"But what is Hope? Nothing but the paint on the face of Existence; the least touch of truth rubs it off, and then we see what a hollow-cheeked harlot we have got hold of." -Lord Byron
Status: For the love of others to dictate my contrition, I am forever grateful.
Sex: male Age: 21 Location: Anywhere but Somewhere,
Colorado, United States
Member since: February 06, 2009 Account: Free Account Orientation: Straight Status: In a relationship Buddies with:CrimsonLeaves Occupation: Ubermensch
For those of you poor souls who are actually interested in me, here is some basic information about myself in which I will provide. Bare in mind however that it is nothing more than a lengthy jumble of random information in which you will find an outline of the person I am. Anyways... My name is Ian. I want nothing more than what everybody else wants, to be happy. My intentions these days is to move forward in my life whilst enjoying it in the process. I am interested in Psychology and Philosophy and it is something which may one day be my career... On the exterior, I'm relatively quiet and introverted, especially with people I don't know very well or at all. This is an illusion of who I am because really I am not as shy as I seem. Still I wear a mask, and few will see my true face... I am extremely independent and do well without people; I am definately one who needs his alone time, though I still enjoy the company of those whom I love. In spite of this, I love few people and will not trust people easily because I'm not going to spend my effort on those who aren't worth it (obviously). However, I am usually very polite and well-mannered if only I recieve the same respect. I can be extremely nice and caring, especially to those closest to me. I am someone who is very understanding and insightful and like to help people with their problems, their fears, their confusion, because every human being has potential however rotten they may or may not be... I am cold and insensitive just as I am warm and friendly though. I may be compassionate, romantic and caring but I do have a darker side still. I can be very cruel but not without valid reason. Most people always assume me to be so nice and therein lies the error of your judgement. When I have reason and I am angry, I can be your worst nightmare. I also believe people should be told what they need to hear and not what they want to hear. I am a thinker and a dreamer, someone who is very good at analyzing people and situations, getting right down to the core of it. My mind is my best friend and my worst enemy... I am involved in the gothic subculture and have been now for a few years, I am not growing out of it, rather, I am growing into it. I love the clothing and the music, they are but another one of my passions. I am no goth purist but I will correct peoples' preconcieved notions about it. Needless to say, I take it seriously but not too seriously. I am more than willing to joke about being goth and make fun of myself frequently, not to promote stereotyping but because it's healthy to laugh at thy self... I am not one of those morons who just calls themselves "me," because we all are ourselves, an individual, a "me." Anyone can attempt to divert themselves from labels and think they're remotely unique and this is highly unlikely. As beautifully diverse as the world is, there are still those of us who are clones, drones and clones of drones; followers, those who cannot think for themselves... I like to read and write, and I will sometimes draw or attempt to design clothing. I would think I am fairly creative, my only problem is applying it elsewhere than my own mind. If anything I'm good at, it's thinking and analyzing. As far as more earthly pleasures go, I love watching movies or playing video games, perhaps a bit too much if I am inside too often. I love taking walks late at night or simply being outside and enjoying the still of the night... I am not religious but I am very spiritual. I am not agnostic, I am a seeker, a philosopher. I have a very dark and twisted mind, but it's all in good taste (depending on who you are). I laugh all the time, I'm not as serious as I may appear. I find beauty in many things and do take time to appreciate them, it's a HUGE part of my life. I'd rather live by candlelight than electricity; much of technology I find distasteful. I'm extremely weird and full of surprises, some even call it "mysterious." Sometimes I am very spacey (because I live in my head). I'm very mellow and laid back, I don't often stress. I'm extremely patient and try to exercise self-control. I try to accept things as they are, especially if I can't change them, the natural order of the cosmos so to speak. I am what many people call an "old soul." I have my weaknesses but I am only trying to cultivate them via pure willpower. I'm far from selfish or arrogant but I'm also a man who knows what he wants and needs... Whatever impression this summary leaves on you, you are entitled to your own oppinion. Love or hate me, I will live on, with or without you... If you have any questions or comments, let me know. Don't be afraid to talk to me, whomever you may be. Also, PLEASE do not add me if we have not talked, especially if we never talk, I am not a collectible. Introduce yourself and ask to add me first. I can't reply to or befriend everybody though because it gets overwhelming and as of late, I have been very busy. Not to mention, I don't like each and every one of you (from what I see or read) and am not always interested, but don't let that discourage you... I also don't usually reply to simple comments on pictures or ratings just so you know. At least say Hello (but don't take that so literal), and as a forwarning, if I get too many comments/messages, I might overlook your's. I also get on and off spontaneously, so don't feel offended if I don't reply because I'll do so when I can and if I see fit. As a side note, I am on myspace and facebook but do not have MSN or anything like that so please don't ask. Otherwise, thanks for reading =)
Friends and family, hanging out with good company, being alone, music (my music that is), movies, The goth/deathrock subculture, having a good laugh, love/sex and everything in between, individuality, diversity, friendly people, respect and discipline, chaos, art, make-up, thrift stores, DIY deathrock fashion, victorian-style clothing, boots, androgyny, strange and macabre things, deep conversations, psychology, philosophy, religions, history, astronomy, horror, video games, The German language, Europe, cemeteries, gothic and otherwise aspiring architecture, reading, writing, animals, vampyres, zombies, harlequins, fantasy and mythology, cold weather, coffee, drinking (on occasion), fire, ice, long/unique/pretty hair, tattoos and some piercings, sunsets and sunrises, serial killers (I only find them interesting), nature, dancing and clubbing, having a cigarette, blood and gore, basements, X-rays, surgical and dental equipment, mushroom clouds, gas masks, weapons and warfare (WWII), botany, candles, night, skeletons, bats, ankhs, crucifixes, the "little" things in life, and all of the hidden beauty sleeping throughout the unknown.
posers and fake people (especially all ye mallgoths), people who harm my loved ones (intentionally and unjustly), people who complain about everything (i.e. pity seekers), pseudo intelligent people who think their word is law, pseudo morality that restrains mankind, people that don't know when to stop, people with no regard to others, self-righteousness, organized religion, arrogance, vanity, envy, whores and sluts, gluttony, people with no sense of humor, when people are assholes for no reason, when people are ruled by fear, bad/aggressive drivers, self-harm, abuse of any kind, pedophiles and rapists, liars and manipulators, men who treat women like objects, betrayal, hypocrites, much of society and its' ways, poor grammer and people who speak/write like morons, fascism, ravenous greed and selfishness, beauty cults, ICP and all that juggalo shit, Slipknot, rap music, gangs, loud and obnoxious people, rude children, scene kids, screamo music, little yippy dogs, Hot Topic, racism/homophobia/sexism and any other mindless prejudices.
Goth rock, Deathrock, Darkwave, Post-Punk, Dark Ambient, Dark Cabaret, Psychobilly, Punk rock, Horrorpunk, Classical and Alternative rock.