the wounds that look so sore

I’ll help him feel and be whole again
And maybe he’ll smile instead of frown

The rain will away the sorrow and tears
And act as a barrier to protect him from his fears

I love him so much he means a lot to me
Without him I’m, half the person I’m meant to be

May this love follow you
And be your guide through darkness
Under the night skies
With the moon to illuminate the way

Let the stars light the way home
The cover of darkness protect you
Keep you safe from lurking danger
A dark veil upon the midnight blue sky

Let nothing pull you down
Into unforgiving shadows of evil
May your world be softly lit up
No-one else may see the magic

Keep my heart close to your own
My soul be your guardian which follows
Let the impurities of the flesh be forgotten
And evil shy away from the purity of my love

My soul will watch over you
Even as the nights grow dim
Nothing will purge my heart of you
My love is yours forever

Eric ♥ Well first off, isn't he adorable.? heheh. How can I describe my goofball friend eric, sweetheart.? naw not good enough, boy with a heart of gold....maybe...? hah, he truely is a unique soul, one that cares deeply about everyone around him, despite how some of THEM treat him. If I could wash away his troubles and make everything right for him I would. I just trust that karma will be good to him in the coming years.

Kareese ♥ What can i say about her, except that shes amazingly sweet. Apparently being a satanist doesn't rob you of a heart like some many christians think, she gives alot to everyone around her. Even a loser like me, she may be my lifeline soon, someone that will help me get out from the oppression that im under. If not she'll still be one of my closest friends.