I have my eyes, ears, mind, and heart open, I want to learn.
Dying is inevitable, living is not.
It is in the delicate, destructive way life ends that one can understand how to live. You may not know why you're playing the game, but I know why I am. This is a pursuit of happiness. I believe this is the only chance we have to live, and that's why I do everything I can to make the best out of any given situation. You may know big fancy words, or the answer to any equation, but I'm happy.
There are so many questions, ones without answers; the only answers we have never seem to completely satisfy us. It's within our basic nature to question things, everything. We begin doing it as soon as we are born and we make it known as soon as we can ask "how?", "why?". We never seize to wonder.
In routine I find safety and comfort. This structure is so restricting, but it has worked its way into my everyday life. I hate change, because I feel as though my whole life is thrown off balance with each little inconsistency. Some days, I change things around, unsure of how it will affect me. The outcome is never brutal or harsh, but a satisfactory change of pace. It may not be that I am afraid of change, but I'm afraid of things I don't know or understand. I tend to be curious; I like to know how things operate. I love investigating the devine thought pattern of seperate individuals, although I will never completely understand. The mind of a human being is so infinite, a concept I can only begin to grasp. It's beautiful, mysterious and most times very dangerous. It's in the complex way that our consciences work that we can determine good from bad, and then, well then we sit, we wait, we watch, we decide.
