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"Another thing is no matter how much you think you love somebody, you'll step back when the pool of their blood edges up too close." - Invisible Monsters, Chuck Palahniuk.
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Sex: female
Age: 19
Location: Peter'sBorough, Ontario, Canada
Orientation: Bisexual
Status: Widow
Rating: 9.95
Rating points: 1144
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Member since: January 08, 2007
Last logged in: March 22, 2010, 01:28am
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Latest Journal Entry: No Subject March 12, 2010, 10:56am
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They're inventing a new drug.
Hypo-Aimee-whatsitcalled.
The effects are three hours in my head..
Hold on tight.
There's a lot of faces, sarcasm and yelling.
There's blood, swearing and other sadistic moments in every corner.
The music is a little too loud, a little to random, and only in your head.
It's wise to let your mind wonder while feeling the effects..
Paranoia, manic/depressive behaviour and ringing ears are common side-affects.
Get ready for one hell of a trip.
Bring On The Poison
My name is Aimee.
I am eighteen years old,
(I'll get back to you on how I feel about that later).
In my final year of highschool..
Highschool has been a rollar coaster for me,
As it often is for most people.
I haven't had a social life until this year..
And it's kind of awkward.
To determine my stereotype,
Please scroll upwards and click on the picture above.
Chances are your head will do the rest of the work.
Good luck.
I'm a sarcastic person,
If you didn't catch that already.
I find that although I know a lot about myself
I have some contradicting ideas.
For example,
I can be one of the most empathetic people
You've ever met..
But I can also be one of the most cynical.
And I wish I could narrow it down to why
I'm like that,
But so far, I haven't come up with much.
I write.
I act.
I listen to music.
I think.
These are the things that keep me most happy.
Writing is my soul on paper.
Acting is my soul onstage for the world to see.
The music I listen to touches my soul.
And thinking is best for reflection of the soul.
As you may've guessed:
My soul often goes well-kept.
I guess you could call me what some people call:
Straight-edge.
I don't drink, do drugs, fuck randoms..
But I don't do those things because I don't want to.
I don't give my control away.
I'm the life of the party without substance abuse,
And I'm a virgin who is self-conscious enough
to keep my legs closed.
I could care less about the 'straight-edge-ity'
Of any of it.
I refuse to be
I am obnoxious.
I can be very obnoxious.
I used to take great personal offense at that idea..
Until I realized I am.
I can barely control myself when I get manic.
But I can also be very quiet.
People refer to me as an
'Outgoing Introvert'
Because as loud and obnoxious and friendly as I am,
I would much rather sit around alone and thinking.
I'm open-minded.
I respect opinions that are backed up and well-articulated.
There is on specific case where I find myself
Unable to see the other side.
Same-sex couples/marriage..
There is absolutely no reason to disagree
That human rights and equality should
Stop with different sexualities.
Don't argue with me about it.
Homophobia infruiates me.
If you learn one thing about me,
Know this:
My favourite band is my favourite band for a reason.
They speak to me, sing to me, play to me.
All of what they do feels as if it is for me and me alone.
I could care less whether you think they're too 'emo'..
Or whether you think they're not hardcore enough.
Things like that don't cause any effect to how
their music makes me feel:
Understood.
Show a little respect and
refrain from mentioning them to me.
If you have no idea what I'm talking about..
I encourage you to find an artist/band that moves you
The way My Chemical Romance moves me.
Everyone's lives are tragic.
In their own special little way.
Mine is no different.
And I've decided to go with it.
I have learned a lot from my experiences..
Even if they were shitty.
It's been said my empathy is eroded..
And I have to agree to a degree.
No, I don't care about some things..
I can't care about every little thing.
If I did,
I would've shot myself in the head
A long time ago.
I just think:
'I am a stone.
My heart is a stone.'
And I can feel it.
Yes, I swear.
I curse quite frequently.
I don't believe that swearing is a stupid-person's way
of expressing himself without proper words..
I think swearing is a very good way of expressing an emotion.
