Please take note, I will not respond to net speak and the only language I speak is English.

Depending on your intentions for visiting my profile defines my reaction to it.

My soul and life is intertwined with that of another. That is to say that I am spoken for. My husband is my world and has the only opinion, aside from my own, that matters. Petty insults or pick up lines are futile.

If you’re here to downrate me, go for it. Obviously, you’re butthurt about something and feel the need to give me a one for it. Ratings don’t matter, and if they did, you wouldn’t even put a dent in mine.

If you’re here because you have to do a staff opinion for your XxToxic_DollsxX application, proceed, however make sure you read the second chapter.

If you’re here because we’ve had some prior acquaintance and would like to get to know me more or talk; or if you’ve just stumbled on my profile and happen to be bored enough to sit down and read it, I welcome you and hope you enjoy it.

If you feel so compelled to make your existence known, so be it. Please, actually make your message something I can respond to if you don’t want to just leave me some flattery. If you want a message back, write something more than “Hi, cool pro, 10”.

Feel free to rate me what you want, I don’t care. I do rate back out of courtesy.

If you’re going to add me, you may do so, it doesn’t bother me. However do realize that I only add people I know, like, and talk to as a friend.

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Now that we’ve established that, you may progress through my profile.

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On this site, I am generally regarded as a callous, malicious, insensitive, captious, snobbish egocentric that enjoys nothing more than tearing people down for my own validation. That’s customarily the opinion of those who are only acquainted with my reputation, and who refuse to even attempt to reaffirm its truth. I do posses some of these traits to a lesser degree, but they are not the prominent aspects of my character.

I do believe in striving for perfection. Granted, no one can ever obtain perfection in any aspect of life, however relentlessly seeking self improvement is perhaps the most meaningful thing any person can do. You should never be entirely content with who you are as it is detrimental to your personal growth.

I do not believe in the concept of equality. Yes, all people are created equal; however we do not remain equivalent to one another once we establish our identities. In a world where equality is the norm, there would be no room for excellence or individuality. Our actions define our worth. If they didn’t, we would all be the same as a pedophile or a rapist. This is not to say that we all shouldn’t have similar rights, just that no two people are ever equals.

My life is far from perfect, yet I wouldn’t change it. In spite of all of sins I have committed and the horrors that I’ve seen, I refuse to self pity. Acting pitiful and self loathing leads to nothing and prevents one from evolving. Without all the trauma and error, I wouldn’t be the person I am today.

The written word is an art form, one that I appreciate deeply. It’s almost depressing how few genuinely grasp that word choice and flow is significant the presentation of oneself, and how seldom it is for the population to care. Language has seem to take a back seat to image and reputation.

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As you have probably figured out by now, you have the choice to do an opinion on a staff member. Yes, I know, most people hate this because many cults reject someone over disliking a member of staff or being honest in their opinion. We don’t want ass kissing. The reason we have this is so that we can know you’re capable of coming to a conclusion on a short amount of information, as you would be doing if you gained the privilege of voting.

That being said; if you’re planning to do an opinion on me, there’s few things you should know. If all you mention in your opinion is that you like my HTML, think my hair is cute, or some other trivial matter, expect the same method of voting in return (only it’s much harder to stun me with HTML and hair). There is more to me than my hair, the codes I know, the makeup I wear, and my style. I give you an ample amount of information here, so you damn well better not focus only on the aesthetics.

As long as we're on the subject of what I do not appreciate on the staff opinion, I should probably inform you that vague responses are not highly looked upon (on any question). You should be able to express yourself well and be direct if you have any hopes in making it into the cult.

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Like the rest of my profile, my opinions are written entirely by me and I do not appreciate plagiarism. If you are found claiming these works as your own, I shall smite you with the wrath of God.

