Introduction

In the past I've been told I look like a doll. I've been told I'm beautiful. I've been told I'm frightening. I've been told I look inhuman. I've been told I look like I might snap in half at any moment. I've been told I look at my best without make- up. I've been told my make-up is incredible. I've been told I must have one of the best pairs of legs in the world. I've been told I act 10 years my senior, at least. I've been told I look frightfully young sometimes. I've been told I look about 21. I've been told the only reason I look my age is my height. I've been told that I have wonderful hair. I've been told that I look anorexic. I've been told I have a great ass. I've been told I have 'Jesicca Rabbit hips'. I've been told I look so pale, I look blue. I've been told I have incredibly soft skin. I've been told I'm insane. I've been told I have the perfect nose. I've been told I make the best cookies. I've been told I'm walking sex. I've been told I look like a tart. I've been told I'm a whore. I've been told I'm unique. I've been told that I'm strange. I've been told that I'm too intelligent for my own good. I've been told that I'm stupid. I've been told I'm delusional. I've been told I'm too apathetic. I've been told I'm too highly strung. I've been told that I have problems. I've been told I need my head sorting out. I've been told that I'm self-destructive. I've been told I'm selfish. I've been told that I'm just asking for trouble. I've been told I have remarkably long eyelashes. I've been told I have a piercing gaze. I've been told I have incredibly beautiful eyes. I've been told I can cause someone so much pain with a single word. I've been told I'm something special. I've been told I'm witty. I've been told I'm sarcastic. I've been told I'm a bitch. I've been told I'm cynical.

And yet, despite all the things I've been told about myself, I've never been told that I am me, and that is all that matters...

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About Ashleigh

The Basics
Name: Ashleigh. Just Ashleigh. Don't call me Ash or I will hurt you
Nationality: Scottish (although, I now live in the heart of England -- In Leicester).
Age: 18
Starsign: Aries.

The Appearance
~I'm just a smidge under 5'10".
~I have very long (it reaches my ass), naturally straight, blonde hair. I want to dye it auburn/red (think Phoenix in the X-Men III movie), but I don't have the money to get it professionally done and my hair's not really in the best of conditions, so I'm currently having to make do with trying to find a semi-permanent dye that doesn't turn my hair an unflattering shade of orange.
~My eyes are greenish-brown, and tend to change colour every so often with mood or other various factors.
~I wear a large variety of clothes. I'd hate to limit myself. If I see something I like, and I can afford it, I'll buy it -- I don't really give a toss if I've found it in an obscure proprieter of 'Gothic and Fetish clothing', a thrift store, a sex shop, or New Look.
~I have an obsession with coloured and patterned tights/stockings/hold-ups. I have a huge collection, and virtually every pair is different. I often cry when I get a hole in a pair, though, as it's rare I'll find another like them.
~I have delightfully pale skin. I make a point of keeping up my pallor by avoiding sunlight and not leaving the house without at least factor 40 sun block on. Even in the winter. At night.
~I'm "unhealthily thin", which I like, and have no plans on changing...

The Girl Behind it All
~I'm usually quiet and cold at first, but if I decide I like you, I'm one of the most caring and protective people you will ever meet.
~I probably don't like you. Why? Because over 80% of people on this site are tossers.
~I'm nocturnal (in that I stay up all night, not sleep all day [stupid insomnia]), when I don't have annoying necessities in the way.
~I swear a lot when angry, but rarely do it otherwise.
~I like talking to new people (so long as they aren't boring or asshole- ish).
~I hate getting my picture taken, but I want to become a model.
~I much prefer girls to guys, sexually.
~I like web design. I could have made this profile prettier, but I instead opted to make it easy to read, as, well, I think that's what profiles are actually for -- reading.
~I'm a perfectionist.
~I'm terrified of aging, but the idea of dying doesn't bother me.
~I have a lot of love/hate relationships with things.
~I'm often a hypocrite, but only because I don't like to see people suffer.
~I'm a lot more neurotic than this profile would lead you to believe.
~I never truly forgive anyone, for anything.
~I'm more perverted than you will ever know.
~I have a lot of regrets, but who doesn't?
~I play violin, piano, organ and guitar.
~I'm a typical teenager in that I like music a lot, but not so typical in a lot of other things. Hmm...that makes me sound a little pretentious, doesn't it? Oh well...

The Most Important Things to Her
~My three pets--two adorable black and white moggies (Dusty and Muffin) and a Pyrenean Mountain Dog (Maddison). Look in my Gallery for pictures of them. I haven't seen them in almost a year, but they're still one of my greatest loves in life.
~My wonderful boyfriend

Contacting the Girl
I'm fine with it if anyone wants to add me to AIM/Yahoo, but please a) ask/tell me first so I know who you are, b) actually talk to me (I will never start a conversation, so if you want to talk, you have to make the effort) and c) be aware that I'm rarely on it and am more likely to be on MSN (which I'll probably gladly give you if you ask me).

