First and foremost; I am a Goth and a very happy person. I work too much, when i'm not working I play video games. I am alarmingly blunt and honest. Ask me anything and I'll tell you. The way I figure it, is... if you have no secrets from anyone, you'll be more careful that you don't do something you'll not want everyone to know. You'll probably not meet many people in your life more blunt, direct and honest than I am. Some people don't like that, tough s$#t. The only secrets I keep are those between friends... you know, other people's secrets. I'm good at that.
I'm unapologetically honest about things that embarrass other people, and I laugh the hardest if something surprises me, because surprising me doesn't happen too often. I laugh during horror movies and while watching porn, but not because I'm uncomfortable. I just think it's a hoot! I love being afraid, fear is my favorite kind of thrill. Unfortunately, though it makes me happy, I don't get scared too often. When I was a kid, I'd walk down dark alleys and around our big house at night without any lights on. I'd leave the closet door open just that little bit in the semi darkness... then watch it and smile. Yep, I was (and am) a certified weirdo. Life is good!
I love to watch people and "read" them. Body language is important to me. I like people who can look you in the eye while they talk to you. I don't mind being alone, and I don't ever get lonely or jealous or bored. I don't know why that is. I have an odd and/or perverted sense of humor. I also tend to laugh when I'm physically hurt or if you tell me a sad/awful story, but not because I think it's funny at all. I prefer to be friends with men, because I think more like one. I am blunt, outspoken and oddly accepting at the same time... I don't mind at all if we disagree. I will not argue for the sake of arguing, though I do have very strong convictions. I don't try to "change" other people.
I am "Straight Edge" which means I don't drink, smoke, or do drugs. I've never had sex with someone I didn't love and trust, (and had a long term relationship with.) Although sometimes people misunderstand what kind of girl I am because no topic is beyond discussion with me, and I will make (what other people may consider) inappropriate jokes at times.
I am not aggressive or competitive normally, but I'm very territorial and protective of friends and family. Aggressive people will provoke me to aggression in ways they do not expect. I hate bullies and those who tear down others for fun, (or to make themselves feel better...) I will attack them with just what bothers them the most, picking them apart with whatever they fear. It gives me great joy to teach them certain life lessons! I am not a forgiving person, and I do not forget intentionally hurtful things, ever.
To get along with me is very easy, you only have to be yourself, speak honestly and treat me how you want me to treat you. If you want to joke around, I can take it in stride, but I'll give it back too! You do not ever have to worry about embarrassing me or unintentionally making me angry, and you never have to worry that I have PMS that day, because I do not suffer from mood swings. Just treat me like "one of the guys" and you'll be fine.
My favorite things in life are; playing video games, riding horses and watching horror movies. I am a work-a-holic.
Like most Goths I like listening to music, walking in the rain, swimming in the moonlight, dancing, reading/writing books, being creative or drawing. I like vampires too much.
I don't "put on airs" or act pretentious. Hypocrites make me angry. I don't care about anyone's social standing, clothing, appearance or income. I don't give a damn about people's opinions of me, because no one judges me as harshly as I do. I do things I like and avoid things I don't. I am a "black and white" person, meaning; I am simple, I do something or I don't. I usually always know what I want and where things fall on my moral scale. There are no "grey areas" in my life, or areas where I feel uncertain or can't make up my mind. Right or wrong, I will make a decision. I am not a wishy-washy or changeable person.
I have never been drunk or high, but I don't preach about any of this. It's just my preferences for my life. It is fine if other people want to do those things, it just isn't for me. Pressuring me, however, will really piss me off. The fact is, I hate any substance that takes away my awareness and strong will. I need to be in control of ME at all times. Plus, I don't trust people enough to be completely helpless around them.
Goth Metal, Heavy Metal, Industrial, Old School Goth, 80's music and 50's rock.