People & things I loveWorking Out at 24HR Fitness Card games Black and White Photographs Beautiful Eyes BDSM and Bondage Whiskey (Knob Creek, Makers Mark) Petticoats The Walking Dead XBOX 360 (Left 4 Dead, Fallout, Dead Island) Cooking Stainless Steel Going to Bars My Dogs Stuffed Animals Adventure Time PallMall Red 100s Cameras Motorcycles Billy Idol Stephen King Trolls Rolos Camping Anything Outdoors Corsets Fruitbooting HOUSTON HASH HOUSE HARRIERS! | Check these videos out:Ju-onAnatomie 1&2 Schindler's list Angel Heart 2LDK Van God Los (Godforsaken) Run Lola Run Uzumaki St Johns Wart Kontroll Fausto 0 Ringu Suicide Club Tomie Boo Interview with a Vampire Resident Evil Circus Infektion Pulse Do you wanna know a secret? Dream of a warrior Strangeland One missed call 1&2 Kill Bill (And to think, I didn't want to watch it.) |
Enjoy.Our present-day language seems to be a totally inadiquate instrument for our undertaking. If this is true; how handicapped we are!? After all, language is our professional tool, and certainly, any craftsman is seriously handicapped by poor tools. While the surgeon is improving his technique, the physicist building better cyclotrons. The general practitioner using more efficiant drugs, the farmer modernizing his impliments, we still try to do the impossible: to integrate personalities with the help of a non-intergrative language. A unitary language which would create, or result from, unitary personalities is a condition sine qua non for an integrated personal or social structure; but today the developement of such a language is in its' infancy.Becoming aware of the difference between observation and thinking is a good beginning for the body work. learning to get in touch with your body is simply being aware of what is obvious inside your skin without thinking about it. Much as we often overlook what is happening outside, most of us are even more cut off from what is happening inside-and even more cut off from what wants to happen. All our daydreams and speculations are forms of internal dialogue "On the one hand; on the other hand," back and forth. While we take the by-products of internal dialoguing as ultimate realities, we are largely unaware of the ways of the process and how tied up we are in the time and energy that is expended on it. We do see that we incessantly allocate our living experience into two or more roles which are in conflict because one at least is fixed by some ideal of what "should" happen. We do not see that in trying to escape the painful consequences of this division, in trying to put things together again, all we succeed in doing is to create a false unity: We identify with one role and take it for granted with deadly seriousness, and allocate the complementary role elsewhere as though we were not responsible for it. The organism cannot tolerate an unfinished situation. With every finished situation, we feel good; with every unfinished situation, we feel bad. To finish a situation, in order to achieve well-being and stabability, we mobilize out forces to attack the problem. The more obstacles that stand in the way, the more energies we are required to being put into play. |
Poems:Aristolian SchizophreniaI'm not sad anymore Because I keep having This hallucination That makes me laugh When I'm sad. So I keep laughing All the time And that makes people Think I'm mad. So they want to lock me up, Not knowing that I'm Laughing at them For thinking I'm mad That's when my hallucination (That I haven't told you about) Becomes them... That is, unless you can laugh seperately At two things at the same time Without laughing twice. How Absurd I'm visiting here And there must be A bed to lie Next to someone In Somewhere- Whispers-an absurd Number of voices- Each one straining To hear The other Over the roar Of its own sound. At times One can hear them all. The ducking stool There stands my friend, in yonder pool An engien called the ducking stool. By legal pow'r commanded down The joy and terror of the town. If jarring femael kindle strike, Give language foul or lug the coif. If noisey dame should once begin To rid the house with horrid din. 'Away!' You'll cry, 'You'll grace the stool!' 