♥If you bothered to read all this, I probably love you.♥

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Ashleigh Loves
Corsets.. Hosiery.. Shoes/Boots.. PVC.. Chokers.. Mini skirts.. Basques.. Long haired, eyeliner wearing guys.. Good Music.. Carebears.. Hula Hoops (the actual plastic ones, not the crisps).. Chocolate crepes.. Green apples.. Chemistry class.. Black feathers.. Daggers.. Lip Service clothing.. Dark Star clothing.. Signs.. Incense.. Fire.. Forests.. High cliffs.. Overcast days.. Half melted chocolate.. Solitude (to an extent).. Poppy Z. Brite.. Anne Rice.. Terry Pratchet.. Velvet.. Lace.. Shopping.. Having money.. Picture comments (although, no one ever leaves me any *pouts*).. Alcohol.. Hugs (from the right people).. Make-up.. Sincere compliments that she believes she deserves.. Presents.. Tigers.. Cats.. Wolves.. BMW Z4 Roadsters.. The smell of sandalwood and opium (seperately or together).. Shiny things.. Genuine smiles from people with pretty eyes.. Long comments (who doesn't love them, though?).. Her pets.. Tiaras.. Baking.. Mike Bohatch's artwork.. Andrew Eldritch's singing voice.. Robert Smith's singing voice.. Pom-Bear crisps.. The moon.. Ebay.. Happy Bunny.. 'Blackadder'.. 'Black Books'.. 'Monkey Dust'.. The comedy genuises that are Roman Dirge, Jhonen Vasquez and Dylan Moran.. Blood (such a cliché, I know).. Alissandre Martines.. Hats.. Dead roses (this profile is probably a bit of a giveaway that I like roses, mind you).. Vinyl.. Writing (novels, short stories, poems, songs, diary entries, rants, anything really).. Tim Burton.. Sheep.. Her black feather wings.. Drawing.. Happy Tree Friends.. And many more things she can't be bothered listing..

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Ashleigh Loathes
Ignorance.. Bigotry.. Discrimination.. Bad 'music'.. Being broke.. Her insomnia.. Feeling unloved.. Insincere compliments.. Being labeled.. People who fake mental illness and parade it around like a badge of honour.. Cooked vegetables.. Most meat.. Losing things.. Midges.. Not being allowed to give into addictions.. Failure.. Nightmares.. Gaining weight.. Being forced into doing things she doesn't want to do.. Making people that she cares about unhappy.. Being blamed for things that aren't her fault.. Liars.. People who "TyP lYk DiS".. Coconut.. Mornings.. Waking up.. Pain outside of her control.. Evangelists.. Bad skin days.. Millipedes.. Daddy-Long-Legs.. Clowns.. People that rate "1" and don't leave a comment as to why.. Being invited to crap cults (unless your cult is truly amazing and you bother to read my profile first to see if I seem like I might actually want to join, just don't bother).. App cults, in general (seriously, get off your fucking high horses...most of you are pathetic).. And many more things she can't be bothered listing..

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Ashleigh Listens To
Sisters of Mercy, the Cure, Crack Ov Dawn, Hannah Fury, Siouxsie and the Banshees, Nine Inch Nails, Black Sabbath, Nirvana, Ten Foot Dolls, New Model Army, Jack Off Jill, Placebo, Scarling, The Dresden Dolls, Midnight Oil, Bauhaus, KMFDM, the Mission, London After Midnight, Girls Under Glass, Depeche Mode, the Cult, Rachel Stamp, Rammstein, The Cruxshadows, Seraphim Shock, Rasputina, Cradle of Filth, Orgy, Autumn's Grey Solace, Kidneythieves, Collide, Hungry Lucy, Guns 'n' Roses, Type O Negative, Rosetta Stone, Kate Bush, Theatre of Tragedy, Dir En Grey, Queen Adreena, David Bowie, Anders Manga, and other various wonderful artists that I may or may not continue listing at a later date.

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Ashleigh Is in Love
With the most wonderful man in the world. He's 28, a total sweetie-pie, a fucking freak, and we'd do anything for each other. He's helped me through so much, and still is doing so. He is the first person to ever properly look after me. He actually tries to understand, and cares for me ridiculous amounts. I don't know what I'd do without him.




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Ashleigh's Signs
(If anyone else wants to make me one, just send me it and I'll love you forever -- I'll make you a custom layout if you want and you'll have a nice little link to your profile here).

Many thanks to the gorgeous purring_kitty for my very first sign :)


Uber thankies to my dearest Devlin, for the (6!) photos of the sign he made me *huggles*


And his very special personal one :)


Thanks to ElfinCreature for this lovely sign.


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Show me that you love me - hug me. Go on, you know you want to.

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Layouts by Ashleigh
I adore playing about with coding and making new layouts for VF, but sadly I can only ever have one on my profile at a time. So, I like to make layouts for others, too.
If you would like a custom made layout, just tell me what colours you would like, and any other specifications, and I'll see what I can do for you.
I don't need anything in return, although if you want to give me something, I'd love signs, Premium membership (if you're really really generous), or just a new friend. If I don't like you, I probably won't make you a layout, so making friends with me first is a good idea, although certainly not essential.
I ensure that all my coding works in IE before letting you near it -- although, I hate Firefox with a passion, so I can't guarantee it'll look as good in that.

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Ashleigh's Cults
These are links to all the wonderful cults I'm happy to participate in. I don't join many, so the few I do are exceptional.


(Ooh, I made this banner, don't I just rock? =P)
I'm a co-owner here, and it's probably my favourite cult. It's small but it's one of my most active cults. Every member is unique and brilliant in their own way.


A lovely community of gorgeous, intelligent and fun girls, a good contender as my favourite cult.


A great cult (and another banner I made). Do join and help it live up to its name!


A huge cult with many active, caring members (including myself!). If you need a place to get advice, just to vent, or want to help others, and you happen to be in possession of a vagina, then join!


The first cult I ever joined. The banner does a good job of decribing it.