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Hanosity
Sex: female
Age: 17
Location: Edinburgh, , United Kingdom
Rating: 9.83
Rating points: 570
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Member since: October 30, 2005
Last logged in: October 31, 2008, 09:44am
Account Status: Free Account
Rated by: 58 people
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Latest Journal Entry: No Subject April 01, 2008, 05:28pm
Profile:
 tarmac
books are the only real things in this world, sight is just restrictions, to be truely free all you need is blind imagination. Its stupid, cause im hurting,
and no one can tell me why.
Im crying, yet im lucky
there are people so mouch worse off than me
i dont want to be pityed,
just understood
but how can i expect that,
when i dont even make sense to myself
i cant see my future
though i hope i have one
Is wanting to stand still,
and read fantasies forever,
such a bazzar wish.
I dont understand how people cannot judge me as I do
Yet I suppose they cant as they are not me
I never asked why me?
it never crossed my mind,
becausse if it wasn;t me,
Then i would not be me,
if that makes any sense at all,
which I doubt.
Religion doesn't sit with me,
because I suppose I still dont believe in humanity.
Or the fact we exsist at all
I like to question
but i hate drawing to conclusions
the unanswered questions are the best ones.
I suppose the title phlosipher would work
if it wasnt for the fact i dont believe in labels
I dont trust people the way other people do
i just dont see it
But then maybe I think im different,
when reallt I am just the same as them all
DANCE as though no one is watching
LOVE as though you have never been hurt before
SING as though no one can hear you
-souza hehe... the internet is like one big joke reserved for those who dont like to laugh on the outside... well at least that is what tarmac would say
i am someone. i change my mind about who i am so often i dont think i really know. i like to act.. i lie to myself a lot. i hate being aware. i like to be away from the real world. i dont like not being in control.
sumtimes i might ACT like im being mad but this is true and not true cause i do act but i figure that is better than being depressed anyway. Also im not acting ur just seeing a certain bit of my personality i.e the insane bit .... it is part of me just i hav 2 block out the other bits i.e depressed/ pissed off etc 2 b like that... so i am probably annoying, insecure and evil but i am myself so that is me and i am quite happy about it.
Likes:
Writing, that place inbetween sleep and wake, my world, my bed. avacodos, the hammock in my garden. shooting stars. tea in the middle of the night, bitter lemon, raw pasta, rubarb and sugar. forest gump (film). my twin in peter pan. Politics - getting into fights, i love rme. love being very loud and opinionated (should really learn to spell). Like brightly coloured clothes and have a hippy streak (i very much like my kaftan). fire is amazing. so is water.
second hand clothes.. i am addicted to this place in france called 'emmaus' or something it is pollytunnels and they sell furniture, glasses ect and also clothes. it is 2€90 a kilo for clothes (crazy huh) and some people might think that is scaffy or whatever but half my clothes are from there.
Dislikes:
the cold, people who laugh at me and i dont no why,
locked doors
cages... i have developed this intense fear of them and cant stand pet stores and hamsters ect in cadges
bits of the past i cant get back, being asked about the future. forgetting myself, the freezer, dementia, cloning.
Favorite Music:
yellowcard, *system of a down*, iron madien, blink 182, rammstien, counting crows, dido (it makes me sleep and dream of angels), dash of nickleback, atm stone sour, dixie chicks, muse, mcr (though bastard cheating scum mr way CHEATED ME, gazette (well no i just love the lead singer) .. and other bits and bobs i mostly like just one or two songs at a time by random artists.. RUNRIG
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