'We'll tell you how, your tongue to rule!' The fair offender fills the seat, In sullen pompt, profoundly great. Down in the depths the stool descends, And here at first we miss our ends. | My MusicNINProject pitchfork White zombie Rammstein Lords of acid Dir en grey The pellows Babylon testament Helloween Rob zombie Billy idol Robert Palmer Calling undertoe Zantikz Live (Yes Fleetwood mac) Depeche mode Collective soul Androgyny Killradio The eagles Orgy Pulse Pat benatar Kiss Hayseed Dixie Anthony Rother Soul Center Ian Van Dahl PPK Mercyful Fate Dance to trance Luke Vibert Man with no name Mike shannon Sixtoo Emmanuelle Top Gwen Stefani DJ tiesto DJ Arbiter Banco Do Gaia technova Inertia Front 242 Darren Price Phaze Das Ich (SOOOOO GOOOD!) Souljah Skinny Puppy Kittie Voodoo child MoodyMANN Com.A Headscan Minimalistix DJ icey Dulce Liquido The freak & Mac zimms Robert Miles (WOW!) Klinik Future Breeze 2 Flying Stones Sedona Kotani Kinya Krystle K Mad' house ATB DJ Moody Frankie bones Duran duran Doran Ted Patterson Neodym Bluescreen Think head Matt flores Liabach Rosabel Corrosion of Conformity Bon Jovi Def Leppard Underworld Dresden dolls Wolfsheim Icon of coil Mindless Self Indulgence Soft cell New order Gackt Kana Pikyun Diary of Dreams Audra Malice Mizer |
JOURNAL01/02/13: Today is the first day I have checked this VF account in years. I figure, I'll revamp it a little. Start being slightly more proactive in this "GLORIOUS" community. Feel free to send me a message, I'll be slowly, but surely, fixing this profile and posting more pictures. |
50 Facts about me:1. I probably drink too much.2. I have two dogs, Lokey and Prints. 3. My favorite video game is Silent Hill. 4. I'm a huge XBOX fan. 5. I am a Hasher. 6. My best friends are Pace, and Arianna. 7. My bed is more comfortable than anyone elses. 8. I own 22 airsoft guns. 9. I finally got a smartphone THIS YEAR. 10. My favorite movie is Schindler's List. 11. I have 6,023 songs on my computer. 12. My sense of humor is often very misunderstood. Probably cause I'm not very funny. :( 13. I have a teddybear named Pooky. 14. I own 3 PS2's. 15. I've been an EMT for 3 years. 16. I speak English, well. And can converse loosely in German. 17. If I could have one meal for the rest of my life, it would consist of Crawfish, Oysters, and Gumbo. 18. I love to cook for other people, my favorite is Breakfast. 19. I play Enemy Territory on the computer. 20. I once road an Elephant... 21. Every year I make an appearance out at ren fair, at least once. 22. My favorite bar is AL's Sports bar. 23. I like to touch myself. But who doesn't? 24. I used to race motorcross when I was a little kid. 25. Every year I go to Monster truck rally's that are held in my town. 26. I've been to see NOFX and the Bouncing Souls in concert. 27. I don't get embarrassed very easily. 28. I've destroyed 4 computers within that last 10 years. 29. My celebrity crush is Andy LaPlegua 30. I'm now perminently banned from AOL for: Violent Content. 31. Now I use Internet Explorer. 32. I'm a packrat, and I hate throwing things away. 33. I live with my grandmother in a one story home. 34. I love to Karaoke, but because of my stagefright, I normally get myself drunk first. 35. I love to skate. 36. My grandmother and I own land out in Weimar. (West I-10) 37. I love to hang out and go to the park. 38. I love camping with a group of people. 39. I have approximately 47 spoons in my house. 40. I'm about to buy a Southern Flying Squirrel. 41. I'm trying to get a job with the hospital, appearntly if I want to work there, I have to quit smoking cigarettes. 42. When Kingdom Heart's came out, it was my heroin. 43. I normally only drink Water. I don't do sodas. 44. But I LOVE milk and apple juice. 45. The way to my heart is charm and intelligence. 46. I love when a man knows his place above a woman. 47. I often make a fool of myself. 48. I'm a little bit of a hypocrite. 49. I own nearly 560 books. 50. I love... I LOVE to help people. Don't ever hesitate to talk to me. | Dislikes:Ice in my drinksWhen someone says NO to me Broken computers Cocky Men wH3n p30P13 tYp3 1ik tH1s Jars that are hard to open Blemishes When I run out of shampoo Being made to feel guilty for something I shouldn't feel guilty for. Men who cheat on me And then lie And then start dating married women And then still call me up to complain about their lives. |
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