And as for swearing without meaning?
They're words.
We give them meaning everytime we use them.
Sometimes I wonder if there's something wrong with me.
Amoung other things,
My obsession with gore and sadistic feelings
scare me sometimes.
I've had severely homocidal feelings..
And I've kept a stopper on them.
But sometimes I worry that the pressure will build
And the stopper will fly off without warning.
I write a lot.
More than I do much else, to be honest.
Most of it is horror novels..
And most of it isn't appropriate.
I don't believe things should be censored.
Especially real life.
And I think that is seen in my writing.
Life isn't always pretty..
Good doesn't always triumph..
But sometimes, it's beautiful.
Sometimes goodness does come through in the end.
Every story is different.
I'd show you some..
But I've been stolen from enough.
Sometimes, I think I suffer from a god complex.
It probably isn't a good thing to have..
I just can't help but think that sometimes
my life is like The Truman Show,
on a much more universal scale.
Ask me anything about the world,
And I can tell you how it works out in my head
to be just about me.
I don't believe in romantic love.
I think that people are just obsessed with the
idea of a feeling that is completely euphoric
and are completely terrified of going through life
without it. am
So, what do we do?
We push, shove, force and break a person to fit
into this paper cut out that we have of love..
Even if they don't really fit right..
It's better to pretend than not feel anything at all,
right?
But don't get me wrong about it..
I'm not close-minded..
I just don't see it.
I believe every action in the world is selfish.
There are always ulterior motives for everything you do.
You many not be aware of it..
And I do believe most of this occurs on a
Subconscious level..
But I don't believe in selfless actions.
I love fiction.
Sometimes I feel like a breathe it.
It isn't always a good thing,
Because I'll find myself just wanting to sleep
or write all the time,
So I get to make the rules..
This probably goes along with my god compelx thing.
I am not religious.
But this doesn't mean I hate religion.
I believe every human has a spot in their heart,
For religion.
And for those who don't fill this with Jesus,
Or The Prophet, or Buddha..
They add in some rock'n'roll, or sex or money..
I think the world would be much more content
if everyone could recognize some of us have God,
And the rest have gods.
My advice to everyone whose read this far:
Think of Descartes theory of:
I think therefore I am.
Throughout your whole life,
The only person you have to please
Is yourself.
Know yourself,
Love yourself,
Be yourself.
My antonyms include:
Cliche,
Similarity,
Boring.
And I'm proud of it.
I'm a little self-absorbed?
It's always good to worry about yourself,
Silly.
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Likes:
She Loves You.
I'm not sure if there is a correct term for this,
But I find that I am always obsessed with something.
Ever since I can remember,
I've attached to something..
Anything..
And it makes me comfortable.
These things are usually material,
As pathetic as that sounds.
I love piercings.
They're kind of like an addiction.
You get one, you want more.
Even though they hurt a lot.
I have:
Snakebites, Left nostril, Septum and Surface Sternum piercings.
 
I want:
Bridge, Right nostril, and Two more lip rings.
My favourite movies are:
Beauty and the Beast,
Fight Club,
Donnie Darko,
V for Vendetta,
and the Nightmare Before Christmas.
My favourite websites are:
Vampirefreaks.com
and Postsecrets.com
My favourite music videos are:
Helena by My Chemical Romance,
I Don't Love You by My Chemical Romance,
Desolation Row by My Chemical Romance,
Looking Glass by The Birthday Massacre,
Coma White by Marilyn Manson.
Yes, I still buy CDs..
My favourite CDs are:
I Brought You My Bullets, You Brought Me Your Love.
Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge.
The Black Parade.
Holy Wood (In The Shadow Of The Valley Of Death).
AntiChrist Superstar.
Mechanical Animals.
The Golden Age Of Grotesque.
Smells Like Children.
You'll Rebel To Anything (As Long As It's Not Challenging).
If.
Origin.
Fallen.
The Open Door.
Not For Your Ears.
Year Zero.
Broken.
The Downward Spiral.
