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Profile:  I was born in feb 1991 and I have lived in the Netherlands ever since -_-'. You know, that country with the clogs and the windmills and tulips... not to forget the legal weed the thing where famous for in most countries. For the ones who can't do the math that means I'm 17 years old now. When I turned 17 people told me it was kind of a stupid age to be. Since its the year after your sweet sixteens and before you become 18 and be officially an adult. I can't say I really care. For a 17 year al kid I am pretty mature (how childish of me to imform you) Since I'm from the netherlands don't get a wrong idea I'm no alchohol addict nor drugs addict. Although I got my experience. and ehmmm... this is my VF, hope you like it (how cliché (I know)). Probably not though... it's a bit long for reading it all... well for most of you it will be. Different people discribe me in diffrent ways (like with every other person) only a few people know for who I really am. At Times I even doubt that. Most people know me as a dreamy really serious and friendly mature person. But to be honest Im quite a sarcastic bitch. Some people know that and really seem to agree. That's not to scare you off just to let you know. This is because at times Im just to honest. And I have quite a big opnion most of the time. And when I'm sure that I'm rightÏ'm willing to let you know. I'm hard to live with when you get close to me so I wont let you. I'm a closed person and don't talk about my feelings alot. I do talk a lot (like you might have noticed) and tell things about myself but just not about my inner feelings. I'm not easy to get close to and it takes a while. I do have lost of friends but with most of them I just hang around and have fun. At the moment I'm atending the a school for goldsmits (vakschool in Schoonhoven). I aim to do so for another 3 years. And maybe a extra year for silversmits. I might as well explain the difference. A Goldsmith makes yewelery, not only with gold but with al sorts of materials. A silversmith makes bigger usable objects, like cups plates ans all sorts od silverwere. It may sound weird, but it is really great. Never felt as much at home at a school as I do there. Before this I did the Havo. Even though I never had trouble getting through it, I was made to do things with my hands. Lost of people think its a waste of my education. But I am truely convinced I never made a better step in my life. I live in Schoonhoven where I study. Although I usually go to my partent in the weekends. Still really feel at home there and luckily I'm still very welcome there. I'm a atheist I don't believe in any kind of god. Religion is a belief in something spiritual that cannot be proved. I wish I did believe in something because believing in something a good reason to live your live good. I respect any kind of religion as long it's not bad excuse for killing other people of other religions.  The reason I like religion is because I have seen great things because of it. Once I was in a church an I saw a women standing infront of a statue of Christ and she was so overwhelmed... it just looked so pretty it gave me a really warm feeling. I'm just to hard headed to believe there is a guy in the clouds who rules everything. Just I'm a person who wants touchable proof before I actually believe something. This doesn't mean I'm not a loving person, I care about people Always afraid to hurt others. But I can't say I really loved a person. Of course I like guys with the butterfly feeling and all when you see that person, but for me the word love has a real importand meaning. For others it's just a four letter word. To me love is an inexplainable yet incredibly strong feeling for someone... Most people use the word "love" to get into someone else's pants. Something I extremely dislike. Love is overused in today's world, people say they love someone because of the way they look or their body. That isn't love. Love is when you can't do anything without thinking about that person, you always want to be with them. It's not that you want to have sex with them, you just want to spend time with them and you just want to hold them and never let go. Love can be fooling, you can think you're in love and it can lead to the most horrible feeling in the world. Also you can wait so long for someone, loving them, and waiting for them to love you back, but they don't return it for a long time and you spend years thinking and thinking and it tears you up inside but when that person realizes that they love you back it's miraculous. Love is a very strong word, don't overuse it. Ofcourse I said manny times to my parents and my sister even my best friend that I loved them and that's true But you won't hear me say it to everybody I hurt a few with that by not saying I Love you too But even when I don't love a person I can easely have "fun" with them ^^ I love dating. I had enough fun with guys with out