Music is my passion, obsession, and escape. Songwriting is my absolutely necessary form of catharsis. I was working on a Music Industry: Recording Technology degree at the University of Memphis but am now switching to Psychology. I'm one of the Nephilim children of the Angel of Death :P I don't like trying to "describe myself", and I don't intend to. Figure it out for yourselves.
A Messenger came to me
He showed the roads that I could take
Two diverging paths before me
The choice was mine to make
Because I am the Duality
With LIMITLESS emotional capacity
The blood of Death and Life
Flows inside of me
The brightest Love and the darkest Rage
Exist within me side by side
Both vying for supremacy
And that is why this choice is mine
I am the Light in the darkness
The prodigal Shadowchild nailed to the clouds above
The silent Zero in their dreams of Glass
Omega's twin, the Son(s) of Rage and Love
(Genuine, permanent, and unconditional...) Love.
Playing/listening/writing/recording music, guitar, explosions, ANIME!!!!, the ocean, Destruction, Creation, reading (particularly cyberpunk, horror, mythology, and religious texts), blood, lust, psychology, philosophy, theology, movies/video games, knives, adrenaline, insanity, anyone who CARES about other people (indiscriminately), animals, and pizza :)
ARROGANCE, apathy, DENIAL, ignorance, stupidity, intolerance, being looked down on/condescended to, narcissists, "sheep/group mentality," being told what to do, judgmental people, fake people, people who think that saying "their new stuff sucks I only like their old stuff" about a band somehow makes them the "true fans," and people who lack personal identity (and that can include someone from ANY scene. Example: hating on something thats popular, simply BECAUSE it's popular (regardless of whether it's actually GOOD or not), is a "popular" trend in itself, and makes you sound like an idiot with your head stuck up your ass. If you like something then fuck what other people think about it, just do what you want to do. Think for yourself. It's not that fuckin hard.
I honestly can enjoy (or at least appreciate) all genres of music (except country). Music is everything to me, it's my fix (got over 2500 albums/30000+ songs on my comp and still growing), and I believe that an open mind is important (there's music for EVERY mood out there).
But my first love (obviously, otherwise I wouldn't be here) lies at the dark end of the spectrum.
Metal (all genres), dark electronic music (aggrotech especially, industrial, EBM, etc.) as well as trip-hop and ambient are my favorites. But I like everything from rock to jazz to punk to synthpop/darkwave to japanese pop/rock to classical and almost everything in between.
"My parents were always… fighting. I didn't have a bedroom, so I'd always just curl up in a corner and plug my ears when they started screaming. I had to close myself up in my own shell. There was … nowhere for me to rest.
Thats when I found a band called Sad Machine… The vocalist was from a bad home environment like me. Whenever things got rough, he would cover his ears with earphones and escape into the world of music. I started doing the same.
It felt like my problems were… blown away. The vocalist was screaming out for me!! He was pleading for ME!! The kids acting like everything is normal are wrong, and the kids who are crying are RIGHT. Those of us who are all alone have TRUE feelings. He screamed out to the unfairness of the world as he lashed out and shattered it!!
He… saved me.
I had music in a life where I thought I had nothing.
.... This is my life. I wanted to sing like this. This is why I was born. I want to save someone, just as I was saved. I finally… finally found it."