Pretty Hate Machine.
Nothing And Nowhere.
Violet.
Walking With Strangers.
Lover's Requiem.
Karmacode.
I love my coloured contacts.
I have a white pair,
And a black pair.
And I love freaking people out with them.
Some of my theme songs are:
Sleep by My Chemical Romance.
Bad Sects by Cursive.
The Haunting (Somewhere In Time) by Kamelot.
To Die For by The Birthday Massacre.
Even In Death by Evanescence.
Helena by My Chemical Romance.
In This Twilight by Nine Inch Nails.
Viva Forever by The Spice Girls.
Welcome Home by Coheed And Cambria.
Fix You by Coldplay.
Nymphetamine (Fix) by Cradle Of Filth.
The Greater Good by Nine Inch Nails.
Giant Swan by The Blood Brothers.
Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis.
Fly Away From Here by Aerosmith.
Tear You Apart by She Wants Revenge.
Iris by The Goo Goo Dolls.
Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol.
Something by Jim Sturgess.
Across The Universe by Jim Sturgess.
Who Wants To Live Forever by Queen.
The Speed Of Pain by Marilyn Manson.
Comfortably Numb by Pink Floyd.
Hide And Seek by Imogen Heap.
Sounds Of Silence by Simon And Garfunkel.
Bittersweet Symphony by The Verve.
Nothing To Lose by Billy Talent.
Since U Been Gone by Kelly Clarkson.
The Beginning Is The End Is The Beginning by The Smashing Pumpkins.
The Reflecting God by Marilyn Manson.
Cellar Door by Escape The Fate.
Desert Song by My Chemical Romance.
Like You by Evanescence.
Goodnight by The Birthday Massacre.
My Heart Will Go On by Celine Dion.
I Caught Fire (In Your Eyes) by The Used.
My favourite TV shows are:
Supernatural,
X-Files.
ER,
Friends,
Will and Grace,
The Simpsons,
South Park.
My favourite numbers are
Multiples of five.
I have a problem attached to that too.
If you take a closer look at my profile,
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Dislikes:
She Loves You Not.
For awhile,
I've believed that I hated a lot of things.
Hate was something that just came to me..
But as of now,
I've kind of decided I am just
Bothered by a lot of things.
I dislike a lot,
I don't hate a lot,
But I do hate.
I am human,
I hate.
These are some of the things
That bother me:
Vocal prejudice.
Some people feel certain ways,
We all automatically judge someone,
But that is no reason to not get to know
someone more.
Or are entitled to treat someone
in an distasteful way.
Majority of Humanity.
I believe the human race is selfish,
As all races are.
Humanity is:
Power Obessesed, Money-Hungry, Sex-Oriented..
And I find it disguisting
to see that at it's finest.
The most frustrating thing about this is
No matter how hard we want to change,
We never will.
People who tell the general public
About their addictions.
Cutting, drugs, alcohol..
It's nothing to brag about.
Get some help,
Talk about it in private
Or you won't be taken seriously.
My Skin.
Not the colour or my race.
I don't like it being exposed.
I don't wear T-Shirt without
arm bands.
I don't wear shorts or skirts without
Socks or stockings.
I've just always been like this.
People who feel they need an excuse
To dress or act they way they want.
'Im emo because my cat died.'
You're emo because you want to be.
People who are all about sex appeal.
Sorry,
It irks me to no end.
People who brag about their fan-ness
About bands they don't know.
Base your opinion accurately.
Don't like a band because
'you heard one song and everyone
else loves them.'
How hard is it to download some songs
Or buy a CD
and base your opinion on that.
People who don't understand
The difference (in music) between
Making it
to the mainstream
and being
Put into
the mainstream.
Where a band gets played
doesn't affect their sound.
It adds pressure on the band,
But the music doesn't die.
People who can't 'admit' their favourite band.
I love My Chemical Romance.
I've said it before..
I don't care if you don't.
I don't care if they're not hardcore enough.
I love them.
