Sex: female Age: 23 Location:
South East, United Kingdom Orientation: Bi-curious Status: Single
Member since: August 17, 2010 Last logged in: Invisible
Occupation: University student Account Status: Free Account
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Hey Fellow Freaks !
I'm a 22-year-old student, French (to hell with prejudices), and a night owl . Blood drinker, why not, but not a smoker nor a drug user. I do not mind if you are. Your health, your problem. I've a piercing in my lower lip (right side labret) and change the color of my hair almost every two years. Green-eyed and deathly pale for ever, fair-haired for now. I'm a shorty ; 5'1. I'm Aquarius and Dragon for those who like astrology (quite unimportant to me). Regarding my character, I'm a clever and thoughtful person, sincere, sensible, very protective with my friends but also impatient, cold-blooded and moody at times, and they say I'm intransigent. I call it helpless idealism. Although I try hard not to let the shards of my teenage idealism disappear, I'm not easily surprised and I often wear a wry smile. Idealism, Cynicism... ; Painful inner tension... eased by the fact that I'm a day-dreamer.
It is also true that I'm a playful character. I will lack seriousness on purpose and turn dignified matters upside down, usually as an attempt to dispel the clouds of grim-faced friends, or forestall the creeping despair of Life's emptiness. However, don't get me wrong, there are things in this world that are immutable to me -not to say sacred- and to which I remain earnestly loyal. Among them, the feelings for/of the people I hold dear. Even if there's at times a cruel mist of irony interfering in my sentences, trust me, if I care for you, you will know
As regards to Art, I could remain absorbed in a painting for hours, as if I hoped my eyes could soak up the very essence of Beauty just by gazing at it.
My relation to Nature is alike to the romantic artists'. I love letting my spirit wander in its magnificence, whether embodied by ruins or a stunning overall view. It calms my insatiable mind down. I've always needed Silence and Solitude*, and praise them, as Baudelaire did. However, it may be because I have resigned myself to the feeling of loneliness. If my special someone deigned to cross my path, I might be able to love them* a little less.
I value Life, but Death haunts me. And Insanity and Despair lurk for me too... I'm walking on the abyss' edge.
As you may have noticed, I like to give a capital letter to
words which don't seem strong enough to bear the weight of the reality they stand for ^^.
Even if I adore my
friends , I'm something of a loner. In fact, I used to love them almost endlessly- but I'm tired of giving and not getting back. The truth is, even if they accept me for who I am, I don't think that a single one of my beloved friends actually understands me. Sad isnt' it ?... Maybe you would be able to, who knows ? Don't refrain from talking to me, I'm always happy to meet new people.
My studies are the biggest time-eater in my life, and therefore a part of who I am. A few words about them ; I'm currently studying English Literature in South-eastern England, since I'm spending my 4th year here. Last year I've been into detail with English and French (double degree, or "major", depends on your country's university system), subjects I already master quite well, but I can still get better, so don't hesitate to correct my english. I've previously spent two years in a preparatory class, which is a higher level institution than university in France, and I'm a former student in Politics - still interested in them but also quite disillusioned... You can speak to me in Spanish but I will not use it myself - I understand very well but I'm slow at writing it.
I guess nobody's immune to narcissism but hope I don't seem too pretentious in this profile ^^
Likes:
My friends & family - When people trust me
Words, Literature
Walk alone by the sea at dusk. Or in forests, particularly in Autumn, for I'm not unmoved by the nostalgic effect of the copper red colours :)
The old churches scattered in the french countryside and in the mountains, and their adjacent little cemeteries. Their silent restraint, only broken by the toll of the bells, is a dare to both Time and Death.
Bric-a-Brac sales (Vide-grenier) involving a whole town, in France. I love seeing the past looking back at me through all these objects from the previous centuries or decades. They seem less ephemeral than us...
Travel
Moomin ;)
Vampire related TV series and films
Black humour, messed up people (see, I'm pretty messed up too)
Learn the name of the stars - someday
Do the silly games in the back of cereal boxes
Smile or say hello to strangers in the street
See surprise, happiness and gratitude in the eyes of my friends when I've offered them a present that perfectly correspond them ( Yes I can do that )
Chivalry
Talk about philosophy, metaphysics
Shintoïsm, wicca
Japan (country, culture and cults) - Manga -Aïkido
Thunderstorms
People concerned by the environment
When someone stand up to me - benevolently of course
Cats
Tea, Vodka Carambar, Blood (?)
Dislikes:
To be added as a friend by random people (at least talk to me once !)
See how fast time flies
Bad luck
Guilt
Insomnia
Small talk
Rude, irrespectful,capricious people (though I can be whimsical sometimes)
Lies
Xenophobia
Animal cruelty
When I get up and someone else has finished the milk - how occidental of me, when millions are starving... but still
Plagiarism
Hear babies cry
Back stabbers, People too stubborn to admit their errors and say "sorry". That's immaturity. They make me feel like going for their throat and tearing it with my own teeth. Of course I won't actually do it ^^ I don't fancy blood that much... I'm just fierce when hurt, I guess that's My type of immaturity.
Maybe I should add Christmas...
Favorite Music:
I hope you don't mean to judge me on the music I like. My tastes are really heterogeneous / unshaped / in other words, a work in continuous progress. That's why I'm always happy when people make me discover new bands :)
30 seconds to Mars
AC DC
Joan Jett & the Blackhearts
The Cranberries
Scissors sisters
Mecano
Melatonine
Good Charlotte
Green day
Simple Plan
The Offspring
Kelly Clarkson
Avril Lavigne
Evanescence
Night Wish
Dido
Dionysos
The Rolling Stones
The Beatles
The Police
Pink Floyd
Telephone
Placebo
Shiny toy guns
Indochine
Superbus...
Music from movies ( Danny Elfmann's or Kill Bill or The Lord of the Ring soundtracks...)
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