Icebird

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Now, where to begin about me. I'm good at talking online, but when it comes to talking in real life, i'm just don't know how to do it. I never really grew up having any real friends, i still really don't have any real friends. I have more like quaintness that are friends, i hardly ever get to talk to them, and it's pretty obvious to me that they won't ever message me first. But why do i still have them and call them friends. Fuck if i know.

I guess you could call me smart in certain ways, with knowing how to think logically and being observant. Pass that, i don't know much about cars, sports, anything news related, movies, actors, musicians, or pretty much anything dealing with people or a lot of things people know. But in a lot of ways, i'm smarter then people in the other stuff they're stupid at, so i guess it's pretty even.

I've pretty much gotten to the point in my life where i have stopped caring about anything really. I'm a virgin and never had a girlfriend because i never have been close to anyone in my life, and i believe it's not really worth it anymore to go out and try to find a girl. To me it's more of a waste of time, and i don't like having my time wasted.

Then why am i wasting my time here? It's just because of that, it's to waste time. I'd rather waste my time doing what i like to do then to bother with anything else. I don't care about ever getting a girlfriend anymore. Do i wish it would happen, yea, but i believe it ever will. Nope. As for having sex, i'll lose my virginity when ever i really feel like losing it. Which i doubt will be soon.

I'm a creepy guy who doesn't really know how to talk to anyone. Don't believe me, i've been told multiple times that i'm creepy, which is basically the reason why i've stopped really talking to anyone anymore. Yes, i know it's sad, but like i've said before, i just really don't care anymore. All i really want to do is just live out my life and then die at a good age.

I know, it sounds like i'm wasting my life like that, but i really don't have anything better to do. Personally i have thought about suicide before, but all my friends would miss me if i did that, and plus it's a 'pussy' thing to do. But anymore now, i guess my roommate somewhat relies on me so i can't really do that anyways. So i might as well waste my life that way in the end my friends can all be happy they they could continue on with they're lives not talking to me.

But anyways, if you still want to talk to me, then i guess you can message me. I might respond, but i tend not to because like i said before, i just don't really care anymore. Maybe if there was a reason to respond back i might do it, but it just depends on if i feel like it or not. That's really all i have to say, thank you for reading and good day.

-Chris