If you are assuming someone will
judge you based soley on your
Favourite band,
You're not giving that person
much credit, are you?
People who use religion as an excuse
For being judgemental.
If you don't believe in every aspect
Of a religion,
That means you pick and chose.
In which case,
Who you are judgemental of
means taking responsibility
for yourself.
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Favorite Music:
Stop Talking, Just Sing.
Let's be honest again.
I have an eclectic taste in music.
Somedays, I'll listen to:
Madonna, Lady GaGa, etc.
Somedays, I'll listen to:
Random scream-o stuff.
Somedays, I'll listen to:
George Gershwin, Javiere Narverrete.
Whatever speaks to me that day,
You'll hear it blaring from my speakers.
My Top 30 List of Most Played [Since 02/08]:
Hide and Seek, Imogen Heap.
Slow Me Down, Emmy Rossum.
Ring of Fire, Adam Lambert.
The Great Destroyer, Nine Inch Nails.
Weekend [dave olgivie remix], The Birthday Massacre.
Fireflies, Owl City.
Bad Sects, Cursive.
The Malediction, I Am Ghost.
The Golden Age of Grotesque, Marilyn Manson.
Cities of Night, Blaqk Audio.
Disposable Teens, Marilyn Manson.
Use Your Fist And Not Your Mouth, Marilyn Manson.
Desert Song, My Chemical Romance.
Helena, My Chemical Romance.
Is It Progression If A Cannibal Uses A Fork?, Chiodos.
Ghost Town, Shiny Toy Guns.
Across The Univerise, Across The Universe.
No Boundaries, Adam Lambert.
Cellar Door, Escape The Fate.
The Denouement, I Am Ghost.
The Warning, Nine Inch Nails.
Love Like Winter, AFI.
The Widow, Mars Volta.
Mark David Chapman, Mindless Self Indulgence.
The Beautiful People, Marilyn Manson.
This Flight Tonight, Nazareth.
Goodnight, The Birthday Massacre.
Lovers End, The Birthday Massacre.
Kill The Rock, Mindless Self Indulgence.
It's Not A Fashion Statement, It's A Fucking Deathwish, My Chemical Romance.
The bands I've seen:
My Chemical Romance [x3], Mindless Self Indulgence [x3], Billy Talent, Anti-Flag, Rise Against, Moneen, The Bled [x3], Madina Lake, Saosin, HIM, Linkin Park, Julien-K [x2], Placebo, Nine Inch Nails[x2], Boris, The Birthday Massacre, Vultures of Pop Culture [x3], Candle Cave Ensemble Part 2 [x2], Jane's Addiction, Street Sweeper Social Club, Lady Gaga, Kid Cuddy, Semi-Precious Weapons.
The bands I've about to see: Noneatthemomemnt =(!
These are most of the artists
On my iTunes
(meaning, more than one song from):
A.F.I.
ABBA.
AC/DC.
The Academy Is..
Across The Universe [Soundtrack]
Adam Lambert.
Aerosmith.
Aiden.
Aladdin [Soundtrack]
Alanis Morissette.
Alexisonfire.
Alice Cooper.
Alkaline Trio.
The All-American Rejects.
Anastasia [Soundtrack]
Anti-Flag.
Apocalyptica.
Aqua.
The Arcade Fire.
Audioslave.
Avril Lavigne.
Backstreet Boys.
Bad Company.
Barenaked Ladies.
Beauty And The Beast [Soundtrack]
Ben E. King.
Bif Naked.
Billy Talent.
The Birthday Massacre.
Black Eyed Peas.
Black Sabbath.
Blaqk Audio.
Blind Melon.
Blink-182.
The Blood Brothers.
Bon Jovi.
The Brave Little Toaster [Soundtrack]
Britney Spears.
Celine Dion.
Cher.
Choidos.
Chopin.
Cobra Starship.
Coheed And Cambria.
Coldplay.
Cradle Of Filth.
Creed.
D12.
Daft Punk.
Dave Days.
A Day To Remember.
Deadsy.
