There comes a point in your life when you realize who matters, who never did, who won’t anymore, and who always will. So don’t worry about people from your past, there’s a reason why they didn’t make it to your future. I'm never going to change for anyone, I love the monster but it will never change me.
My name is Andy I have a monster living underneath my bed.
He’s made up of burnt frog skin, white-red cobweb veined eyes and a collection of missing pebble teeth. He judges me because of my appearance. Sometimes we play scrabble.
(The first time he was just a mechanical hum beneath the bowing wooden planks, he was just a faint smell of green and he was just a hot cloud of fog around my lips. It’s the wind, it’s the wind, I breathed. Then he breathed back, heavy and loud and monster-like; AM NOT.)
He always spoke in capitals; MONSTERS ARE MUCH TOO SCARY FOR LOWER-CASED LETTERS, he informed me one night under silk cum-stained covers. I shined the flashlight into his eyes until they changed colour and he bared his teeth.
He sometimes visits my dreams. The grass turns sickly where he trudges and the woodland creatures whimper and scramble in his wake. WHERE’S MY HUG? He holds his warm monster limbs out, palms snatching me from my happy-ever-after and grins gap-toothily. I manage a chuckle as I buckle in his embrace.
He used to keep me awake with questions- he’d keep me awake with questions that don’t have answers. He’d ask me why, why, why, the piercings? why the lifestyle?, why the boyfriend? And my eyelids would cling to my cheekbones in desperate hope of sleep. My piercings would ache and my brain would be overcome with thoughts, thoughts like maybe I need to grow up, just maybe I'm a failure. But then my tongue would slide across the roof of my mouth my eyes would close ever so slowly..and all the noise all the bitter sounds would be replaced with thoughts and sounds.
I held pillows over my eardrums and blared my metal bands- but the ringing of his guttural voice forced through all else and looped continually. You’re a bad song, A bad monster I told him, and he kissed my temples with his sticky fingers.
He knew everything about Andy. He knew about the hurried, decisions the mismatched kiss's and the tangle of hands thru the days and the way they all spoke my name and made my toes tingle. He knew the way they made my heart and eyelashes flutter and the way they broke my heart. He heard between the sobbing, absorbing my tears with frog fingers, about the way they would all eventually say goodbye.
I told him I loved him and the lime of his cheeks brightened and his eyes held mine tight and close. I LOVE YOU TOO. He grumbled in the prettiest way you’d expect of a monster. I held his webbed fingers and let my heart thump against them.
GROW UP, he’d suck from beneath me, on the hard cool floor amongst candy wrappers, manga and porno's.And I'd like it. Monster is godly at giving head.
That monster under my bed is my boyfriend Chris.I love Chris more than life itself.Nobody or Anything could compare to him.He is my everything.He is the monster under my bed. -Andy
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Christopher James Snook I love you more than anything in this world. The way you make me feel is unlike anything i've ever felt. The way you look at me makes me melt like a popsicle.I love how much you make me laugh. We fight so much and it just kills me everytime, but I know for a fact I could never leave you over anything. Nothing will ever tear us apart Chris, we'll get through everything everyday and be together as long as you'll have me by your side.I love you so much baby, don't ever leave me...I'll do anything to stay with you. I'll break any guys neck who ever tries anything with you...You're the love of my life baby. I want to share every day with you. I love your beautiful eyes, your sexy smile with your little vampire grills and your perfect body.You are completely flawless. I live ever single day for you baby, and I hope we can share the rest of ours together. Always and forever.
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fakes girls(no offence)I love alyssa that is the only chick i will ever love cuz she is my bestfrand<3 school meat eaters
Favorite Music
hard core grind core nintendo indie metal black metal death metal scream-o-
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