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Adoption Vs Abortion

I am very strongly pro-choice. If you take away the option of a legal abortion, there would be even more illegal abortions done. More people would throw themselves down stairs, have a friend punch them in the stomach, or heavily use drugs in hopes to miscarry. These methods aren’t always effective, and if the fetus survives, are likely to cause permanent, and severe, damage. If we, as a society, didn’t condemn abortion like we do, there would be less crack babies, children born with fetal alcohol syndrome, and children born with less brain damage.

While placing a child up for adoption is an available option, there already aren’t enough people willing to adopt a child. Most adoptions are of children under the age of three. After that, they are more likely to spend the rest of their childhood in the system; many getting shipped from foster home to foster home and some in state institutions. The adult life of children raised in the system is grim; 27% of males and 10% of females end up in prison, 50% remain unemployed, 37% never finish high school, and 19% of females end up getting pregnant. This is all within a year and a half. If you had a child you couldn’t take care of, is this the future you want for them? source

Adoption has many other negatives as well. If a child doesn’t get love from a parent within the first year of life, it often loses it’s will to survive. Many children who weren’t adopted within their first year of life attempt suicide at least once and develop various mental illnesses.

Now, this isn’t to say that adoption is a terrible solution, just to show why I don’t see it to be better than abortion.

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Suicide

Contrary to popular belief, suicide is not something done by teens out of angst. While there are some who would “attempt” suicide, rates actually increase with age. Teens are the second least likely to commit suicide (with children under twelve being the least likely). This is not to say that teens and younger children do not kill themselves, only that adult suicide and geriatric suicide are far more common. However, if a parent commits suicide, one in three children will follow suit, but teens killing themselves out of angst is a sad mistake.source

The main reason why teens are least likely to kill themselves is because of one simple fact; healthy people don't kill themselves. Mental illnesses are usually at a minimal in the teenage years (unless on improper medication which can speed the development of one) and progressively worsen as a person ages. Terminal illnesses may cause a person to also commit suicide, but again, those generally increase with age.

I’m sure that there is an abundance of people who believe that suicide is a selfish act. While that might be true for some, there are cases where others were the reason for the suicide. If a man sacrifices himself to save his family, is he selfish? Also, when I asked an older gentleman who had attempted suicide why he did so, this is what he told me, “I thought it would be better for my children if they didn’t have to deal with my mental illness.” That doesn’t sound like “woe is me, I should end my life”.

Depending on the quality of life a person has and their reasons for attempting suicide, I do find it understandable. It’s seems ridiculous to me to expect a person suffering so greatly to continue for your own selfish will.

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True Love

True love to me is something that cannot be faked. It is impossible to fabricate, and comes from within. Patience, trust, hope, affection, and the like can all be false. For me, there is one definition of love. To love is to sacrifice, as you cannot sacrifice without loving first.

It is impossible for any human to forsake all that they know for one person if they do not completely love them. No man could willingly give himself to any other person unless he knew that he could not survive without them. There are few who will argue that sacrifice alone is not love, but allow me to give an example from my life as it is the easiest way to explain.

I was 15 at the time that my mother had her first ECT treatment (its shocks to the brain, if you didn't know). The after effect of the treatment left her virtually a potato for upwards of a month. At this time, should could do basic things, such as sleep, eat, and relieve herself without assistance. However, she couldn't prepare her food, look after herself, or bathe alone. Her comprehension level was nonexistent. It was as if she were an Alzheimer's patient.

At an age where my friends and schooling were my life, I was not prepared to take on the role of care giver in the slightest. Yet the moment she came home, my life was no longer my own. Every action and choice within that time was for her, to make sure that she survived. I gave all I could for her care with only the thought of her getting better as my reward.

Some would say that I'm just selfless, and I must say, that is the farthest from the truth as possible. The fact is that I love my mother and would give up everything to make sure that she was alive and well. I learned from that short period that I'm not going into care giving as a profession, however if my mother or my husband need that type of care, I wouldn't think twice about it.