telling them them I loved them Now lets get on with a complete different o so commen every single person talkes about subject: LABLES I don't care if you label me, go ahead and have fun. But when you speak to me use my name. Because it's darn annoying when people are trying to get my attention by calling: hey gothic, because I won't call them: hey kakker (dutch word), emo (this is not entirely true cant help it at times), prepy or what ever. Just when you speak to me pretend like I'm a person Not that I'm not used to it by now. Any way I guess you get my point. I'm just not planning to be one of those people who scream not to be labeled and say they are them selves Here is the big news flash: so is every body so that group will get the label: people who dont want to be labeled (you know it are always the same type) Damn scary to see how much the look like each other XD And some lables arn't that bad at all most goths share the same profile, although most of them wouldn't admit it A goth is a person who likes the darker side of things. They usually listen to death metal and goth music, such as Dismember and Bauhaus. Marilyn Manson is NOT goth. He's just...weird. Real goths are not depressing and suicidal like the posers you see at Hot Topic. Goths are fun to be around and aren't afraid to laugh at themselves every so often. They don't worship Satan and aren't evil despite what some ignorant people might say. Goths don't all dress alike either. They like to create their own unique style. Goths are also very intelligent and creative. A lot of them are writers and artists. Goths DON'T envy the popular people. They are what they are because it makes them happy. Goths would rather stay who they are and be among the so called "freaks" than be like everyone else and be popular. They understand that there are more important things inlife than popularity, and usually succeed in life while the popular ones don't become much of anything. If someone becomes "goth" because they couldn't get any friends or are depressed and angry all the time, they are most likely a poser. So if you look at it like that it isn't bad at all and a other group I get put in is of course with the freaks... what else freaks: A term that is a 'catch-all' for mainstream society to use to describe anyone who they may believe isn't mainstream. Such as mallgoths, punks, hardcore kids, emos, metalheads, goths and whatnot... pretty much used to describe anyone wearing black to often. Oh yeah listen to metal so get put in that cult aswell.. Metalhead: A dedicated listener to any kind of metal music. Is thouht to be angry and violent and evil, but is less likely to kill than a rapper. DOES NOT require the hair or gear, but must respect the genre for its music and not its image. (look at me I don't look like one... or acourding to most of you guys) But still I really dislike the question from other: hey are you goth? Mainly asked by people who are mainstream... you cound't really expect more from them though. But just give it a rest (says who) Just let people be I like drawing, people are telling me al the time that I'm good at it, but its not the reason I draw. It's a way to express myself. Although I must confess I have been quite neglective and haven’t drawn a lot lately. I'm interested in music but I guess that counts for most people Well... music... there haven’t been a single day I haven’t listened to music. Music as great influence on me. A song that I can relate to can totally change my mood It can make me feel sad or frustrated... but most of the time it makes me happy and helps me to get my mind of things. I love music for the music and not for the bands (how many people I'm going to get angry with this). I don't look up every thing about the roots how good bands started, I'm not trying to be an enormous music dictionary. If something sounds good I listen to it, that's all. So don't try to show of how much you know about the whole metal history... I'm not interested. Metal isn't the only music I listen to. I like all sorts of metal (trash till symphonic rock) but not just that I like Celtic music, pub music, reggae, cultural music. I grew up with all sorts of different styles. My mom was always preparing her dance classes, so I got to listen to every thing. To what I listen just completely depends on my mood. Just hope you don't hate me for this if you do btw it's your problem not mine. For the rest I'm a pretty down to earth person. I'm a bit chaotic sometimes because all the stressing about school wrok and those thingd. I love to solve things by talking to others. I have a strong opinion most of the time. But I'm always willing to change my mind if you come up with good strong senseble arguments. I love having firce discussions, so try me. I'm not a violant type most of the time I'm a pacifist :P because it's just freaking hard to get me really angry but when you do watch out. When I'm angry I get black before my eyes... I knocked two people out