WARNING: MY PAGE IS SLOW BECAUSE I HAVE A LOT OF VIDEOS ON IT. IT'S NOT YOU, IT'S MY PAGE. :3 "Time heals all pain, but I personally don't want mine healed" - Black Butler
Status: My heart hurts... :'( I'm so confused... :'(
Sex: male Age: 20 Location: Ogden,
Utah, United States
Member since: May 22, 2012 Account: Premium Member Orientation: Straight Status: Single Occupation: Temp at Cornerstone Research and Development
PLEASE READ MY PROFILE BEFORE YOU PROCEED TO TALK TO ME! I DON'T WISH FOR ANYONE TO REGRET IT! Hello stranger looking at my profile. My name is Fernando. I'm not typically like other guys you would meet on here and possibly anywhere else. Why you ask? Let's just say I would NOT be considered a "man" in another guy's eyes. So what is it?.... you really want to know? Are you sure? Are you 100% sure? Are you absolutely positively most a surly sure that you want to know?.......... okay I'll tell you since you made it this far. :p what is different about me from other guys is that I'm more... "feminine". I don't mean as in I act girly, I'm still a guy but I mean that I'm just more sensitive.... As in I love to hug, snuggle, and cuddle. So? So are gay guys. But did I say I'm gay? Nope. I'm straight. I like girls. I hate men with a passion. So then how are you feminine and straight? Simple. If a boy was raised by his sisters and females, and if he was raised by a lot of female friends, and if he was taught to be kind and sensitive, then yes it is possible for a guy to be straight and to be sensitive and affectionate. That's just a little heads up. If you want to know more about me, then keep on reading! Basically, I'm a kind loving and caring guy. I care more about others than myself. I don't like to bring pain to others even if they did hurt me before. I'm not one to seek revenge or wish pain on others. I leave that misfortune to the heartless to the all mighty one. I'm also defensive when it comes to friends having problems with assholes on this website. You mess with my friends, you mess with me. I am not so great with starting conversations so forgive me if I become boring at some point. I only have a lot to say when I'm asked about certain subjects, or am asked for a lot of detail. But I don't usually disclose a lot of personal info unless I can trust the person well. But I do love to talk to people that seem interested in what I like or just need someone to talk to. As I mentioned before, I like to be there for those in need and that have been recently hurt, or just need a caring guy to talk to. I can be random and silly at times when I'm comfortable with people. I know when to be serious, but it doesn't hurt to have a little fun. :3 And well, this might not really matter, but I'll say it anyways. I am still a virgin, so I am not all loopy about sex and stuff. So I don't make comments or remakes about certain physical features that may seem appealing (unless you really like being commented on your physical features or don't mind, then I'll make a comment IF you request it and if it will make you happy). I'll admit that I do have a common fetish, but I'm not going to let that get to me a be a pervert on anyone. I don't care if people think that me not having had sex yet is lame and makes me a loser. I don't care that I'm still a virgin and I'm proud of it. But if you have a problem with that, then keep it to yourself and leave me alone. I have my reasons to save my virginity. What I recently discovered is that even though I may believe that I have a grand imagination or if I think I have a grand idea, I'm really just narrow minded... I may have an idea, but I can't stick to it or make it a reality (if it is possible). If I come up with a complex idea, I can't form it into a displayable idea... I still do the "original" plan or standards and can't even come up with an easier way around things. I tend to drift from plans and go with the old or original. I can't seem to set my mind to do something new. what I think, is that I fear a change of pace... I think I even fear exploring who I am... I don't even know who I really am... some people call me an asshole, some people think I'm a great guy... so which is it? I honestly don't know... due to my narrow simple mind, I can't come up with anything else to do in or with my life... I have seen so much creativity, so much imagination... and I could never come up with anything so grand... this is also why I believe I shouldn't have such great people around... I'm too simple and foolish... it would take someone great to help me find who I am... but honestly, who wants to deal with another person's problem? Let alone a foolish one that should have been discovered a long time ago? If you choose to speak to me (which I doubt), proceed with caution... I may have a heart, but I lack an imagination that has had the tendency to upset people... This is all I can think of that is about me for now. If you would like to know more about me, don't hesitate to ask. There is more to me. These are just general things I like to do or are a part of me.
The Night Sky, Night Walks, Black Roses, Singing, Drawing, Reading, Poetry, Video Games (I only play PS3. Ask for my PSN Tag if you'd like to play with me.), Music (I have a "dark" and "light" taste in music. But its how I maintain my emotions. Check out my list of favorite artists.), Golfing, Bowling, Tennis, Acting (No I don't like to start drama but I do love to role play and just act for fun to make things a little more interesting.), The Victorian Lifestyle (That will include: Top hats, Suits (black and red), Shiny Goth Boots, Cane, White Face Powder, Eye Line, and Black Lipstick.), Gothic Romance, Romantic Settings (Like a stroll through the Graveyard, a candle-lit room with roses and rose petals on the bed, etc.), talking to good people and friends, the great friends I have, helping those in need, snuggling, cuddling, Love, Yu-Gi-Oh (Yes I am a nerd and I'm proud of it. :3), anime, and some other stuff I cant think of right now. I'll update the list when I think of something. :3
Okay. I'll list what I can of what I hate. The Mainstream, illegal drugs and druggies, alcohol and alcoholics, smokers (all kinds), lust addicts, deceivers, Big liers, haters, envious people, people that easily give up, violence to solve problems, any kind of violent or destructive item or weapon (if it's in a video game, I would not care because it's not real)(I would only use a weapon if my life or the life of my loved one, depended on it), people that make a big deal out of something that is not of great value, people that make a joke out of something serious and meaningful (such as Love and Romance), and especially heart breakers. One thing I hate about myself is that I'm not good with starting conversations. I'm not much of a talker, I'm more of a listener and someone that tries to continue the conversation. Another thing... I don't like adding random people unless you are going to talk to me. So if you add me for no reason, I will delete you. I don't like having friends that don't even talk to me. There are more things, but I can't think of them right now. You can ask me what else I dislike and I'll answer.
The Cruxshadows, Blutengel, One Republic, Rasmus, Panic! At the Disco, Depeche Mode, The Twilight Garden, A-Ha, GEAR-CX, Skillet, Elena Seigman, Deathstars, Mindless Self Indulgence, Dethklok, Sabaton, Combichrist, Phantom of the Opera, REPO! The Genetic Opera, Omega Lithium, Within Temptation, Third Realm, Queen of the Damned, Beethoven, Metallica, KMFDM, Apocalyptica, Nine Inch Nails, System of a Down, Final Fantasy music, Drist, Escape the Fate, Hurt, Foo Fighters, Tenacious D, Lamb of God, Cradle of Filth, Papa Roach, Eisenfunk, Bullet For My Valentine, Avenge Seven Fold, Korn, Cold, Rammstien, and some others I cant think of now. :3
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Videos of songs that I couldn't add to my playlist but LOVE SOOOO MUCH!!
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