Sacrifice is the only way I can describe love. When you give every last comfort for someone else, you know that they hold a deep place within your heart. Too many people in this world are great actors; they can fake the emotions and actions that many associate with love. However, when it comes to the time where they must give all of themselves for the other, they are no where to be found. If the love is true, they are willing to put themselves through hell for the person they love.

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Legalization of Medicinal Marijuana

Marijuana is one of the best narcotics there are. It has vast medical benefits with very mild side effects. It truly is a miracle of nature. It not only can help with reducing pain, it also increases the appetite, helps to calm nausea, and relaxes the mind. Marijuana can be a wonderful thing to those suffering from illnesses such as insomnia, anorexia, chronic pain, cancer, HIV/AIDs, and many more.

Tetrahydrocannabinol, or better known as THC, is the psychoactive chemical in marijuana. To be frank, there's only one side effect from THC and it is the same with most narcotics; you get high. Physically, there are no known dangers of taking marijuana in pill form. Smoking it may lead to some risks, but depending upon the illness it's treating, the benefits outweigh this.

With this knowledge, one can only conclude that the only reason why medicinal marijuana is not legalized is based upon one thing; money. If it were legalized, more than half of the current medication would cease instantly. With the cannabis plant being particularly easy to grow, there would be nearly no need for the pharmaceutical companies; thus, running them into the ground.

While some may argue the dangers of marijuana, and it's mentally addicting nature; they seem to forget that this is the same for all drugs, legal or not. Marijuana pure of any other substance is perhaps the safest drug on the planet. It seems a bit silly to restrict the usage of a relatively safe substance but allow much harsher substances to be obtained as easily as driving to the nearest Walgreens.

Even with the vast advantages marijuana would have in the medical field, it is doubtful that it will be legalized for the majority of the country, even for extreme cases, any time soon. The reason being is that the companies would lose far too much profit. Also, it would become rather difficult to control the usage and growth of the substance.

So far, there are twelve states that have realized the benefit of legalizing medicinal marijuana: Alaska, California, Colorado, Hawaii, Maine, Montana, Nevada, New Mexico, Oregon, Rhode Island, Vermont, and Washington.

The federal government has no jurisdiction on what a state chooses to legalize. Even with the backing of the "War on Drugs", the states that choose to legalize medicinal marijuana are within their rights.

It's a shame that something natural with far less harm than it synthetic counterparts would be banned and outlawed. After all, isn't the code of ethics for the medical industry to help others and save lives, or is that just for doctors and nurses? Why keep something banned when it can do so much wonderful things?

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Genital Mutilation/Circumcision

I find it somewhat amusing and highly disturbing that Americans (as well as many other places in the world) think female circumcision at birth is wrong, however male circumcision is basic practice. While we can try to reassure ourselves that this is correct, it is still a form of genital mutilation on an unwilling participant.

While it was once believed that an uncircumcised male played a significant role in a female developing cervical cancer, there has yet to be any significant sources backing said claim. Many will also claim that it is for cleansing purposes; yet they fail to realize that good hygiene will keep that part of the body clean, like with every other part of our bodies. However most people are far too eager to go with the flow that they brutalize their infant without doing any research of their own.

Males are born with the foreskin for a reason. It helps to protect the penis. Like female circumcision, male circumcision can lead to a lesson of pleasure received through intercourse. The friction of the glands (which were once protected by the foreskin) on clothing can desensitize that area of the male anatomy.

As with female circumcision, there are many people who perform male circumcision as a form of a religious act. I'm not going to say that that particular reason is invalid; however if we condemn on religion in their practice of genital mutilation, we should condemn them all. It's highly hypocritical to claim that the Jewish people are right in chopping off part of their sons yet Islamic people are wrong in removing parts of their daughters.

I in no way support any form of genital mutilation preformed on an unwilling participant. That choice should be left to the person in which the procedure would be preformed. It just boggles my mind that so many would blindly accept one form of genital mutilation and not the other. There aren't extenuating circumstances that makes one form superior to the next; it's all inhumane practice.