in my life and I don't plan on doing it again. Although I have to say I do practice swordfigthing wich is really fun and kinf of violent. Gives A kick Probably only reading my profile, you don't really get to know me well so try in a other way :P Well maybe a bit better than the average profiles you get to see around here I guess I'm a bit hopeles writing al this down... well it's good for killing time I actually would want to fill the page even more with all the stupid story that still need to be told but I don't really feel like torturing you even worse So if you want to know me beter than leave a comment and maybe.... *whispers* where going to end up in a beautiful friendship ^^ (I really have my hopes op don't I =P) btw if you have the IQ of a goldfish don't bother This is me couple of years ago ^^ I think I was uhm 10 years old  Random Facts: *Thirty-five percent of the people who use personal ads for dating are already married. *An ostrich's eye is bigger than it's brain. *Every person's decisions, no matter how bizarre they may seem to you, makes sense when you consider that person's perceived options. *Guinness Book of Records holds the record for being the book most often stolen from Public Libraries. *The average person spends 2 weeks of its life kissing. *In india it is cheaper to have sex with a prostitue than buy a condom *Male bats have the highest rate of homosexuality of any mammal. *People share their birthday with at least 9 million other people in the world. *On average, 100 people choke to death on ball-point pens every year, so don't stick it in your mouth! *On average, 12 newborns will be given to the wrong parents daily *FUCK actually means Fornucate Under the Comand of the King. Oh by the way, check out my sister's art-site. She'll love you. (or mine... I'll love you too)Link below oh an other thing I'm not going to join more cults than I already do And I promise you you don't want me I'm kinda lazy with that stuff Likes: In random order: *being me* *friends* *sword fighting* *playing my guitar* *Like I said, I like drawing* *going to concerts* *going to festifals like park pop, Lowlands, Elfantasy fair, metropolis etc.* *have long conversations* *people who think before the act* *people who are down to earth and realistic about things in general* *my imagination* *adventure* *weird al yankovic* *good discusions* *talking on the phone* *beachwalks* *Drop (liquorice)* *loyalty* *being creative* *respect* *Dreaming* *tree climing* *mountains* *that my brain works poperly* *silence* *being happy and hyper* *rainbows* *staring at the sky* *rest* *being outside* *being social* *playing weird games* *being completely random* *people accept how I am* *being trusted* *being spoiled* *great minds/ smart people* *compliments (aslong people dont over do it)* *being sarcastic* *sitting on the streets with my friends singing weird songs * *anyone who can make me smile and laugh* *going out* *flirting (but not with every random guy)* *dancing* *running really fast* *attention* *situps* *malibu* *Gluhwein* *advocaat (not sure what the English word for this is)* *martini* *beer* *being lazy* *privicy* *my headphones* *trying new things* *People who take the time to read my profile* *writing* *parks and forests* *sitting on the floor* *Full Moon* *castles* *martial arts* *the night* *elffantasy fair* *romance* *kissing* *being free* *being able to help people* *people who want to help me* *black, red, purple and silver* *my lolita dresses* *victorina goth dress* *Piercings* *showering* *animee* *my family* *presents* *manga books* *tree huggers* *exitement* *my sterio* *my mp3 player* *taking baths* *playing with fire* *campfires* *nice surprises* *looking forward to nice events* *Snow (we allmost never have snow in the netherlands hate it)* *magical creatures :D (dragons!!!, unicorns and fairies)* *make-up* *Ireland* *the efteling* *Mythology* *Hugs* *Pirates* *Internet* *Money* *Chilling* *Fire* *Wolves* *Crows* *Dragons* *My Computer* *Sleeping* *Ballet* *Cameras* *weird hats* *alls sorts music* *zelda* *Monty Python* *fruit* *Moshpitting (what a girl like moshpitting? :O)* *boxing against pillows* *food (how wrong)* *my computer* *Fable* *Chinese food* *cookies ^^* *walking so I can clear my mind* *songs or poems I can relate to* *reading good books* *photoshop* *youtube* *media player* *being happy* *my room* *fantasy* *acting* *Halloween* *chrismass ^^ (I'm not christian but still is a fun holiday)* *Stars* *sunsets* *cudeling* *Miffy (my rabbit)* *spikes* *chocolate* *chocolatemilk* *Smiles* *Safety pins* *climing in trees* *Roses* *my dagger* *swords* *good lyrics in songs* *Photography* *lighters* *the sea* *Theatre* *I like to say fuck or kut (dutch word)... bad habbit still it releases a lot of stress and anger* *sometimes it's fun being bitchy but usually i respect others feelings* *black and white photos* *love and being loved* *creative people or artists in general* *the old Disney movies* *Tim