"All objects seen by the eye and palpable to the hand became empty, light and transparent, as though they were light shadows in the darkness; and this darkness enveloped the whole universe. It was dispelled neither by the sun, nor the moon, nor the stars, but embraced the earth like a mother, and clothed it in a boundless black veil. Into all bodies it penetrated, even into iron and stone; and the particles of the body lost their unity and became lonely. The vast emptiness which surrounds the universe, was not filled with things seen, with the sun or the moon or the stars; it stretched boundless penetrating everywhere, disuniting everything, body from body, particle from particle. In emptiness the trees spread their roots, themselves empty; in emptiness rose phantom temples, palaces and houses - all empty; and in the emptiness moved restless Man, himself empty and light, like a shadow. There was no more a sense of time; the beginning of all things and their end merged into one. In the very moment when a building was being erected and one could here the builders striking with their hammers, one seemed to already see it in ruins, and then emptiness where the ruins were. A man was just born and funeral candles where already lighted at his head, and then were extinguished; and soon there was emptiness where before had been the man and the candles. And surrounded by Darkness and Empty Waste, Man trembled hopelessly before the dread of the Infinite. " -Lazarus I am a lost soul wandering aimlessly through the world trying to figure out where I fit in. I try to see life for all the beauty that it is, but it's hard to see past all the flaws. But that's why life is so beautiful, because of our flaws. I contradict myself at least 2 times a day sometimes more. I am a contradiction in itself. Most spend their life looking for love or acceptance, I find it trivial. I don't need the pettiness and drama that humans have to offer. I've come to find that saying "friends will come and go, but family is forever" is absolute and utter crap. The one's who have always left me behind was my "family". They taught me to hate humanity for what it is, and I am the product of their tongue. Pretty much family is an infinitesimal thought in the back of my mind that I rarely dwell on. I am one of little faith. I've come to find that I have my own beliefs, and refuse to conform to any meager religion. I believe we are all one brought together by the energies that are our soul and make up everything. When we die our energies are release back into the universe to be harvested and formed into another being, whether it be a blade of grass or a new plant. We are all thoughts in the divine mind. There's not right or wrong religion. Our purpose is to fulfill our calling, and it is your choice to live your life to the fullest and fulfill the destiny you were given. We have to capability to change the world, but we use that power to destroy for personal gain. In the words of a good friend I am a chameleon, I change with the wind. I don't fit into any category or stereotype. I am me. I am paranoid and insecure. I'll tell you all my flaws and argue my strengths. But sometimes my ego gets the best of me. I want to change the world but know I can't so I sit back and watch you destroy it. I wait for the apocalypse because then the plant can finally heal the scars we have caused, and regain it's allure. I aspire to do great things in the world and know I will I just lack the motivation and drive. Positivity is the key to greatness which is a view me and my brain dispute on a daily basis. I am borderline sane and enjoy every moment.

Ganja, Writing, Reading, Photography, Coffee, Music, Drumming, Numerology, Tattoos, Walking home at night with my music, H.H Holms, Zombies!!

People, Being cold, Television, c(Rap), Politics, All forms of pig, Palmdale, California, spoiled kids, not being able to have my piercings,

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