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Now, this section is all about the things on VF that really make me laugh, but probably not in the way you’d expect.

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Rudolf Syndrome Cults

It takes a special breed of people to create one of these cults, where you have people apply just to play games. Why on earth would you tell someone they’re not good enough to count up with you? Do you think you’re that special that only a select few can watch you post nothing but spam? Get real. You should only have an application if you actually have something going on in the cult, not just have mindless posts that make the cult seem active.

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Shit Talkers

It amuses me to no end when people allow me to have such an effect on them that they resort to spending their time thinking of ways to kill me and putting so much energy into it. Seriously, it’s the internet. If you’d allow someone you don’t know, and are probably never going to meet, to have that great of an impact on you, you probably should destroy your computer.

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I Could Care Less

I still can’t decide whether it’s funny or sad how many people use this phrase attempting to say how they don’t care. If people actually knew the language they were raised with, they’d realize that by saying you could care less means that you care now. Come on people, could and couldn’t drastically differ in meaning. Think about what you say.

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Rejection Cults

It really is amusing when people are bitter enough to start/join a reject’s cult. Let’s face it, if you honestly didn’t care about what someone said on your application, you wouldn’t create a cult about it. That only shows that you can’t handle criticism and that the people were right in rejecting you. What are you going to do when you get rejected for a job, start a business about it?

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Freedom Of Expression

It amuses me so much when people bitch about a law or code that restricts their “freedom of expression”. Obviously, these people have never even read the Bill of Rights. There is nothing there that protects your privilege to portray yourself outside the mediums of the religion you practice, the words you speak, or your ability to protest. Also, this only protects the rights of those who are American citizens that are at least 18. So stop bitching about how your school forcing you to wear a uniform is infringing upon your freedom of expression; it doesn’t exist.

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People who don't watch where they're going

I know, this is a huge request for me to ask that you actually pay attention to your surroundings and try not to be a dick by running into me while I have a cup of hot coffee. Let's get serious; did you ever wonder why the eyes on the human body are located in the front of the head? It's not just for looks; it’s so that you can actually see where the fuck you're going. Call me a liar, but it's true.

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People who claim to be crazy

Unless you have a mental disease, you aren't crazy. Even then, it should be severe enough to interfere with your life for you to earn that title. Acting stupid is not equivalent to being crazy.

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Annoying Drunks

I can stand sloppy drunks, and the occasional extremely happy drunk. Just because I can stand it doesn't mean that you should go out of your way to talk to me while you're drunk, unless I know and like you sober. I might tell you that you're a disappointment to society and drunks everywhere or I might just pour hot coffee on your head. If you really want to take that chance, then by all means, interrupt my intense game of cribbage with the barista to tell me how much you love me. Just remember, you were warned.

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Organic Coffee

I must have my organic stuff, because regular coffee taste like ass and I refuse to soil my coffee with cream or sugar.

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76 Coffee

It’s a coffee shop located in Eastown Grand Rapids, under the awning with yesterdog. Granted, I hate most of the people who go there, but I enjoy the company of my baristas and the fact that I can play cards while smoking.

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Fake Hair

What girl wouldn't like to change her style up without destroying their hair?

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Bright Makeup

I enjoy changing up my look constantly and loud, exaggerated colors are the best to do so with.

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Funny People

No, not in the sense where I’m laughing at them. When someone has the gift to put a smile on my face and make me genuinely laugh, I tend to like them more. You can never laugh enough in your lifetime, and I appreciate the people who bring that joy into the lives of others.

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For those who have made it this far, congratulations. You have now educated yourself with a basic understanding of that which I am and now have the means to properly form an opinion; not to mention the reading you have done.

For the many who will skip to this section in hopes to find a hidden word or phrase to use while commenting me (some have these to know who reads their profile), I regret to inform you that there is none. A person should want to have a basic understanding of a person before addressing them. It’s a personal choice, one that does not concern me.

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