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We're all so connected, but we've never been so alone.

"Victims, Aren't We All?"

You'll see..I'll show you.

I will tolerate a world of demons for the sake of an angel..

My name is Ashley Duran (My brother named me Duran from the band Duran Duran) I never consider myself anything I just look like how I want to and act like who I am.

My Sexual Orientation, it doesn't matter to me what gender someone is. If they love me i'll love them regardless of gender.

I love music. Music and Davey Havok are my two obsessions ^^.

I get made fun of quite alot and insulted for having a feminine beauty and always wearing makeup i've even been called a fag because my real name is Ashley, but it doesn't bother me to much because i've gotten use to it.

The only thing that bothers me is if my friends are made fun off and I sometimes fly off the handle if they get hurt by other people. But I have a pretty good control of my emotions. I've been through quite alot of pain in my life but after living through it I mostly put it behind me and i'm thankful for that because its given me a better look on life sometimes and taught me how I should be, act, and how not to be.Whenever I did something wrong I was hit when I was younger but thats no big deal.Some girls think I am to fem because sometimes I wear little bows and hair clips in my hair. I'm an hopelessly attracted to pretty scene boys and girls. I have a bad habit of making people fall in love with me. I don't ever try to or intentionally do it, but after being friends for a while or helping them, girls and boys end up saying they are in love with me and I hate to hurt anyone so its always sucks they tell me that when I don't feel the same way.

Since I was 13 I have cut myself whenever things got so bad I couldn't control them or when everything just became to much to handle. It has become such a crutch to me that now when things get to bad to control I always cut again.

Makeup is a passion of mine and I must be pretty good at using and applying it because women tell me mine is always better than theres and some of my friends get me to apply theirs for them or ask me tips. I've played guitar for 3 years and use to be in a band ad we made an EP but broke up afterwards. The only person i've been close to without being in a relationship was my best friend Sydney he and I acted so strange together and close, his parents wanted to split us up because they thought we were gay (niether of us are we were just close ^^) he was my best friend and my first boy to ever kiss, he moved away when i was 16 in October and we grew apart.I was engaged for two years in a long distance relationship it ended last year. I'm a pesceterian, musician, writer, photographer , artist, and diffrent.

Does it depress you? How alone you really are.

"Never Knows Best"

My whole life is a dark room. One, big, dark room.

All because of you,

I believe in angels.

Not the kind with wings,

No, not the kind with halos,

The kind that bring you home,

When home becomes a strange place.

The stains coming from my blood tell me go back home.