Delain.
Destiny's Child.
Donnie Darko [Soundtrack]
The Eagles.
Echo and the Bunnyman.
Electric President.
Emarosa.
Emilie Autumn.
Eminem.
Escape The Fate.
Eurythmics.
Evanescence.
Evans Blue.
The Faint.
Fall Out Boy.
Family Force 5.
Fiona Apple.
Flo Rida.
Flight Of The Conchords.
Flyleaf.
From First To Last.
GMC.
Good Charlotte.
Grease [Soundtrack]
Greeley Estates.
Green Day.
Guns N' Roses.
Gwen Stefani.
Hawthorne Heights.
Heart.
Hedley.
Hellogoodbye.
Hecules [Soundtrack]
Holy Fuck.
Hot Hot Heat.
Hunchback of Notre Dame [Soundtrack]
I Am Ghost.
Idiot Pilot.
Imogen Heap.
Jack's Mannequin.
Javier Navarrete. Jesus Christ Superstar [Soundtrack]
Jet.
Jimmy Eat World.
Josh Grobam.
Josie And The Pussycats
Joydrop.
Julien-K.
Justin Timberlake.
Kalan Porter.
Kamelot.
Kanye West.
Kelly Clarkson.
Kill Hannah.
The Killers.
Korn.
Lacuna Coil.
Lady Gaga.
Led Zeppelin.
Lifehouse.
Lindsay Lohan.
Linkin Park.
Lion King [Soundtrack]
Lion King 2 [Soundtrack]
Little Mermaid [Soundtrack]
The Lonely Island.
Lord of the Rings [Soundtrack]
Madonna.
Manfred Mann's Earth Band.
Mariana's Trench.
Marilyn Manson.
The Mars Volta.
Mayday Parade.
Meat Loaf.
Metallica.
Metro Station.
MGMT.
Michael Jackson.
Mindless Self Indulgence.
Missy Elliott.
Moulin Rouge [Soundtrack]
Mulan [Soundtrack]
Muse.
My Chemical Romance.
N*Sync.
Natasha Bedingfield.
Nazareth.
Necessary Response.
Nelly Furtado.
Nickelback.
The Nightmare Before Christmas [Soundtrack]
Nightmare Revisted [Soundtrack]
Nine Inch Nails.
Nirvana.
No Doubt.
Ocarina of Time [Soundtrack]
OTEP.
Our Lady Peace.
Out Of Your Mouth.
Owl City.
Ozzy Osbourne.
Panic! At The Disco.
Peter Gabriel.
Phil Collins.
Pink.
Pink Floyd.
Placebo.
Plain White T's.
Pocahontas [Soundtrack]
The Polyphonic Spree.
Porcelain And The Tramps.
Porcupine Tree.
Protest The Hero.
Prozzak.
Queen.
Red Hot Chili Peppers.
RENT [Soundtrack]
Repo! The Genetic Opera [Soundtrack]
Rihanna.
Rise Against.
The Rocky Horror Picture Show [Soundtrack]
Roisin Murphy.
Sabrina The Teenage Witch [Soundtrack]
Saosin.
Savage Garden.
Seether.
Senses Fail.
Shiny Toy Guns.
Simple Plan.
Slipknot.
The Smashing Pumpkins.
Social Code.
The Sounds Of Animals Fighting.
Spice Girls.
The Spill Canvas.
Stars
A Static Lullaby.
Steve Jablonsky
The String Quartet.
Sum 41.
Sweeney Todd [Soundtrack]
System Of A Down.
Tenacious D.
Theory Of A Deadman.
Three Days Grace.
Tom Petty.
Tool.
U2.
The Used.
Veggie Tales [Soundtrack]
Vultures of Pop Culture.
Weird Al.
The White Stips.
The Who.
Within Temptation.
X-Files [Soundtrack]
Yeah Yeah Yeahs.
YTV Big Fun Party Mix 1.
30 Seconds To Mars.
The 69 Eyes.
Underlined - Owning of CD[s].
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