Burton movies* *movies like Howls Moving Castle & Spirit Away* *war movies like Breaveheart, Troy, Lord of the Rings enz* *clothes & accesoires* *games* *different cultures* *Celtic things* *writing & reading poems* *acting* *stupid web comics XD* *Fresh Air* *ballet* *dance* *being calm* *being able to controle myself* *interesting people* *rain* *sunny days* *parks with lots of trees* *computers* *sleeping* *singing when no one is around* *eating ice cream* *meeting new people* *candles* *being with friends,actual good friends* *my family* *having fun* *msn* *my teddy bear (this is not evil he likes being dressed up like this ^^ what can I say? He rocks)*  STEAL AND DIE Secondhand-friend Hello stranger You can find me in the dump store You can buy me if you want For I am for every one A second-hand friend Some people played with me But got bored with me in the end I got some scars and bruises Still I’m just good enough As a second-hand friend Hello stranger You can find me in the dump store You can buy me if you need a toy It is hard to find a one new For I am your second-hand friend I’m not expensive I haven’t got a big tag Don’t lose the receipt Use me, have fun And bring me back I’m everyone's second-hand friend ©2006-2008 ~May~ Dislikes: In random order: *being laughed at(I know I choose for myself to dress like this so I can handle a lot)* *people that laugh at other people* *being in a really big group for a long time* *being alone for a really long time* *being depresed* *immature people* *Homophobes* *girls that live up to the whole blond image* *addictions* *peer presure* *reality shows because they are damn fake* *Mondays* *being scared* *being locked-up* *People with an attitude* *people that discriminate* *Being pissed off (altough sometime it does feel good)* *Phony people who pretend to be something they're not* *crying babies (I like babies but if they are crying I'll get crazy)* *frans bouwer* *some one lying to me (one of the worst thing you could do to me)* *Being nagged at* *Disappointment* *to Lose friends* *False Hope* *Heartbreaks* *people dying out on me* *Liars* *Being ill* *being ignored* *when people don't read my prof but just comment on pictures (god... I'm a hypocrit)* *homework(who doesn't)* *nightmares* *headaches* *stress* Bands seen: In random order: *KISS* *Tesla* *Yngwie Malmsteen* *Saxon* *White snake* *Judas Priest* *Moonspell* *Symphony X* *Sabaton* *Sonata Arctica* *Iced Earth* *Novembers Doom* *Korpikklaani (5x)* *Apocaliptica* *Nightwish* *Soilwork* *Primordial* *Avanged Sevenfold* *In Flames* *Marilyn Manson* *Stone Sour(2x)* *Finntroll(2x)* *Legion of the Damned(2x)* *Sodom* *Juliette & the Licks* *Muse (2x)* *Lostprophets* *Korn* *Linking Park* *Placbo* *krezip* *Heidenroosjes(3x)* *Nine Inch Nails* *The Shins* *Motorhead* *the Kaiser Chiefs* *The Killers* *New Par* *orion* *Epica (5x)* *Aserai (2x)* *Within temptation(3x)* *After forever * *Mastodon(2x)* *Annatar(2x)* *A New Dawn(4x)* *Ghost Of Babylon* *Sculpture(they sucked)* *Gentry* *Ametheon* *Svidgar* *Thirsty Dog* *Chain of dogs* *Pain Of Salvation* *Asthenia* *Conspiracy (they sucked)* *hawtrone heights (they sucked)* *Insomnium* *Keep Of Kalessin!* *Satyricon * *The old dead tree(2x)* *Omnia(7x)* *Gor* *Faun (7x)* *Rapalje(6x)* *Mediaeval Baebes* *Blind Guardian* *Therion* *Aerosmith* *Joe Satriani* *Lamb Of God* *Heaven & Hell* *Drowning Pool* *Black Label Society* *Moonsorrow* *Children OF bodom* *Iron Maiden (2x)* *Life of Agony* *Brutal Truth* *Lauren Harris* *Turisas* *Hammerfall* *papa roach* *Devil Driver* *Das Ich* *Afeter Forever* *sanne en ik* *luie hond* *Alleta* *morning* *Roadkill* *Infadels* *exorien* *Flesh Made Sin* *Inhume* *Secrets Of The Moon* *Suicide Commando* *No Turning Back* *The Hangmen* *Discharge* *Valkyre* *Sylvermyst* *Icaros* *Transentience* *Backfire* *Impossible Situations* *Sanne & Ik* *Convoi Exceptional* *Vixy* *facewreck* *De Jong de Band* *Ramallah* *Nargaroth* *Setherial* *Throne Of Katarsis* *Corpus Christii* *Ravencult* *Glorior Belli* *Panchrysia* *Voordorst* *Under Destruction* *Warclash** *The Transsylvanians * *Valravn * *Irfan * *Lebocha * *Malbrook * *The Pigeon Detectives* *Killswitch Engage* *Dropkick Murphys* *the Kooks* *Gogol Bordello (2x)* *Tricky* *Stephen Lynch* *VNV Nation* *Blood or Wiskey* *Reaper* *Total Chaos* seen more bands on festifals like: -Graspop(2x) -Lowlands(3x) -Castlefest (2x) -Keltfest -Elfantasyfair(4x) -pinkpop -westerpop -wantijpop -baroeg open air(2x) -midwinterfair (3x) -metropolis (2x) -parkpop (2x) -de Beuk -queens day of bash -filtervest -Gloriam fest yeah I screwed up I deleated half of my 'bands seen' list =_= I soorta updated it a little now.. sill working on it but this is what I remember so far Favorite Music: Link 1: http://h-johanna.deviantart.com/ Link 2: http://drowning-soul.deviantart.com/ Link 3: http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseac
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